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Well this is a ghost town now…
Moving out and fear of self-destruction

Hello people

So I'm moving out of my parents house really soon (like end of this mouth begging of next mouth) and I'm honestly kind of nervous because I have a part of me that can be self destructive and I'm afraid that it will go off the rails (I'm also not going to have a roommate). I don't want friends I call family see me hit rock bottom again, I know they'll give me hell to stop me but I don't want it to get to that point in the first place. So yeah I'm nervous as hell.

I know I should talk to my therapist about this but whatever


Grit your teeth keep running!!!

Hey everyone! I'm glad this is starting to feel little like the old days on here!

Anyways I have another anime recommendation it's Gurren Lagann it's basically giant fighting robots and it's inspirational as fuck and a lot less dark then kill la kill (the anime I recommend). Although there is one episode that can be triggering for some it's a good anime.

In other stuff I realize I haven't been as honest with my therapist as I should be and I know it's my choice to share what I need/want to, it honestly just feels like a chore at this point.

I need to grow up a little more

Hello people

This place has changed since I made this account (witch was a little after I graduated high school). I've changed too. I made this account when I was lonely and still finding myself. I've met wonderful people on here then I stopped posting on here because of medical issues. I then join an amazing group chat on kik witch I kinda needed but months later I hit rock bottom pretty fucking hard. So there are a lot of emotions with this account and part of me feels like I should move on cause I'm 26 and I've grown since hitting rock bottom

A close friend of mine said o should take

Things are changing

Hey… it's been awhile

So I have an apartment but it needs to be fixed up so I'm going to say November is the latest that I will move out of my parents house. I'm also close releasing a bunch of music and I mean actually releasing it so that what going on with me.

I'm nervous about my music because it super personal for me. I'm also nervous about moving out because I'm not going to have a roommate and I don't want to hit rock bottom again


I feel like I'm wasting my time
How I got into mcr

Hello people

As the title says I'm going to tell you all how I got into mcr. Basically it started in middle school I had a crush on a girl who liked them and I got into them to have more to talk about. The first mcr song I heard of I remember correctly was The Ghost Of You and I liked them almost right away. Unfortunately I never told that girl I had a crush and on her and I probably never will


Vampire bikini fight club!!!!!!


How's that for a title! Really it has nothing to do with this blog but is the bare minimum plot of an anime I watched called kill la kill. It's super fan-servicey and over the top but it gets really deep and is amazing! I do recommend it but it's REALLY ADULT (17 minimum age) it's on Netflix with subtitles.

Anyways on to what I really want to blog about, I realize I'm an adult and can do pretty much whatever I want but I feel like I'm too old to say dye my hair or get a tattoo (I'm 25 but will be 26 on July 23) I don't really have an explanation for that feeling but I have it.

I'm breathing

Hello everyone

I'm doing well, I just don't have a lot to blog about. So I've been feeling a little stuck in life witch I think is because I've had writers block and I finally got out of it. I've been doing okay at my New Years resolution but it's hard when you can't drive and work every weekend but I'm going to get the ball rolling on moving out. I also cleaned my room yesterday in the hopes that I would find some things in needed, I didn't find them but I'm still glad I cleaned my room


A new year

Hi everyone

So it's a new year and my resolution is to climb out of the rut I've been in for a while and live life. I'm also going to try and dust off so friendships I've have had.