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Just feeling very Danger Days today.
Lately I've been feeling very "Black Parade" and "Bullets" if you know what I mean, but today I'm breaking out my killjoy. I feel hyper (haha. Pun. Get it? Cause my killjoy name is Hyper-Riot....No? Okay...) and vibrant and....rebellious? Is that a good word for it? I don't know. I feel like I need to drive really really fast, or grab a can of spray paint and paint my entire fucking town. I want to blast Danger Days as loud as possible through my speakers, stick my head out a car window and scream to every conservative, dreary person that's walking through my cities streets "KEEP RUNNING, MOTHERFUCKERS."
I want to blast some dracs with a chipped, painted ray gun. I want to scream and sing at the top of my lungs so everyone can hear, so everyone can sing with me.
"Girl, you got to be what tomorrow needs."

Just found this band called Steam Powered Giraffe. Fell in love with them. The acting in their music videos is great, every movement and expression looks EXACTLY like how a robot would act. The lyrics are beautiful, and so are their voices.
This particular song, Honeybee, really...really hits home for me.
It makes me think...well, it makes me think about Taylor, really.
We're at a weird crossroads right now, I guess is the best way to put it.
She likes Cody. I can see the way they act around each other, and...I just. I don't think I'm what she really wants. I feel like she just really says she likes me back to make sure my feelings don't get hurt....

I absolutely LOVE Venganza. This performance was just...AMAZING. Everything about it seemed absolutely perfect. The energy, the quality, the crowd, the set, the outfits...everything.
I am aware that they fixed up Gerard's voice a little for the DVD, but I don't think that's a horrible thing. He still sounded FANTASTIC. The whole band did.
This performance is...I'm in math class right now. And I'm watching this instead of doing my homework. Oops xP
This concert is kind of getting me through the day today....I miss Jimbo a lot. I miss him every day, of course. But today is just....my heart is really heavy. I'm just really down today. This performance is providing me with a great distraction.
And just a random side note, is it weird that I'm a girl and I would do ANYTHING to look like Gerard?! Granted, I do dress like a boy sometimes....and I like acting like a boy, so I guess it's not that weird.
But I really, REALLY want to look like Gerard. And have his voice. A LOT.

1.Name: Mimi
2. Age: 14, 15 next month
3. Height: 5'1"
4.Eye Color: mixes of blue and green. They change color. I also have one giant ass orange/brown spot in my left(?) eye.
5. Hair Color: Blonde
6. Bra size: ...no
7. Location: Iowa
8. Car: Nope. Can't drive, and am terrified of it anyways.
9. Willing to relocate if outside the USA: Yes.
10.Do you own a gun? Nope. Don't think I'd trust myself with one, anyway.
11. Have you ever been arrested? Nopppppe. But I've been in a jail/jail cell before (my uncle's a cop)
12. Do you play video games? Yeeep!
13. If Yes what games? Mostly old school stuff. Zelda, any Mario (Paper Mario on Nintendo 64 baby) Yoshi Story. Nothing hardcore, just good old fashioned Nintendo.
14. Are you OCD? I have some OCD qualities and tendencies, but it's not diagnosed :P
15. Have you ever left the country? Nope.
16. If so where have you been? Nowhere.
17. ( if your comfortable answering) Are you a Virgin? Yup.

"You can't be too careful anymore."
Not anymore. Now a days, you have to put a bullet proof vest around your heart, lock it away in a safe and make sure no one finds out the combination.
You have to put a barb wire fence around your mind, make sure no one trespasses, otherwise they're gonna find out all your fucking secrets.
Don't trust anyone.
Don't look anyone in the eye.
Keep your distance.
Be fucking careful.

The Pretty Things Peep Show and the Coney Island Sideshow are now two of my favorite things to watch videos of on youtube.
I find the whole concept of burlesque and sideshow tricks absolutely ASTOUNDING.
Contortionist acts to sword swallowing, fire eating and the human blockhead. Glass walking and classic burlesque, its all amazing to me.
It's so interesting and dangerous and odd and.....wrong, but not in the BAD way.
It's just...disturbingly...WONDERFUL.

Is one of the most adorable, fantastic, amazing people I've ever seen O_O
She's gorgeous, adorable, weird, funny, talented, and has some serious balls.
HOW DOES SHE...I DONT EVEN KNOW.
I HAVE THE BIGGEST AND STUPIDEST CRUSH ON A PERSON WHOS LIKE TWENTY FIVE AND I HAVE NEVER MET. WTF.

Understood mychemicalromance.com

Just thought I'd put it on here, because it's easiest and I'm lazy T_____T
-Columbine flower (for my mother)
-A cross with the initials J.E.M (for my passed grandfather...my hero.)
-On my ribs, torn skin that reveal the 'bone' (tattooed bone, obviously). Looks like my skin is shredded. (to represent that I believe how being open is the best solution. Secrets shouldn't be kept, because in the end, they always hurt everyone. I know from experience. It's easier to just to say what ever you need to say, no matter how much it'll hurt at first. Rip it off, like a bandaid. It'll be better in the long run.)
-The words "You Cannot Destroy Me" As a necklace piece.
-The marcher for the black parade, either the parade leader on the front of the album or the character with the clock bass drum.
-MAYBE the demo lovers in cameo format with the word Tradgedy beneath them.

I honestly wish I had some natural beauty....
I'm not very good looking. Very round, chubby face. Awkward dimples (I only have one really deep one on my right cheek, and then a shallow divot in my left). A lot of chub around my stomach. Middle tone skin, where it's not quite the pretty pale but not tan either. Short, messy hair that is turning really shaggy and I need to get it cut. Pretty petite stature, not tall at all. Flabby thighs and legs, arms and stomach. Cheekbones are non existent.
I'm just really not...I'm not pretty. I don't feel pretty, especially when I'm not wearing makeup. I shouldn't complain, I know. I sound like a stereotypical teenage girl whining about her appearance, but I really, REALLY, REALLY wish I was more...beautiful. Naturally beautiful.