Dreaming of MCR's blog

Ever since I joined this site people have been very excepting of me and this has given me a confidence boost, and I now feel confident enough to put one of my great plans in action. Ever since I found out about flash mobs I have wanted to start one, but no one ever wanted to be a part of it, so I said to them “well fine I will do it alone”. So now I have a lot more confidence I am going to do it. When my school holidays finally end I am going to start planning a dance, I don’t want to look like an idiot, I would prefer to dance well and have everyone talk about it instead of dance badly and have everyone talk about it. I have already decided that I will dance to the song “I’m Not Okay (I Promise)” by My Chemical Romance, my little dance will definitely show them that I am not okay, but I don’t care, I just want to dance. I also want to dance as a tribute to My Chemical Romance, by dancing to one of their song and showing everyone who I truly am, I’m sure they would be proud.

We all have those days when we don’t have enough energy to do anything, but whenever I have those days I always think of amazing things I could be doing, but of course I can’t because I am too tired to leave my bed. So today I thought back to all those day when I have been stuck in bed for the whole day for some reason, and I decided to make of list of all the things I thought about doing.
1. Learn all of My Chemical Romance’s songs on my guitar
2. Memorize all their lyrics and start quoting them in every conversation I have
3. Draw or paint a picture of all the band members of MCR
4. Write a novel
5. Write enough songs to fill ten albums or just one really big one
6. Write a musical about a young girl (me) who falls in love with Gerard Way and starts following him across the whole world
7. Jump on my bed
8. Paint the walls in my bedroom
9. Put together my new bed I got last week
10. Get out of bed
11. Create a time machine

When I became a member of this site I posted a blog about how My Chemical Romance saved my life, but a few minutes after I had posted it I started to feel fear, I just wasn’t ready to share my story with everyone; I needed more time to think things over. So I delete the blog and I didn’t go into my account for a few days, because I was still afraid, but I am ready now, I need to tell the story of how My Chemical Romance saved my life. For the last year and a half I have been digging a hole in my mind to bury myself in. It all started when my best friend ended our relationship and then stopped talking to me and even stopped looking at me. A few weeks later my other best friend did the same and soon the rest of my friends turn their backs on me (I don’t know why), a part from two of them. The two friends I had left didn’t hang out with me a lot and it seemed as if our friendship was built on the words hi, hello, and bye.

I am the most unpopular girl at my school, people just don’t like me. I’m that girl in the school yard who is always alone, she get looked down at by all the popular kids, and as people walk passed her they laugh as if she’s the biggest joke in the world. You sometimes notice her walking with a friend but by then the next day she’s alone again, and you might go sit with her if it wasn’t for the warning people had given you that she carries the disease of unpopularity. She is really arty though you see her drawing in a sketch book sometimes, you hear about how she performed at a school concert, and according to everyone she has been in the school production ever since she started at the school. Sometimes she does the weirdest things like starting to dance to her locker or classes, and sometimes she just starts singing as she walks, and sometimes she walks as if she’s on a catwalk and when she stops walking she possess.

Rock music is amazing and I have been drawn to it since I was a little girl, and it has always been my dream to be a rock singer, in the alterative or metal rock scene. When I tell people that I want to follow in the footsteps of singers like Gerard Way, Steven Tyler, and as on they stare at me for a minute and then they start to laugh, it’s because I don’t look the part, first of all I am a girl and I am too well mannered. My friends say to me “look Dreamer, all the great rockers lose themselves in their performances and in the audience. They scream, throw and break things, they swear, and sometimes they become angry, and Dreamer that isn’t ya. We all love ya but Dreamer there is no way you can be a rocker, ya too much of a sweetheart.” Now when they say things like this I do get really mad, but I don’t let them see that, I don’t understand why a so called “sweetheart” can’t be a rocker.

I don’t like batteries they always like to run out of power just when you need them the most. Okay I think it’s best if I example why I hate batteries, and the only way to do that is by telling you a little story. It was only a few weeks ago, I was on a camp for all music and drama students at my school, and I went, but I fell seriously ill on this camp and had to spend a lot of time in bed, in a lonely cabin, which was dark a lot of the time. I don’t mind the darkness but I do need a little bit of light to stop me from going crazy or hurting myself because I banged into a wall or something like that, but on one of the nights the torch I was using to see with ran out of batteries. The two AA batteries had failed me and I was plunged into darkness, now I didn’t care much about the darkness but I couldn’t leave my bed if I needed anything and I needed to get to my phone which was on the other side of the cabin and it was a big cabin.

Why do places around the world have to have different times, it confesses me a lot and I don’t understand why it has to be 7:02 am in New York, while in Melbourne it is 9:02 pm, 1:02pm in Paris, 4:32 pm in India, and 11:02 am in Greenland, it’s crazy. Who agrees with me? I hope people do, and I understand why we have to have times differences, it’s because the Earth moves around the sun and it is positioned differently all around the world, but it confesses me. It is also really hard to keep track of My Chemical Romance when you are in a different time zone and it is even harder when they are touring around the world, I need to keep checking the international clocks on the internet all the time, when they are on tour. I just would like it to be simpler so it is easier to keep track of my favourite band. Anyway I will keep trying to work out of time differences, and I will also keep tracking My Chemical Romance across the world.

I am truly in love with My Chemical Romance, and it’s not just because they have amazing heads of hair, seriously, the band members of My Chemical Romance all have beautiful hair, but that’s not the only reason why I love them. So because I love MCR so much I decided to write a list:
1. Gerard Way (enough said)
2. Mikey Way (enough said)
3. Frank Iero (enough said)
4. Ray Toro (enough said)
5. They write amazing music which makes everything in life seem better
6. Even when I turn off their music it is still playing in my head
7. They really care about their fans
8. They aren’t like other rock bands
9. My Chemical Romance (it is a brilliant name)
10. Every music video they do is sensational
11. Their hair
12. I love their guitars
13. MCR made Danger Days (enough said)
14. The sound they create is amazing
15. They are my inspiration

Now, don’t lie to yourself but I know that somewhere deep inside of you, you long to be a rock star, even if it is just for a day. Don’t feel bad I long for the same, and it isn’t a bad dream, it’s a splendid dream. I have an idea though of how you can feel like a rock star for a day (I need to warn you that my ideas are usually very weird). The first think you have to do is change that horrible buzzing alarm that is ament to wake you up in the morning at some horrible, early hour like 5am. Change the alarm to a high energy song, I would use a MCR song to wake you up in the morning, and jump out of your bed, not fall, crawl, snake, or edge slowly out, but jump out of that bed. The next step is, you need to have an energy loaded breakfast, and I know it sounds crazy but it will give you the energy you need to continue through the day.

I am a fan of My Chemical Romance and that is why I am starting up this blog, but I think before I start going on about how talent and amazing My Chemical Romance is, I thought it would be a good idea to introduce myself to the people who are reading this blog. Well there’s not really much for me to say, I am only young so I haven’t done anything impressive, well I’ve had a lot of surgeries but that is because I was born with a lot of health problems, and that doesn’t sound cool. I suppose my dreams are the only things that are cool about me, I have a very, very, very, very, very, very, very, etc. creative imagination. My biggest dream is of my future I want to be in a band or be a soloist who performs music like My Chemical Romance, but when I say I want to perform music like MCR I mean I want to have a different form of music like them, not the same sound.