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This is the video I watch whenever I get depressed. I don't know why it makes me feel better, maybe its the reassurance Gerard gives in the video. The relate-ability that he has to me and all his fans. Just watch it, it'll make you feel better. It always works for me, anyways. <3

"All your quirks, all your problems, even your depressions and your failures, that's what makes you you."

At the moment I'm listening to Gun., and for some reason I feel like I just want to scream as loud as possible. Just plain SCREAM MY ASS OFF. I don't know why, I just do. Does anyone else get these random urges to scream sometimes too, or am I just weird like that? Huh.
But anyone, while I'm here, I might as well talk about Gun. Dear jesus this song makes me want to lean out the window of a car when its going ninety on a deserted freeway while screaming my ass off. I don't know, its just one of those songs. God their music can do so many different things to my emotions. Their songs can either make me want to party, scream and run around like a maniac or drive REALLY FUCKING FAST, cry (in the emotionally distressed-release way), thrash around, or stand proud and declare who I am to the whole world.
MCR is an amazing band, who influences thousands and thousands of people, and in a good way.

Normally I wouldn't blog about anything as stupid as my hair, but my friend Taylor (whos also on this website....i forget her username...oops.) has a stupid phone and I got my hair cut and dyed today so she wanted photos xP So here ya go Tay. Here's my hair and me acting like a fuckwad T---T

Woo! Got it dyed red..ish. Yeah! :P

The title just explains my emotions at the moment. I know that sounds really cliche and over dramatic, but that's what a teenager is. Cliche and over dramatic.
Just...everything at the moment feels like its going downhill. Like all my dreams will fail, like my entire life will just fall apart, that I'm just going to....fall down and let the world take me over and screw me up. I just feel really sad for some reason, and I don't exactly know why. I just feel really hopeless. I'm hopeless.
But I guess being hopeless can have its advantages. If something great comes your way, then you won't be expecting it. You won't be hopeful for anything, so when you find something that makes you happy its ten times better.
This was a pointless blog, but...I don't know. I just like posting on here....I love you all. You have no idea how much this band and all of you mean to me.
Just know you're all loved and needed in this world <3

Jimmy dressing in random clothing on stage= one of the funniest things ever xD And then MSI go on to impress me with their amazing performance of the song Bitches

Yup. Today was a horrible, horrible day. Fuck the world and my fake smiles my family puts on. Goodnight everybody.

I miss my grandpa, so, so much. He's alone today, on Thanksgiving, the holiday of families. He's all alone, by himself, and I just want him here with me so I could hug him and laugh with him and see him smile. He's really depressed, and in really bad health, but he stays alone all the time and I just....I can't handle how much I miss him. I just got off the phone with my grandpa, my Jimbo (that's what we've always called him), and we talked a little and he told me he was thinking of me today. He said that he was watching the Macy's day parade and he saw all the performers up there singing and doing their acts,and he told me: I could see you up there in three, four, five years. You're a special girl, Mimi. And then he started joking with me about how I should take up tap dance, and I laughed, but I also started to cry. I miss him so friggen much, its so....just...gah.

Don't get me wrong, I love my dad. So much, he's great. But seriously, he changes moods so fast you don't even have time to prepare yourself. He can go from the best guy in the world, love able and laughing, to so angry that he puts your back up against the wall and you flinch at every word he says. My dad, when he's angry, literally scares the living shit out of me. He's just a scary guy when he gets mad, his face gets super red and a huge vein on his head sticks out. All his muscles get tight and his jaw becomes set. He's just.....gah. He's done some stuff to scare me before too. Like.....this isn't a big deal, because all kids used to have this done to them, but he would spank me with a newspaper against the wooden frame of my bed when I did something wrong. He's also grabbed my arm...just a little too hard, dragging me to wherever he wants me to go.

My Chemical Romance: Their music has helped me so much in the rough patches of my short life, and I'm hoping that they'll continue to help me through the years. I'm so thankful for everyone in the band, making this wonderful music to give and share with the world <3

Paramore: I was a fan of Paramore before My Chemical Romance. They were like a sneak peak into the genre which I would later fall head over heels for. They were my first and foremost favorite band, and I am thankful for them because of their amazing music, and because without them I probably never would have found My Chem.

Music itself: Music has given me life, really. No music, no life. It has become part of me, and I thank any God out there for giving this ugly world music, because when everything else in this earth is trying to drag me down, music is the one thing that lifts me up.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving U.S. MCRmy, and don't forget to be thankful.

Jesus Christ (super staaaar {any theater geek will know what I'm talking about}) I'm posting a lot today. But whatever. This is important, and if nobody comments I'll just try again and again til someone does.
SO! What I want for Christmas is a bunch of band merch from all my favorite bands, which is no problem in my moms eyes, but the other thing I want is. Concert tickets. We all know My Chem's new album will be coming out very fucking late this year, or early next year....or sometimes round there whatever, and Paramore is working on their new album also. Almost always when a band releases a new album, they go on tour, and this might be one of my only chances to go see my two favorite bands if they tour around my area.