I Love MCR.'s blog

Whats this whole "Very much alive thing"??? I havent posted a blog in forever and i havent been on the community page in forever so I am a bit lost. Well..... I am off to go sing at school for the sacred Christmas concert... again! haha wish our all girls choir luck!!!!!!!!!alone with the freshy choir, Chamber, and the "show off" choir!!! Oh and Jubi!!!! Thanks guys!!
xoxo Angela:)

I'm really sorry for how poorly iv treated you. It was bad and wrong and stupid for me to get all bitchy at you. You one of my closest friends and I love you so much. I am glad ur getting married hun. I envy how beautiful and smart and lucky you are. Iv been such a bad friend and I hope you can forgive me and still allow me at yous wedding.
Love you.
Xoxo Angela.

Im feeling rather alone

Everyday wether I be in school, at home, online, with friends, out somewhere all I see are couples and it drives me insane. I'm so fukin alone. I get sooooooo damn jealous!!!!!! Am I the bad of a person that no one will gummie a chance? I just can't uderstand it..... And I come here to escape it but it's all over here too!!!!!!! I think i may leave the site..... I don't know anymore...
Xo Angela

So one of my closest friends here is getting married and never even told me...... I'm so proud of her but it reminds me how alone I am.... Hell I can't even get a guy to go out with me....... I just realized I will never get married...... Never..... I hvent self harmed in over a year but I think I need to now..... I'll never have my special day.... Because I'll never have that special person...... I sill never be good enough.... Love Hates me..... I will never be married..... I will always be alone....
someone give me peace from this ever lasting he'll
Xo Angela

[] smoked
[X] consumed alcohol
[] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[X] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[] kissed someone of the same sex
[] had sex
[X] had someone in your room other than family
[] watched porn
[] bought porn
[] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 3
[X] taken painkillers
[X] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[X] lied to your parents
[X] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[] done something illegal
[X] felt hurt
[X] hurt someone
[X] wished someone to die
[x] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 12
[X] missed curfew
[] stayed out all night
[X] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[X] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[] dyed your hair
[] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 17
[] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[X] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida

1) Height? 5' 5"
2) Virgin? Yes.
3) Shoe size? 9 1/2 to 10
4) Sexual orientation? Bisexual.
5) Do you smoke? Never have Never will after I almost lost my dad to lung cancer
6) Do you drink? sometimes
7) Do you take drugs? no
8) Age you get mistaken for? 16-19, people thought I was 16 at age thirteen. Im now 15
9) Have tattoos? No. I wish
10) Want tattoos? YES
11) Have piercings? Yes, my ears
12) Want piercings? Ring in nose and lip
13) Best friend? ..Cant say
14) Biggest turn ons? That’s for me to know and for you to find out;)
15) Biggest turn offs? Fourcing me to do something, nasty breath
16) Favorite movie? Cant pick
17) I will love you if...you will love me
18) Someone you miss? Brian, Dean, all people iv lost to death

So the girl in the picture..... She is ME. Now I am deeply sorry if I scar anyone with my icky face. I know I am not the most beautiful girl or the smallest sized girl but I am Me. In these pictures I actually feel like I look kinda pretty. (I know my bedroom is really shitty, and yes those are kittens on the fan blades, why are there kittens? well my dad painted those on there when i was like 5 and i have to paint them to go with my new room. Ya i got an odd room with messy shelves but what ever. lol) You may notice one of my eye's is kinda redish, it is because my contacts sometimes make my eyes really sore. Other then that i really like these pictures. These pictures show the real me for who I am. Love me or Hate me this is who I am!
Thanks guys. sorry I'm kinda icky.
xoxo
Angela.

Saw this and found it perfect! haha

When your single and you cone here to tell people how you feel an all you see on zone six is A bunch of couples and people posting pictures of there bfs an gfs and talking about love. Cause yet again it reminds me how much of an ugly fat loser I am and that again I'm forever alone:"( why do I come here? Maybe I'll leave the site. I don't really know yet