finalevening's blog

I hate life right now. I'm so stressed over everything that I feel like its changing me, like, I don't even remember me anymore, all I see in the mirror is a tired stressed out girl that doesn't know what to do or how to get a grip back on life. Cross Country, Tennis, Work, School, its all piling up on me and its so bad I get these terrible stomach aches. I just need to vent really but i have such unique problems id be surprised to find sympathy.

So I know this is gonna sound weird but I'm trying to get this job at the mall helping with Easter photo shoot they have every year, I e-mailed the manager lady yesterday asking for an application and I'm really, really, really hoping she'll reply cuz i really need this job! The entire thing just lasts like 2 weeks but with the money I can finally get drivers-ed!! I'm just really trying to be less dependent on my parents so please, please wish me the best of luck!

Ugh, im so despret for a job! Ive been looking for a part time job to earn a few bucks since like mid december, and while everyone around me is having lots-o-luck finding their dream job im stuck at home only daydreaming about finding the perfect teen job. Maybe if I wasnt so picky id have a job right now? I refuse to have a food related job, I feel like id have a terrible time in the food buisness, I also dont want a job with too much responsibility cuz I hate feeling overwhelmed, im already overwhelmed with school work. So whats a 16 year old to do? Maybe i should be a model? Hahaha, that'd be awesome. Well, wish my luck MCRmy ;D.

I need a job! Im so tired of relying on my parents for money, they never ever ever give me an allowance or shopping money or anything!! So now that im finally old enough i think its time i take the initiative and go out and make my own money. But now the only problem is i cant find a nice part time job :( I want a job thats not too super complicated cuz im afraid i might mess up or something.

Well wish me luck MCRmy!!

Just saw MCR perform!! I think I'm having a heart attack :D :D :D

And yes I do realize this sounds more like a Twitter update.

I'm so scared, I'm so scared, I'm so scared!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow is my cross country district meet, I've been training for this day since May 20. Last year my team lost our championship that we've held for 8 years and it really upset me so this season i've been training like crazy and I've gotten like crazy faster. But I feel like it's not even enough, I'm scared I might mess up or something. If I don't beat my best time for 2 miles tomorrow than I'm gonnna feel terrible, though I think I might be able to I'm just so nervous. Gahh!!!!!!! I don't know what to do!!!!!!!!! I'm just so freaking scared!!!!!!!!!

Oh my cheezus! Have you guys seen that anti-texting and driving video??? i just saw it today and i must say that im completaly traumitaized!!!! Ive never seen anything so horrible!!! Not even in Saw movies. Well its totally scared my into never even picking up my phone while driving ever again!!! You guys gotta check it out, its in youtube.

So yeah ive been under a lot of stress lately, I think because of my mom. Also school has been hard, its like they wanna throw everything they have at you before the year ends just in case they didnt leave a mark. Like in japanese class yesterday, stupid Mr. Pedo gave us like 5 quizzes then a huge packet of junk. Bleh thinking about it frustrates me and now I have a red mountain on my face, this sucks.
Some good news is that cross country practice is about to start, ive been waiting for it for like forever. Its actually a good stress relieving sport since you get to run it all off. Maybe my problems will finally be over and i can finally breath again.
I dont really have anything else to blog about so, yeah, i hope everyone has a good day.

I dont care what people say, i like these rules.

Ok so last week i had another tennis tournament. Somewhere throughout the game it got super hot so i took off my shirt and just played in an undershirt. Everything was super fine until me and my friend went back to my house, thats when i noticed that my back and shoulders were extremely red! At first it didnt really hurt but after my friend left it started to burn so bad. I still had to put on my stupid backpack for the rest of the week which made the pain 10x worse. Ugh but now its finally peeling, which is gross.

Also right now they're doing random drug testing in the school. Which is really funny since its just after prom weekend.

Umm i guess ive got nothing left to blog about, well except for how much i want to hear new my chemical romance music.

Oh and Happy belated birthday Gerard Way, my guess for the album name is.............. ok well i dont know but i bet it has something to do with love/death/awesomeness.