I Love MCR.'s blog

This is for you sis, for Teenage Misery:) sis you are amazing, kind, loving, understanding, and honestly the best sister any person could ask for. you were the first one to save me. the first time earlier this year when i honestly was going to kill myself you messaged me and all night and stayed with me until u knew i would be alright. for that i owe you my life. id do anything for you sis, i honestly would. if someone asked me to bleed for you u sure as fuck bet i would and if anyone dare ask me to die for u i would do it faster then a heartbeat. that is how much i love you sis. how much you really mean to me. and i know alot of times im rude to u or i take you for granted but sis you honestly mean the world to me. without u i never would have know what its like to fall in love, or to go paintballing, or to get to see MCR live, sis youve changed me. your my biggest hero.

hhere are two pictures of me.... i told you all i was ugly and here is the proof..... this is why people hate me.
told you,
Acid.

so someone just emailed me these pictures....... makes me think hmmm weres a gun???? oh right downstairs>:) not sure what im going to do yet.
evryone says ill find someone but i know its not true. ill die alone... none of my dreams will ever come true.. im better off dead.
Acid.

All your friends are buisy going on dates and having fun with there bf's or gf's while ur all alone cleaning and doing homework. Ya it's really depressing that I have never been asked out therefore I have never been out on a date:"( ita cause I'm a fat ugly loser that no one loves or even likes:"( I hate my life.
Acid.

All your friends are buisy going on dates and having fun with there bf's or gf's while ur all alone cleaning and doing homework. Ya it's really depressing that I have never been asked out therefore I have never been out on a date:"( ita cause I'm a fat ugly loser that no one loves or even likes:"( I hate my life.
Acid.

Famous last words says: I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone. And I say: I AM afraid to keep on living I AM afrai to walk this world alone.
So long,
Acid.

Last night I went to the funeral for my basketball coach. I got there and hugged his family and gave them my sorry's. Then I hug with more basket ball girls and we watched the video and looked at all the pictures while crying. We jut kept thinking coach would come walking in wear sweatpants and a t shirt like he always did at practice. That he would come up to us and tell us to get to the gym and start shooting hoops like we were at a game or at another persons funeral. But no it was his funeral. I didn't stop Crying at all. Then finally I had to I to the school right across the parking lot from the church and practice "go tell it on the mountain" his favorite hymn. Finally the service and singing and a bucket load of crying. We miss u alot coach!!!! Rest in peace. We love ya!
A very sad
Acid.

You realize that tge past weekend wasn't just a nightmare it was real. That yea he really did die and ya she really did break up with u and yes u spen at least over 5 hours cryig this weekend.you realize yay tonight is the panic! At the disco concert but tomorrow is the funeral.
Question is why do I keep on living?
Acid.

I'm still crying. I miss u. I miss us. I can't lie without u.
Therefore I think I'll die.
Acid.

My gf just broke up with me. Then when she called after about fifteen minutes when I was balling she had to go cuz she could t Stand to hear me cry. It's her parents fault. Thy found out. Now it's over. I still love her with all my heart. I know no one will ever love me like she did. I love her still. She says we can still meet and that one day will be together but idk. By that time she will have met a bot fallen in love and had a first kiss while I'll be all alone.
Funk my shitty Alone life.
Acid who's not so sunshiny.
Ps: I'll miss ur laugh, ur smile, ur love. I miss everything about u. I really hate that I can't send u that promise ring. Guess I need to take it back to the store. I still love u.