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OKAYYY so i write the fanfic "I'll Never Let Them Hurt You, I Promise".
and i feel like only 1 person is reading it. and i just was wondering if i should just stop.
if you guys could let me know if you want me to keep going, if you like it, if you read it, or COULD YOU PLEASE READ IT c: <3
if you like fanfics i would hope you would like mine. i work really hard on it so people can enjoy it and i just feel like no one likes it. they started off with like 10 comments. now 0 or 1. what happened?
just please let me know cause its making me really sad :/
i really love you guys and please leave a comment letting me knowww <3
~mute music~
xxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

OKAYYY so i write the fanfic "I'll Never Let Them Hurt You, I Promise".
and i feel like only 1 person is reading it. and i just was wondering if i should just stop.
if you guys could let me know if you want me to keep going, if you like it, if you read it, or COULD YOU PLEASE READ IT c: <3
if you like fanfics i would hope you would like mine. i work really hard on it so people can enjoy it and i just feel like no one likes it. they started off with like 10 comments. now 0 or 1. what happened?
just please let me know cause its making me really sad :/
i really love you guys and please leave a comment letting me knowww <3
~mute music~
xxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

(Riders POV)

oh my god, i understand now. I mean...i remember. Nick..Nick..what was it. Nick WIlson. That was it.
"Nick?"
"Oh so now you get it. Pathetic. I've been wasting my life on you, and you are just now remembering me a little? Psh" he looked up to the corner of the van looking put out.
"Im..im sorry. I had no idea-" i was cut off.
" had no idea? haha seriously? Of course you had no idea! You wouldn't look past your god damn feet!" He looked into my eyes. Angry..shoulders tense. but then...his shoulders started to go down. And his face started to soften.
"Your eye's..." he said. " Greenish grey..hopeless..."
"Excuse me?" i was so confused.
"I've never seen them before. I've always wanted to see your eyes."
"Oh...." I looked down at the ground. What the hell was going on?
"Okay. Whats the whole point of this. You took me away, you have my tied up. Where are you taking me? Why did you take me?"

(Riders POV)

oh my god, i understand now. I mean...i remember. Nick..Nick..what was it. Nick WIlson. That was it.
"Nick?"
"Oh so now you get it. Pathetic. I've been wasting my life on you, and you are just now remembering me a little? Psh" he looked up to the corner of the van looking put out.
"Im..im sorry. I had no idea-" i was cut off.
" had no idea? haha seriously? Of course you had no idea! You wouldn't look past your god damn feet!" He looked into my eyes. Angry..shoulders tense. but then...his shoulders started to go down. And his face started to soften.
"Your eye's..." he said. " Greenish grey..hopeless..."
"Excuse me?" i was so confused.
"I've never seen them before. I've always wanted to see your eyes."
"Oh...." I looked down at the ground. What the hell was going on?
"Okay. Whats the whole point of this. You took me away, you have my tied up. Where are you taking me? Why did you take me?"

(Riders POV)

oh my god, i understand now. I mean...i remember. Nick..Nick..what was it. Nick WIlson. That was it.
"Nick?"
"Oh so now you get it. Pathetic. I've been wasting my life on you, and you are just now remembering me a little? Psh" he looked up to the corner of the van looking put out.
"Im..im sorry. I had no idea-" i was cut off.
" had no idea? haha seriously? Of course you had no idea! You wouldn't look past your god damn feet!" He looked into my eyes. Angry..shoulders tense. but then...his shoulders started to go down. And his face started to soften.
"Your eye's..." he said. " Greenish grey..hopeless..."
"Excuse me?" i was so confused.
"I've never seen them before. I've always wanted to see your eyes."
"Oh...." I looked down at the ground. What the hell was going on?
"Okay. Whats the whole point of this. You took me away, you have my tied up. Where are you taking me? Why did you take me?"

(Riders POV)

Blurry. Everything was blurry. It was so hard to see through all my tears. The sight of seeing Gerard like that. The thought of that being my last time with him. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I was just trying to picture Gerard. Trying to keep calm.
I could feel the bumpy van. i could hear the motor roaring down the road. my wrists were now tied to tight i was bleeding. i was still trying to pulling my arms out of them, but that just made them cut into my wrists even deeper.
I let out an out loud cry of sadness and weakness. tears streaming down my face.
"Shut up bitch! You can't even take being five seconds without your faggots. Your not even shot. So suck it up!" the guy yelled.
"Who the hell are you! Who are you!" i screamed. i was so confused.
"Really...you dont remember. You dont remember..anything." he replied, like i had said something suprisingly wrong.

(Riders POV)

Blurry. Everything was blurry. It was so hard to see through all my tears. The sight of seeing Gerard like that. The thought of that being my last time with him. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I was just trying to picture Gerard. Trying to keep calm.
I could feel the bumpy van. i could hear the motor roaring down the road. my wrists were now tied to tight i was bleeding. i was still trying to pulling my arms out of them, but that just made them cut into my wrists even deeper.
I let out an out loud cry of sadness and weakness. tears streaming down my face.
"Shut up bitch! You can't even take being five seconds without your faggots. Your not even shot. So suck it up!" the guy yelled.
"Who the hell are you! Who are you!" i screamed. i was so confused.
"Really...you dont remember. You dont remember..anything." he replied, like i had said something suprisingly wrong.

(Riders POV)

Blurry. Everything was blurry. It was so hard to see through all my tears. The sight of seeing Gerard like that. The thought of that being my last time with him. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I was just trying to picture Gerard. Trying to keep calm.
I could feel the bumpy van. i could hear the motor roaring down the road. my wrists were now tied to tight i was bleeding. i was still trying to pulling my arms out of them, but that just made them cut into my wrists even deeper.
I let out an out loud cry of sadness and weakness. tears streaming down my face.
"Shut up bitch! You can't even take being five seconds without your faggots. Your not even shot. So suck it up!" the guy yelled.
"Who the hell are you! Who are you!" i screamed. i was so confused.
"Really...you dont remember. You dont remember..anything." he replied, like i had said something suprisingly wrong.

hey! i havn't made a personal blog in like...23456786543 fucking years.
so this is me making one :3
so ive gone through a lot of changes. some bad...ok all bad. but i found myself again. MCR and YOU GUYS helped. bu most of all MCR and my best friend and fellow killjoy sophie <3
so yeah the pictures are what i look like now. but im changing my hurr again lol.
you guys can always find me on tumblr. my URL is imnotohfuckingkayyy.
and on youtube. my youtube is HellyMCRIeroWay c: <3
OKAYYY so now thats out of they way. im going to be making chapter 8 to Ill Never Let Them Hurt You I Promise. and im excited so i hope you guys are too because a lot of people are asking about it! yes i hope you guys like it c: <3
and another thing. the album is NOTTTTT called MCR5. its the nickname hes calling it right now. so calm your tits.

i would take a bullet for you
but who would have thought
you would be the one holding the gun.

when i said
ill never let them hurt you i promise
i never knew i would be the vampire.
now were just spilling blood
slowly but surely
im dying in your hands
and your smiling down at me
as you hear my last breathe
you laugh
because you know soon
ill be burning in hell where i belong.

im dead but still walking
I never meant to hurt you
but now i know im unforgiven
I took your love
and killed it with my pills
now after all this time
your bullet sleeps in my heart

this lie poisoned me
but the unknown kept me on life support
but now that its been said and done
my last days will be spent
looking into your now fulfilled eyes
as you say it was nice to know you
your goodbye will be the death of me

im dead but still walking
i never meant to hurt you
but now i know im unforgiven
i took your love
and killed it with my pills
now after all this time