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For Lonestar

reblog this message from wherever you read it on any site at all, so if she goes online at all, she will see our message. please go along with this idea, I really want lonestar to see that we care. use, here, facebook, twitter, tumblr, deviantart, message it to her, just get this across to her, so she WILL see it, and know we care about her, and that she has soooo much to live for. it's been too long without her, she needs to return to the zones!! also add your killjoy name to the bottom of this blog when you reblog, so she can see how many people care. :)
xxx we love you lonestar xxx

Happy

This is meant to be one of the most stressful school years for me and yet I can't remember the last time I've been quite so happy and calm. I'm not feeling out of my depth in any of my chosen subjects and I'm not worried sick about exams (which is particularly impressive since I'm usually so pessimistic). I had the most lovely lunchtime with my friends. There were also some old friends that I've been talking to again due to my new classes and even a new friend. It was so brilliant.

School

This week was our first week back at school. I don't understand how four - not even five - school days can exhaust everyone so much. Yesterday (Friday), in the last class of the day, English, we were trudging through Of Mice and Men and the clock was ticking so ominously. You could practically FEEL everyone aching to leave and/or straining to keep their eyes open.

I'm possibly a sloth

Everything is such an effort. I have exactly eight days to enjoy what's left of my summer holidays and right now it's looking quite hopeless and icky. Since when did forcing myself to do things I'm meant to ENJOY become so normal? Oh well, I'm going over to my friend's house (she's so lovely and I can't believe she's stuck around because I'm such an awful person) and we're going to watch films. Maybe it'll make me more inspired to actually do something other than sleep and watch television for the remainder of the holidays. *disgusted forehead slap*. Well, thanks for listening, cyberspace.

I'm possibly a sloth

Everything is such an effort. I have exactly eight days to enjoy what's left of my summer holidays and right now it's looking quite hopeless and icky. Since when did forcing myself to do things I'm meant to ENJOY become so normal? Oh well, I'm going over to my friend's house (she's so lovely and I can't believe she's stuck around because I'm such an awful person) and we're going to watch films. Maybe it'll make me more inspired to actually do something other than sleep and watch television for the remainder of the holidays. *disgusted forehead slap*. Well, thanks for listening, cyberspace.

Music binge

Am I the only person that does this? I go for weeks/months without listening to music (or drawing or reading or writing) at all and then out of nowhere I become totally obsessed and it's pretty much all I do for days. I get stuck in a routine and listening to new music seems like a chore, which is kind of strange. But I'm listening to all my favourites (Slipknot, MCR obviously, the Smiths, Life Long Tragedy, The Saddest Landscape, Lamb of God, etc.). I'm currently playing Dig Up Her Bones by the Misfits on repeat, though. I love that song. I guess I have a kind of extreme personality.

Lonestar's Mission

Uh, I picked the movies topic. Well, as soon as someone asks me about films...my brain just kind of splutters and erases all memory of ever watching any films. But I've remembered two, so that's okay. The first one is 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest'. It's about a man who is about to be sent to prison for committing a crime. He thinks that if he feigns being insane then he'll get sent to a mental institute and it'll be easier/he'll be there for less time than the prison. He does in fact get put in the aforementioned mental institute and...well, I won't spoil it.

Untitled

I feel a bit weird around the edges. I'm so not looking forward to going back to school in a month. I took Biology over Art because I think I'm genuinely not good enough to do Art but the Biology course we started before summer is exhausting. There's so much information and I'm worried about dissection and things like that (I'm against that sort of thing). Never mind the fact I don't like the subject anyway and I'm already taking Chemistry.

15th July

Happy birthday Ray Toro! It must be surreal (& lovely, obviously) for him to see that there's a bunch of strangers wishing him a happy birthday. ^_^

Just Me Whining...

(Rant warning).
I feel like shit all the time. Sometimes being around my friends makes me momentarily happy but as soon as they're gone...Ugh. I don't know. I have zero purpose in life. I just feel like my existence is pointless. What am I even doing here? I have absolutely no talents and I don't know what I want to do as a career. I'm stuck and kind of miserable. Does anyone else get this? Maybe I'm just sleep deprived or something.

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