fabulouskilljoy_98's blog

ok, so my birthday is March 22.. and i turned 14 :) except it just so happened to be on a thursday.. so i couldnt really party hardcore. soooo.. i decided i was gonna have a party for one! it was totally awesome. i got drunk(by myself) made (demented) paper cranes and jammed out to blink 182, mcr and sum 41. i made myself a nutella samich and put a candel in it. i sang myself happy birthday and blew out the candel, except i lit my hair on fire. -___- LOL.. so, just to give u guys an idea of what i look like when im drunk.... heres a pic!! this isnt from last night, its from 2 weeks ago. excuse my drunk ugliness LOL its ridiculous. :P so ya, i can prob imagine this is what i looked like last night.. and it was prob hilarious. i told my boyfriend about it and he wants to facetime me and get drunk when i get my ipod working again.. but im scared cuz idk.. i look like this and ill prob scare him away. :P anyways.. i dont expect any of u to actully read this, if u do..

I have to go see a doctor on wednsday and I really don’t want to cuz shes gonna have to make me take my clothes off and write down all my scars and stuff and make sure I never get new ones and shes prob gonna prescribe meds and omg :(( shes gonna see my cuts and tell my parents then theyre gonna flip shit and not let me listen to music and take away my phone cuz they think that music and friends are the reason im depressed and omg… what should i do?? D:

it happened! it finnally happened! a guy (even better: one that i like) asked me out and weve been going out for a week. i like him alot, but ive been averaging 1 boyfriend every 2 years so im not really good at the whole "girlfriend thing". he seems to really like me tho, and every day he makes sure i eat and makes sure i dont cut and he calls me beautiful even when i threaten him that ill hrt him if he does. but hes dated 3 other girls since ive know him... (brooklyn)1 was 2 years older than us, gorgous and really nice, (leah)the other was one of my best friends who is totally amasing and perfect and (sarah)the other was this girl i hardly know but she is really really pretty. then theres me. -__- and i played relationship counsler for every one of them. my friends argument is that brooklyn hated him the whole time and cheated on him, leah only went out with him for a day and dumped him after they kissed and sarah was creeped out the whole time. but still.

Natural Hair Color
[X] Black - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[ ] Red - $75
[ ] Brown - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other - $2

Eye Color
[ ] Brown - $150
[X] Green - $75
[ ] Blue - $50
[ ] Hazel - $100
[ ] Other - $15

Height
[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[X] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[] 4'9" to 5'4" - $50
[] Under 4'9 - $45

Age
[] 41 to 50 - $150
[] 31 to 40 - $100
[] 26 to 30 - $75
[] 21 to 25 - $50
[] 19 to 20 - $25
[X] 0 to 18 - $100

Birth Order
[] Twins (or more) - $300
[X] First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[] Second Born - $150
[] Middle Child - $100
[] Last Born - $200
[] Third Born - $100
[] Fourth Born - $100
[] Fifth Born - $375

Drink?
[] No - $400
[] Only holidays - $250
[] Sometimes - $215
[X] YES - $200
[] Only weekends - $300
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle-$0

Vision
[X] perfect vision - $300
[ ] Have glasses/contacts but don't wear them - $200

ok, so this year im getting my confermation(church crap i dont believe in.. sorry if i offend anyone) and yesterday after school my friend, who is also gettingher confermation, came to my house. we chilled and she convinced me to get high with her. k, not ma first time so whatever. its just like... ugh. cant. stop. smiling. and passstttiees... and omfg give me fooooddd naow. lol so ya, but we had to go to the church last night cuz we had to talk about the date and jesus and stuff. so we went to church. high. then today, my same friend came over again and we got high again, then went to walmart for a couple hours. and now im really fucking tired. omg. uggggh. so ya. :P

A - AVAILABLE: yea:(
B - BIRTHDAY: March 22
C - CRUSHING ON: my best freind ... AND her boyfriend :3shhhhh
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: hot chocolate
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: my freind keyanah
F - FAVORITE SONG: Sk8r Boi by Avril Lavigne
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy Bears!!!!!

H - HOMETOWN: Thunder Bay Ontario Canada
I - IN LOVE WITH: pasta
J - JUGGLE: Nah
K - KILLED SOMEONE: not yet ;)
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: well almost every second summer i drove with my family for 8 hour days touring canada
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate :D
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1 unborn, 1 dead:(, 2 alive (for now)
O - ONE WISH: for my friends to be happy.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: bestfrand .. but shes grounded and so i couldnt talk to her
R - REASON TO SMILE: so no one thinks im depressed
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Helena
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 4:30 am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: it looks like denim shorts :D but grey
V - VEGETABLE(S): All of them
W - WORST HABIT: selfharm :3

[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[accendtally fricken popups] watched porn
[] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL: 6

[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[x] seen someone die

TOTAL: 10

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[] been to a bar

TOTAL: 7

[x] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod/discman.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[ish] You love your family.
[ ] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 5

[x] You dress the way you want to.(Kind Of, my mom wont let me wear skinny jeans a lot, just sometimes.)
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to. (As long as it doesn't say f***)
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L: 4

[x] You have over 50 friends on facebook.
[x] You have pictures on facebook.
[x] Your parents let you have a facebook.
[x] You get allowance/loan.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to college.

ABOUT ME... HONESTY IS AWKWARD..

1-What color bra are you wearing now?
le blue :P

2-Honestly, what color are your panties?
PINK! with monkeys on em!! (only time ill wear pink without complaining!)

3-What is your favorite things in a guy? acts more like my bestfriend then my boyfriend, doesnt act different around me and around his friends.. oh and he HAS to have a good taste in music :P

4-What is your most awkward moment?
there are way too many to explain...

5- are you uncomfortable answering some of these questions?
.....not really
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WHAT ARE YOU ABOUT?

1-what is the thing people notice about you that sticks out?
nothing. absolutly nothing.

2-what are your favorite bands?
My Chemical Romance
Green Day
Avril Lavigne
Blink 182
All American Rejects
Simple Plan
others...

3-What is your favorite animal?
polar bear

4-do you have a boyfriend?
*sighs* no....

okay so theres this band called Superchick and they are FREAKING AMAZING!!!! :D i think u should all check em out :P theyre kinda like Avril Lavigne and No Doubt(whoever that is:3) so ya.. but a little more intense... :P