Sweet Unbroken's blog

Everyone is kind of hating on me lately. My friends... my family. Where is the love I felt two weeks ago? It seemed like everyone I loved was loving me back! But today... not so much.

~Sorrow Killer

I think if I ever have a daughter when I have kids, I'll name her Dezdemona Karma. You know why? Because I need GOOD karma! People keep knocking me down, and it feels like I can't get up. So maybe if I name a child I have after it, it will give me good karma. Kind of dumb, huh? BUT, that saying "Karma's a bitch" might backfire on my little girl. So... yeah. I am completely random right now... my apologies. lol

~Sorrow Killer

Looking at my old friend's twitter profile, wondering why everything went so wrong. Then I went to his girlfriend's twitter and suddenly felt like I should say something. But I didn't. But I keep thinking, "She needs to be tortured...." Because it's been EIGHT MONTHS since me and her had a spat on facebook and she's STILL tweeting about it. I want her to pay for what she did so bad. And I want him to find out about it so I can rub it in his face. Ohhhhhh..... talk me out of this please.

~Sorrow Killer

"Emotions run high,
strangling me with words.
Don't dare lie,
you'll make it worse.
I know I'm not better,
it's just my curse.
Harm me some more with razors.

I wish I could make them all happy,
make them smile when they see me,
but they frown and turn away.
I'm alone in my head,
I'm abandoned in my own world.
Can you see me?
Can you hear me?
If I break the glass, will you find me?

I've found a light,
but the darkness overcomes it,
I feel like I'm in a hearse.
They've forgotten about me by now,
all but my name.
The name that holds shame.
The name they used to blame.
I have nothing but my plight.

I'm alone in my head,
I'm abandoned in my own world.
Can you see me?
Can you hear me?
If I break the glass, will you find me?
I know I'm not better.
I wish I were.
Am I good enough?
Because this is all you'll get.

I'm not better. "

Written by Mikaela B. (a.k.a Sorrow Killer)

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Love,
Sorrow Killer

No one has to like or accept us, as long as we like and accept ourselves! Screw the people who doubt us, shame us, and hate us -- they mean nothing. WE are the present and future, THEY are the past. Be yourself and show your true colors.

I saw this documentary "Bully" at the True/False film festival last night with my mother and her friends, and it really moved me. I've never seen people being physically bullied, or see that no one does anything about it. It showed me how ugly and cruel people can be. I have been cyberbullied, but I haven't PHYSICALLY been bullied. In the film, a boy is being stabbed with a pencil and strangled on the BUS for NO REASON! The damn bus driver did nothing! It infuriated me so much! And when the kids from the documentary came out to do a Q & A, the kid that got stabbed and strangled was so nice and funny and he was even a little attractive. There was no reason he should have been bullied and had no friends, because he was and still IS a good person.

My Chemical Romance has gone through a lot through their career. They've grown, changed, and become something even more epic each album! All of their music is heartwarming, pulse-quickening, and life-changing, so I don't get the division between all of the fans because of their new sound. It's the same guys and they still have the My Chemical Romance sound, it's just grown and changed with them.
They officially rule my world! I know they rule yours too. :) Admit it.

~Sorrow Killer

I'm a weirdo. Big difference. Psssshhhhhhhhhhhh.

I'm trying to breathe and not cry as I write this...
My name is Mikaela B., and I am not afraid to admit that I have struggled with self-harm for two years. It has always been an alternative to suicide. I wouldn't wish the longing for it on my enemies, because I know how painful and emotionally draining it is. Physical pain is all I want to distract me from my life, but I realize my life isn't that bad. It's all in my head.
I am proud to say that I have not harmed myself for over eight months, and I am doing okay now. I'm not okay emotionally, but I cope with it much better.
I love my family and friends - I have something to live for. I live for them.
I've stopped hurting myself, and I know you can too. So can anyone else who puts their mind to it.
Remember I love you all. You have my promise that I will stay strong enough to survive. Do I have yours?

~Sorrow Killer