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This month is going to be hard....

it's only the 4th and this month sucks!!! ITS NOT FAIR!!! On the first my Dad passed away, it still hasn't set in. I'm still in shock! Havent slept yet! I've been listening to MCR nonstop on repeat!!! So I might not be on here as much for awhile..

I need someone to talk too

I almost died yesterday! I'm scared and confused and I feel lost. I had a seizure yesterday I felt like I was close to dying. I need someone to talk to about it, I don't care who just someone i feel like i;m the only person going through this right now and i'm really really scared. I want my mom and I want to go home but I can't at the moment.

Any killjoys in the Denver, Colorado area?

I'm leaving today to go to Denver for awhile to hang with one of my best friends from childhood and hopefully see my cousin. I would love to meet new friends, so if anyone would want to become friends since I'm not going to really know anybody. I would love it. I'm pretty excited to start fresh somewhere.

Too my friends on here

I just want to say THANK YOU too all my friends on here!! You guys are like my second family!! I can talk to you guys about anything and you guys can always cheer me up and make me feel better if I'm down. Sometimes it's nice to have a place like here to go too! To be honest I don't know how I would've been able to get through some of the tough times i've been through in the past year if i've never joined this site!! Thanks again everyone, I ♥ you ALL!!!
~Sunshine Slaughter~

I don't know anymore...

I feel like I'm the most hated person ever. Crying my eyes out having a panic attack..I just want it to end, that's all...

I can't shake this feeling

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anyone up to talk

I need someone/anyone thats online!

If anyone wants to stay in touch

Here is my Facebook, Twitter, and e-mail.




Thanks everyone for being there for me & being my friend!
♥ Emily


Here's my Twitter, if anyone want's to add me. More than likely I'll follow ya back! Thanks lovelies!
♥ Emmy

Today....just wow

Wow, I just got home a half hour ago from my first day at my new job. I gotta say I'VE never ever felt this physically and emotionally drained!! I just feel drained. Don't get me wrong I love my new job it's awesome, so many nice people. Today wasn't the day I expected though. I had a feeling this was going to happen today and of course with my BAD LUCK, I was fuckin right! Like really out of all the days god why today! My first day of the the EXACT day I did't want it to happen! I got my time of the month today and when I do get it only on the FIRST day I get in so much pain.