HellyWay's blog

for some reason you guys dont believe me when i say i have no friends and guys think im disgusting xD
oh man, you guys <3
but yeah, i watched eclipse last night crying over my life drinking beer. it was a sad time xD
i woke up and was like "this is my downfall. this is your sign to get my shit straight"
like you know things are bad when you emotionly watch eclipse.
i had tea today.
bye ^-^

i relate to the song it never ends and blessed with a curse by BMTH.
"everything i touch turns to stone"
"so wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own."
"everything i love, is another thing i've lost."
i will always love you remi, even though im probably just a distant memory.

hi. like it says my name is helly. ive been on this site for many years and have made many friends. but recently felt lonesome and would like to meet some new lovely souls who also have the same love for my chem as i!
warning im extremely awkward. sorry.
but uhhhh....
i love MCR
i love MSI
i love Blink -182
ive met ronnie radke
i love batman
harry potter is my life
Nerd when it comes to movie shit.
play guitar and bass
i love live shows
dr.pepper keeps my alive
coffee is perfection
cheeseburgers make me happy
art is a big part of my life
i enjoy doing hair
i have a deep love for tattoos
i like making people happy and having someone
i like helping people with their shit
i love writing
i hate people...most people. disgusting creatures.
yeah so thats some about me. wanna be friends? lol

Chapter 18:
Be Careful, Someone Might Catch You Smiling.

"Well look who it is! I was wondering where the...-" Richard made his way around the counter with a wet rag in one hand and stopped. "Well, uh, I..uh.."
"Um, Hi Richard." I made my way to the counter through the tables with Gerard's hand in mine, him following behind me sheepishly. When we got in front of the boss I looked down, I knew he was fucking confused and shocked. I was too.
"This is, uh, Gerard." I said bashifully, lowering my head and my eyes shifting. Richards eye's were huge and his face was hard to read. Was he suprised? Angry? Happy? Confused? All of the above?
"The uh...guy who comes in here everyday, right." He shifted his weight from one foot to the other as his eyes lowered on me and Gerards hands intertwined. "Oh.."

ok...im crying.
this is scaring me shitless
i love the song you know
but gerard doesnt even sound like himself...
the guys are doing all this solo shit and...im just not ready for this to end....

sdfslgfajlskjgkl ITS SEX PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT
IS
SEXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!
FANGIRL WITH ME PLEAAASEEE AHHHHHHH

[Post edited: Please refrain from posting about self harm as it is against the rules you agreed to when you signed up for the website. Unfortunately due to serious legal issues we cannot allow posts of this nature on this website]

i start with is...words are stupid if they dont mean anything. you can give a whole fucking
speech and none of it could mean a word to you. so i'll cut the bullshit of how everything is going to get easier soon, and tell you what i actually know for sure. if thats okay.
[Edited]

i open with this...ive been looking at pictures. why are all the girls so pretty that are crying. why do you have to be pretty to cry?!? why cant you be ugly and cry. why is all the girls crying because of love? some of us arent so lucky to even be able to cry about love. no. we cry about depression, hurtfulness, and just plain because we arent loved.
hello, im here to reach out to my killjoys who are feeling hurt and depressed. so they dont feel alone. i dont care what age or how fucking ugly you are, your beautiful to me. when your in your darkest hour with a knife in your hands..im here. this is my blog to you. for you to read. im hoping to connect to you. maybe you can read this and understand and relize, ur not alone. ur not as weird and lonley as you thought you were. so i hope you find this like a book, a book that is your thoughts, that you have been wanting someone to write..

**NOTE: oh my its chapter 17 and we;re only getting started, this is gonna be a long one xD just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone who is reading because you guys are fucking sweet and amazing and UGH I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHH <3 you guys make my day better and mean a lot to me soo....yeah(: oh my im getting cheesy... i apologize. any who just letting you know I will be updating every other day now and will no longer be sending out messages to let everyone know. its getting to the point where i have to message 24 people, and thats alot haha. so just check my page every other day and there should be a chapter up(: PLEASE DONT FORGET ABOUT ME BECAUSE YOUR NOT GETTING MESSAGES..ill cry :'( oh man this is a long ass note. but there is still one more thing. Im starting a Frerard on FicWad so leave a comment letting me know if you guys want to know more about that so you can read it. ALRIGHT YAY IM DONE! now go read and make my day ;)**

Chapter 17:
This Was Not What He Signed Up For

IM SOOOO SORRY FOR NOT POSTING IN FOREVER! YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HATE ME!
but I have NEWWWWSSSS <3 <3 <3 <3 on FicWad I have a new frerard im writing called "We All Die" and it would make me SUPER happy if you guys read it because i love you guys and want your honest opinion. and on there i respond to every comment. I have posted one chapter so far.
AND IM STILL WRITING THE WORLD IS UGLY! its just when i have writers block with the world is ugly i usually have ideas for the frerard sooo it works out haha.
so new chapter coming out soon and PLEASE go read my new frerard. because ill love you forever <3
xoxo frankie