G1ann1_V's blog

I know how people get their phones cracked and then their reaction is like AWWWW FUCK!!! But you only say that once .... Me I say it every single day. My iPod is important to me because 1) I listen to wonderful music on their 2) that's the only thing I use for the Internet (yes I'm typing this on my iPod as you read 3) this is the only thing that I can actually use when I'm bored out of my brains. So let's get to the shitty point..... My iPods battery is going really bad. I can't watch videos , go in the Internet, or play games with out it being charged. I can listen to music but it would only last for about 40 min and it's takes like and hour to get to school so for like the last 20 minutes I'm staring out the window looking at the highway. (sigh) sometimes I wish I could do better things with my life but aww well ... You know what shit happens and sometime you can't do anything about it.

Well in the morning before school starts I hang out with three other friends but I always feel as if I'm out of the question. They always talk about stuff I'm not involved in (stuff I really don't know about) so I'm just their listening the MCR while they talk about a bunch of crap. Don't get me wrong but I think it's just one girl in the group causing me to be left out. For example( this happens all the time) : I would try to start a conversation that we can all talk about but then this girl seriously just intrupts the conversation which causes me to be left out of the equation. The reason why I hang out with them is because of one friend and we have been friends since the beginning of middle school. I don't want to just leave the group because I don't want her to feel like I betrayed her for some other friend. Believe me if my friend wasn't in the group then I would have never been in it. I know I don't belong there but I don't want my friend to think bad about me if I leave.

Last night my mother said she wants to make a therapist oppointment but I don't want her to because I honestly think I'm perfectly fine. My mom also started to tell me that I'm showing signs of depression. (sigh) I don't want her to schedule that....I guess I'll keep my fingers crossed. Have a good day killjoys!

Ok this has been bothering me for the longest of time and I want to know what you guys think. Do you think Crona is female or male? I personally think Crona is male but I want to hear from you guys.

Well our school is doing a winter week ( the week before winter break) well Monday is dress up as a present day and I have no Idea how to pull that off with out it looking crappy. As you can see I love dressing up and this sounds really fun. I need some creative minds to please make a comment or message me of what I should do? Please ... Well have a good night! :)

Noghtmare before Christmas is on Netflix FINALLY that made my horrible day wonderful. I havent watched it since I was a little girl because when they would show it in TV my dad would start playing the ps3 :( but now he is at work so I can watch it without any interruptions.... Soon and I mean very soon I am going to be fangirling. :D

I know you guys are probably tired of hearing all this shit but I have a question.

Is it possible to be depressed even if you live in a wonderful family?

I know that I do and I am very grateful for that and the things I have. However I just can't help that feeling of sorrow come inside my heart. I have a nervous feeling as if something good is going to happened but deep down I know that everything is going to be the same but everything is fine being the same ... Is it? .... I don't know. I think I may need some help but I do try my best to keep my head up with a smile. At least I try especially witches I'm in a timid mood. Well of you are reading this THX... Sometimes I'm scared to tell people my problems because I don't want them to think that all I think about is myself. I hope whoever is reading is having the time of their life and if you are not then I know something great in the future will come up to you... Its just a matter of time.

C ya G1ann1_V

Well I now some people on here are feeling very depressed, suicidal, angry, or maybe something else. It makes me sad when I see those posts and I really want to help so message me. I know some of you may say I don't want to wast your time or maybe say I'm too shy but I don't want you to say that because that's what I say. I'm the person who feels alone and too shy to talk to others or confront other with my problem. So if you are feeling like me then I know exactly how you feel. I posted this because I want to help those who having feeling that they don't want to have and I want to cheer them up. So message me but I warn you I blog on my iPod because I don't have a computer so it may be slow before I reply. However I still want to help you guys. :^)

Well I auditioned for a play and I got a part. We have been trying to put this play together for over a month and next week is the play. It's not one of those plays where it's like beauty and the beast or snow white. This play was written by my drama teacher/director and it is about two kids who think life is all about TV but then a fairy put a spell on them and then they go on TV adventures in which they realize that the lives they have is not all that bad. Haha I just used one of the fairys lines. Well since this is the first play I have ever been in and I'm starting to get that feeling. Ugh do you guys know how to get rid of it ..... I know that imagining people in their underwear doesn't help.... So anything please I am a nervous wreck. D:

Some how my friend said this morning that my ass got bigger than it was last year. She is looking at me impressed while I look ashamed. She tells me it's a good thing because then more guys will attract to me more. I don't want that... I understand that features of other people can be attracting but I hate when it comes to the body. Lots of guys look at women these day like they are a toy saying " ohhhh I want to buy her tonight " WTF I just couldn't believe that my friend said that getting bigger boobs and butt is good. Sure someone can like another because they are handsome believe me I do that a lot but when it comes to emphasizing certain parts of the body it's just plain said. It's not what my friend said that got me perturbed but when a guy walked by and looked at me a certain way. I felt disgusted ... I wanted to go home and take a shower to wash all of the disgust I felt inside. -sigh- well I could say more ...