Flying Cupcake xo's blog

I've decided this week that I'll write something different on my wrist each day. Today's is "Stay Beautiful, Keep It Ugly". :3

I love you all, hope you have a fabulous day! <3

~Flying Cupcake xo

This week, I've decided that I will write something different on my wrist each day. Today is "Stay Beautiful, Keep It Ugly."

I love you all, hope you all have a fabulous day! <3

~Flying Cupcake xo

I'm getting this bag! It should come to me in about a week. :3 I'm sooo happy! :D

~Flying Cupcake xo

My parents were just clearing out the attic, and they asked me if I wanted any of the soft toys (because I love soft toys). Then, I found a box of baby toys from when I was younger and just started looking through them because of curiosity. There's one, which is like a piano one, which I actually had quite a lot of fun playing. My parents found it quite funny that I actually still enjoy playing with baby toys.

Just goes to show, you are NEVER too old for baby toys. xD

~Flying Cupcake xo

~Flying Cupcake xo

All I'm going to say is that I'm glad that school day is over. 4 hours of Science and an hour of Maths... *exhausted sigh*

So my day went like this:

Period 1: Last-minute planning and revision, copied out onto final Candidate Research Sheet teacher explains day, questions answered.
Period 2: Exam #1, based on planning. This was easy
*break for 15 minutes*
Period 3: Experiment to test the hypothesis "The rate at which a container cools depends upon the surface area exposed to the open air", worked in groups.
Period 4: Exam #2, based on experiment. This was difficult.
*lunch for 30 minutes*
Period 5: Maths, and a game of Bingo.

So my day was pretty lame. And stressful. And boring. And I'm glad it's over.

At lunch I decided just to try out Book Club, and I think I might stay. There's free biscuits! :D

Today is March 1st, which is also Self Harm Awareness Day 2013.

To show support for people who self-harm I wrote "Keep Fighting" on my wrist (you can see that in the picture), how many of you guys did it too?

I was actually quite pleasantly surprised to find that another girl in my Science class wrote "Keep Fighting" on her wrist too. :3

If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, you can always message me. I'd be glad to listen to you and try to help you, or just to be a pair of ears to listen, if that's what you want.

I hope you all have a good day, week, month, year, life! <3

~Flying Cupcake xo

Sat alone in a dark room
I feel the darkness overtake my soul
It takes over my thoughts, my emotions
Yeah it’s completely in control

And I know you’ll be sorry
The next time you mess with me
Because I’m not me, I am the darkness
Stalking the shadows of the street

I don’t feel any pain
I don’t feel any sorrow
I don’t feel any shame
I can look forward to tomorrow

With my new hands and heart
I see ultimate beauty in the darkness
The beauty you’ve been fighting for so long
But it’s welcoming me, whispering to me:
“Come with me, I’ll guide you along”

And I know you’ll be sorry
The next time you mess with me
Because I’m not me, I am the darkness
Stalking the shadows of the street

I am the terrors in the night
That make you sweat, make you cry
I am the demon in your soul
That you’ve been running from all your life

The nightmares that make you wake up screaming
The presence making you feel you’re not alright
The paranoia overtaking your mind

I know you love me, I love you too
But your love does not equal control
No way, oh no

Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna make me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna break me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna change me
Love me or hate me, you’ll never bring me down

I know you hate me, I hate you too
But your hate does not equal control
No way, oh no

Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna make me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna break me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna change me
Love me or hate me, you’ll never bring me down

I hope you all understand
That if you love me or if you hate me
I’ll fight to my last stand
Because I am who I am and you can never change that
‘Cause I won’t give you even half a chance

Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna make me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna break me
Love me or hate me, you’re never gonna change me
Love me or hate me, you’ll never bring me down

And now that my point is clear

I’m sat here alone
Drowning in my thoughts, alone
And I don’t know how I got here
I don’t know where to go
But I know one thing for sure
I just want to go home

There’s a knife to my left
And a gun to my right
And I might just take my life
Take my life away from you tonight

I’m sat here alone
Drowning in my tears, alone
And I don’t know how I got here
But I really want to go
Want to leave all this pain behind
Behind my life, I want to go

There’s a knife to my left
And a gun to my right
And I might just take my life
Take my life away from you tonight

I don’t know if you love me
Do you really care?
All you do is break me
Till I’m struggling for air
I want to love you, I want to care
But I can’t with this lack of air

There’s a knife to my left
And a gun to my right
And I might just take my life
Take my life away from you tonight

I look in the mirror
I try to smile
I try to convince myself that I’m happy
I might just be okay