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Chapter 6:
First Time Feeling Safe In Jersey.

Gerard just looked at my nervously, yet sly. I was frozen. For second I was seriously about to ask "Oh I work there, which girl?", but quickly stopped myself blushing, realizing what he meant. I'm the only person he's talked to other than his brother? It's not like he came waltzing in, striking up conversation though. He hardly said anything. And it was his first time seeing me and all he said was "Straight up black coffee." And left before I knew it. He acted like I was bothering him, like he couldn't wait to get out. He was so lying. There was no way. And it was almost 4 when he came in, no where close to my usual 6:30 to 12 shift. So, maybe he wasn't talking about me...

Chapter 6:

Gerard just looked at my nervously, yet sly. I was frozen. For second I was seriously about to ask "Oh I work there, which girl?", but quickly stopped myself blushing, realizing what he meant. I'm the only person he's talked to other than his brother? It's not like he came waltzing in, striking up conversation though. He hardly said anything. And it was his first time seeing me and all he said was "Straight up black coffee." And left before I knew it. He acted like I was bothering him, like he couldn't wait to get out. He was so lying. There was no way. And it was almost 4 when he came in, no where close to my usual 6:30 to 12 shift. So, maybe he wasn't talking about me...
Oh of course he was just look at him. He saved my ass then took me in, cleaned me up, and was now convincing me too stay even longer. But he hadn't talked to me at all. Just his order, then, "Gerard, I'm Gerard." It's not like he came in everyday and talked to me. No, not at all.

okay people are like "WHAT HAPPENED TO FRERARD!!!!" well. just that. frank and gerard would kiss on stage because of pure impulse and to put off homophobes. Nothing more. And if you seriously think they were or are a couple, then...just wow. But yeah thats why they 1st started doing it. To put out a message to the homophobes saying "fuck you! look at this!". ok and heres why they stopped.
They found out it was getting unwanted attention. Fans started getting a kick out of it. And took it as them being a couple and...much more. And also the fan fictions didn't help. So once the band found out about this they were like "are you fucking serious?" and stopped. They were doing it to make a point, not so fangirls could make sexual fan fictions. (although i do love my fan fics.)
They stopped frerard because frerard was created. The fans took it the wrong way. And their point was lost. And they didn't want to add to the bullshit.
SO there. THATS what happened to Frerard.

Wow you sure do got everything figured out don't you?
Awh fuck im laughing
You think you got fans?
You got clones
Your nothing but a coward with a microphone

You've been through it all?
Your life is just so tough?
Yeah, I bet all the money and fame makes it hard to see
You say you would trade this life for anything?
People are starving you bitch
Can you tell me what its like to be hungry
Do I hear that tummy grumble?
Course not, so fuck off
and pull that plastic face out of your ass

You sing like you've been in love
You sing like you've felt hurt
You lip sing and put on a show
Its pretty easy to lie when your safe in the glass box, isnt it?
You say your the shit, Hun i'm not feeling it

And don't you dare let 'be yourself, you don't need to change'
slip through those injected lips
when half of you is plastic, and the other half is shit

Oh! so you can't help it if people love you?
Please, their blinded from the magizenes
and deaf from the whining

Chapter Five:
Not A Stranger Anymore

Gerard smirked. He was very pleased with himself. Oh, so he was one of those 'why not' people. He was urging me to stay and when I ask him why, he says 'why not'. Hm, let me think of all the reasons why not.
"1. You don't know me
2. I could be a murderer
3. I'm no hot chick
4. I've been kind of rude to you
5. Thanks to me, your face looks like it been pushed into a blender.
So, that's why not. You shouldn't want me here. I'm a disgusting failure of a human being. Okay?" Well, I wasn't expecting for all that to come out. But once I started my list just I couldn't stop.
Gerard looked surprised by my answer. I knew it was a rhetorical question. I'm not stupid. But hey, he did ask me why not, am I wrong?

Chapter Five:
Not A Stranger Anymore

Gerard smirked. He was very pleased with himself. Oh, so he was one of those 'why not' people. He was urging me to stay and when I ask him why, he says 'why not'. Hm, let me think of all the reasons why not.
"1. You don't know me
2. I could be a murderer
3. I'm no hot chick
4. I've been kind of rude to you
5. Thanks to me, your face looks like it been pushed into a blender.
So, that's why not. You shouldn't want me here. I'm a disgusting failure of a human being. Okay?" Well, I wasn't expecting for all that to come out. But once I started my list just I couldn't stop.
Gerard looked surprised by my answer. I knew it was a rhetorical question. I'm not stupid. But hey, he did ask me why not, am I wrong?

Chapter Four:
I Didn't Poison Your Coffee.

What? I mean...what?!?! I shot my head back down quickly. Had he really just said that? Did I not hear him right? I must have heard him wrong. I must have. No guy has..ever, ever complimented me. And since it was Gerard the greater being. I couldn't contain all my emotions.
I knew my face had to be bright red, cause it was burning like crazy. It was the 1st time I had felt anything but cold since ever seeing Gerard. It was kind of a strange compliment though. He didn't mind my face? All that meant is that, well, he didn't mind looking at my face. That wasn't a insult..but it wasn't exactly a compliment either. All that he was saying was that my face was bearable. Oh god get over yourself Elizabeth, you know your not that great don't get ahead of yourself.
"Um" Gerard started my head shot up and I was trying to hide all my outward thoughts, but by the way smiled I knew I was failing. Miserably. "Your coffee's getting cold."

Your gonna say that you didn't know
I already knew that
Your gonna say you would have helped me
lies
Lies are all those lips can say
Lets just see how well they can talk with a gun pointed to your face
Your sorry?
Too late
I got the bullets
wheres your love?
You all say I'm disgusting
Let's see how pretty you look when blood covers that face

Where you gonna run when I lock the doors
What you gonna say when a guns down your throat
They wont hold me back, not today
So I got the bullets
where the fuck is your love

Under my shirt
You wont see it coming
Through the school doors
Damn right you'll be learning
I hope your hairs perfect
And your make ups just right
Cause when I empty my bullets
You wont even put up a fight

I blend in with the walls, the tree's, and stone
I'm glad you cant see me
You've got enough fucking clones

I tried and I tried and I tried and I tried
Why won't you listen
I just want you to care

Chapter Four:
I Didn't Poison Your Coffee.

What? I mean...what?!?! I shot my head back down quickly. Had he really just said that? Did I not hear him right? I must have heard him wrong. I must have. No guy has..ever, ever complimented me. And since it was Gerard the greater being. I couldn't contain all my emotions.
I knew my face had to be bright red, cause it was burning like crazy. It was the 1st time I had felt anything but cold since ever seeing Gerard. It was kind of a strange compliment though. He didn't mind my face? All that meant is that, well, he didn't mind looking at my face. That wasn't a insult..but it wasn't exactly a compliment either. All that he was saying was that my face was bearable. Oh god get over yourself Elizabeth, you know your not that great don't get ahead of yourself.
"Um" Gerard started my head shot up and I was trying to hide all my outward thoughts, but by the way smiled I knew I was failing. Miserably. "Your coffee's getting cold."

Indeed. People are sick. I always knew this but today it was proven. Lets start in order.
Okay so today was a practice drill for code red lock down at my school. We had to get into a corner and be quite. well to other people being quite and respectful is to much of a task. They were just talking and talking. but here's where them being sick comes in. Our teacher, during the code red, started talking about why these are important. 'We're in high school. we all know why we have these things'. i thought to myself. but apperently not. She was telling us about actual times schools have gone into lock downs because people came in and shot students. How people came in with a gun and started and shot everyone they could. then themselves. People laughed. people fucking laughed at this. i cringed. people are sick.