Dreaming of MCR's blog

Last year I won the public speaking award at my school and it confused the heck out of everyone at the school, once again I will remind you reader that I am one of the shiest people on the planet. Anyway, in first term I had to take a public speaking class because it was a needed thing for me to do, so my course list would be completed. I never wanted to take the course because I was so scare of talking in front of people due to many horrible things I went through which crushed my self-esteem. I wanted to do something else because I didn’t want to talk in front of people, but it was the only class I could pick. I spent awhile trying to find the confidence I needed to get so I could take the class, and on the first day we were told that we had to give three speeches in front of the class and we would have to do the first one the next week, and the topic was us.

A few days ago it was a very emotional day for me (more emotional than usual); it was the first year anniversary of my Grandma’s death. A year ago she die, she had been ill for a long time and I found it hard to see her because I was so upset that a person I loved was so sick. When I found out the she had passed away I went into denial for a year whole, and only a few days ago I thought it was time to say my long overdue goodbye. I decided that the best way to do that was to sing a song in honour her; I looked at many different songs before I found the right one. I wanted a song that made me think of her when even I heard it, and I realised that the perfect song was a My Chemical Romance song, and it was Helena. I had heard Helena a few months ago and thought of my Grandma straight away and ever since then I thought of her every time I heard it.

Lately I have been wishing to make my own killjoy suit and I have seen many people on this site designing their own but the truth is I cannot think of any idea for my own suit can someone please help me, any idea are great. I am a very out there people I like to be weird, even though I am incredibly shy. So is there anyone out there with some ideas for me, please, and thank you for reading.
From Dreaming Of MCR

Does everyone remember back to when I said I was going to start a band, but all I had at the present time was me and a girl still learning the drums, well today I heard her playing. She was amazing at the drums; I don’t understand why she says she needed to learn more. I do kind of see where she is coming from though, sometimes when I am singing I don’t want anyone to hear because I don’t feel as though I am good enough to perform jet, maybe this is how she is feeling. She only started taking drum lessons at the beginning of the year but she already sounds like she belongs in a band, she is that awesome, but I will wait. I hate it was people force me into performing before I believe I am ready, so I won’t do the same to her. Anyway I will need more members so I won’t really need a drummer until I have the rest of the band, so I will give her time, but she is really amazing.
From a mesmerized Dreaming Of MCR

Do you ever wake up after having an amazing dream and then have to see the reality that the dream was just a dream and it was only in your head, well that happened to me last night. I had the most perfect dream and every part of it seemed so real but as usual I had to wake and see that I was still in my bedroom filled with boxes which I packed months ago, which now I think about it I should really unpack them. Anyway even though it was just a dream I can still tell everyone what it was about, right? So this blog is all about my dream that I had last night, prepare to witness my crazy mind.

The other day I was just sitting in my bedroom trying to come up with something to do to stop my boredom and I couldn’t think of anything to do. So I closed my eyes, to see if maybe a rest would help me think of something to do, and just as I closed my eyes a vision of a picture came into my mind and I knew I had to draw it so I jumped of my bed and I start to draw the picture. The image in my head was of a girl (who looked a bit like me) sleeping and as she was sleeping all these amazing dreams were floating around her head, and there was also some kind of purple mist surrounding her which to me seem like more dreams waiting to by dreamt by the girl. When I started drawing I drew the girl first, who I wanted to be an ordinary girl just sleeping. Then I had an idea of drawing a sun to show the thing that the dreams are afraid of because that’s when the girl has to wake up, and then I drew a night sky setting to show what the dreams liked.

In less than a month I will be turning sixteen, but I am not so excited about that, the real reason why I am counting down the days is because I have been promised an iPod for my birthday. I am really behind on the times and I still listen to all my music by those shiny round things called CDs, and those huge machines called CD players, but this year all of that will change when I get given my first iPod, and I am really excited. Music is such a major part of my life that I can’t wait until I can listen to my music all the time (as long as I remember to charge it). I will also then be able to buy all of My Chemical Romance’s songs, because sadly at the present time I don’t own any of their CDs. I get all my CDs from friends and family as presents but I have been asking for My Chem CDs for year but no one ever buys them for me, and I also don’t have any money, so after I get my iPod I will no longer have use of the internet all the time to listen to them.

I’ve always wanted to start a band and at the present time I am trying to put one together, but so far I only have me which isn’t good because I still need others. Anyway since I don’t have a band at the present time I still want to keep the dream live, so I am going to write about it so I can more or less plan my band which is only in my head at the present time. First of all the band name, well it hasn’t been decided on yet but I do have some idea “Violent Dreaming”, “Precious Flirtation”, “Dancing With Scissors”, “Twisted Minds Alliance”, and I have more name but if think I should stop there because I don’t want to write 1000 words. The Genre of course would be rock and I would like for the band to branch off into all different types of rock, such as alternative rock, metal, pop rock, death metal, pop punk, punk, dance rock, emo, and so on.

As you all know I am a huge fan of My Chemical Romance, and I know that you are too, well I am guessing because you are on this website. As a fan I am always thinking about My Chemical Romance, but only recently I have started asking this, what would it be like to be MCR? To stand on that stage, have people screaming out your names, knowing that your songs are stuck in someone’s head right now, have strange people giving you gifts that you have always wanted but you still have to ask yourself how did they know that I wanted that? It sound cool for me to have my music out in the world, playing big show in stadiums, and also getting things I always wanted from fans, even though I don’t know who they are, but if I really wanted something does it really matter where it comes from, well I would care if someone had killed for it, because that isn’t at all cool.

Dreaming gives everyone the opportunity to create a place so beautiful and marvellous that it can take away all your pain and hurt. I have only just made my place though and now I guess I am trying to heal my mind. My world is kind of weird and it is hard for people to imagine, maybe that’s because it is my world and not theirs but I want to share my world with others. You can read on or not it’s your choice, and everyone deserves a choice. The ground isn’t made of grasses or dirt but it is made of a soft material that feels as though you are going to fall right though it but you don’t, your feet stay firmly on the ground, and you never feel as though your world is going to hell because of that ground you are standing on.