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Chapter 20:
You Dumb Shit

“I don’t know what happened, really. All I heard was screaming, I think that was coming from the guy. Then when I heard the crash I ran out to see what was going on. I found her on the floor, and him sitting there all cut up in the face.”
“I understand, thank you, you’ve been a big help Mr. Bryar.”
“Dr. Leto, I have the fluids and the meds that are supposed to go to Mrs. Varner and- oh… I think your patient is waking up. I’ll ask Dr. Reed and come back later.”
I heard foot steps become fainter, guessing it was the woman’s who I had just heard. Where was I? My eye’s weren’t open yet, but by the amount of times I was hearing Doctor I must be in a hospital. I better not be in a fucking hospital.
“Elizabeth?!”
“Ms. Carter?”
I groaned and tried to open my eyes, but stopped as soon as the smallest sliver of light came through. My head was pounding and I knew light would only make it worse.

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The World Is Ugly, But Your Beautiful To Me: chapter 20 (leave comments!)

Chapter 20:
You Dumb Shit

“I don’t know what happened, really. All I heard was screaming, I think that was coming from the guy. Then when I heard the crash I ran out to see what was going on. I found her on the floor, and him sitting there all cut up in the face.”
“I understand, thank you, you’ve been a big help Mr. Bryar.”
“Dr. Leto, I have the fluids and the meds that are supposed to go to Mrs. Varner and- oh… I think your patient is waking up. I’ll ask Dr. Reed and come back later.”
I heard foot steps become fainter, guessing it was the woman’s who I had just heard. Where was I? My eye’s weren’t open yet, but by the amount of times I was hearing Doctor I must be in a hospital. I better not be in a fucking hospital.
“Elizabeth?!”
“Ms. Carter?”
I groaned and tried to open my eyes, but stopped as soon as the smallest sliver of light came through. My head was pounding and I knew light would only make it worse.

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im so sorry

i dont have the energy or the strength to discuss what is going on.
but all i want to say is, to the wonderful loves who read my story on here. if this is site is shut down my story will be lost. if anyone of you have or will save all of the them to your microsoft word, please do. and send them to my email:
hillhelen75@gmail.com
and i will post them on either ficwad or livejournal. but if the site closes before than my story the world is ugly but your beautiful to me will be gone.
my sadness and devastation from the current news is something that my words can not explain. so i wont. i hope you all will carry on.
so long and goodnight.

so i know a lot of you love art, and so do i!
but we all look at my fanfic differently i think, like see it in your own way?
i was wondering if you guys could like make a cover for my fanfic. it could be like anything you like. drawing, edited pictures, computer made, what ever you feel like.
this is nothing you have to do i just thought it was something we could all enjoy. i could either pick my favorite for the cover to post with every chapter or i could take all of them and post a different one every chapter.
and YES i know i take forever to get up chapters and you have no idea how sorry i am about that. but recently i have been in the mood to write just havnt had the time.
but me being in the mood is good!
means i should have chapter 20 up by the end of the week :D

so i know a lot of you love art, and so do i!
but we all look at my fanfic differently i think, like see it in your own way?
i was wondering if you guys could like make a cover for my fanfic. it could be like anything you like. drawing, edited pictures, computer made, what ever you feel like.
this is nothing you have to do i just thought it was something we could all enjoy. i could either pick my favorite for the cover to post with every chapter or i could take all of them and post a different one every chapter.
and YES i know i take forever to get up chapters and you have no idea how sorry i am about that. but recently i have been in the mood to write just havnt had the time.
but me being in the mood is good!
means i should have chapter 20 up by the end of the week :D

so i know a lot of you love art, and so do i!
but we all look at my fanfic differently i think, like see it in your own way?
i was wondering if you guys could like make a cover for my fanfic. it could be like anything you like. drawing, edited pictures, computer made, what ever you feel like.
this is nothing you have to do i just thought it was something we could all enjoy. i could either pick my favorite for the cover to post with every chapter or i could take all of them and post a different one every chapter.
and YES i know i take forever to get up chapters and you have no idea how sorry i am about that. but recently i have been in the mood to write just havnt had the time.
but me being in the mood is good!
means i should have chapter 20 up by the end of the week :D

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Chapter 19:
Curled Up In A Ball I Give Up

The day went on, but not as usual. Instead of thinking about how much of a fuck up I was, I thought about the guy at the end of the counter. Instead of hating everyone around me, I laughed at how idiotic and stupid they look from the coffee shop window.
When the morning rush was over, I walked over to where Gerard was and rested my arms on the counter. Gerard looked up from his drawing and gave me a lop sided smile. "You've survived another attack of the black ties."
I laughed. "Barely."
Gerard closed his sketch book and rested his arms on it.
"What were you drawing?"
He didn't look at all like he heard me, just looking at me with a stupid grin on his face. "You know, I got used to you with your hair down. It's a shame you have to keep it up in that pony tail." He was changing the subject.
"Gerard. I know you don't give a fuck about my hair. What were you drawing?"

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The World Is Ugly, But Your Beauitful To Me : chapter 19

Chapter 19:
Curled Up In A Ball I Give Up

The day went on, but not as usual. Instead of thinking about how much of a fuck up I was, I thought about the guy at the end of the counter. Instead of hating everyone around me, I laughed at how idiotic and stupid they look from the coffee shop window.
When the morning rush was over, I walked over to where Gerard was and rested my arms on the counter. Gerard looked up from his drawing and gave me a lop sided smile. "You've survived another attack of the black ties."
I laughed. "Barely."
Gerard closed his sketch book and rested his arms on it.
"What were you drawing?"
He didn't look at all like he heard me, just looking at me with a stupid grin on his face. "You know, I got used to you with your hair down. It's a shame you have to keep it up in that pony tail." He was changing the subject.
"Gerard. I know you don't give a fuck about my hair. What were you drawing?"

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I think....you should read this.

you dont have to be from a poor awful house and family to be unhappy. Maybe not something other people would call "traumatic" has happened to you. but i dont think it has to. Maybe you just feel like, even though you have friends, or not, that they dont care about you. Maybe your so desperate for someone who cares about you that after a week you call them your best friend and scare them away. Maybe your so used to people leaving you, its not we'll last forever, but how long is forever. Maybe out of self hatred you've treated the only people who really care bout you bad, and lost them. And its been years and you still cant get over it. Maybe you love someone you'll never get, and you know that. You know it so much that you accept it. Maybe since you dont fit in with the popular kids, you try to fit in with the unpopular kids, the hipsters, the punks, the misfits. But either way, your still trying to fit in, so nothing gets better.

HellyWay's picture

I think....you should read this.

you dont have to be from a poor awful house and family to be unhappy. Maybe not something other people would call "traumatic" has happened to you. but i dont think it has to. Maybe you just feel like, even though you have friends, or not, that they dont care about you. Maybe your so desperate for someone who cares about you that after a week you call them your best friend and scare them away. Maybe your so used to people leaving you, its not we'll last forever, but how long is forever. Maybe out of self hatred you've treated the only people who really care bout you bad, and lost them. And its been years and you still cant get over it. Maybe you love someone you'll never get, and you know that. You know it so much that you accept it. Maybe since you dont fit in with the popular kids, you try to fit in with the unpopular kids, the hipsters, the punks, the misfits. But either way, your still trying to fit in, so nothing gets better.