Sweet Unbroken's blog

Things are better for me now. Nothing is wrong. I talked out the problem I had with my friend and we have come to an agreement. Everything is fine. :)

~Sorrow Killer

My god, I didn't realize how amazing this song was until now....

~Sorrow Killer

This song is in Lost Boys 2: The Tribe. I love this song SO MUCH. Kind of relates to what I am going through.

Honestly, I'm doing better. I'm trying not to dwell, because a few days ago I was so angry and hurt I almost fainted. Now, I am simply floating around and focusing on what's important.
Thank you to everyone who has helped me through this whole thing! I love you!

~Sorrow Killer

Yeah....

~Sorrow Killer

Christina Perri is coming to my town and is doing a concert with Sleeping At Last! Hell yes! I am so psyched! I have been saving money for such a time as this since December, so I am for sure going.
If some of you don't know who she is, she sang "A Thousand Years" and "Jar Of Hearts". I can't stop listening to Jar Of Hearts. lol It's awesome!

~Sorrow Killer

If you hadn't noticed, there has been three different people (me included) who have been incredibly sad and needing advice and hating themselves.... I hate to say that I may be the cause of some of that. So may be a wonderful gentleman who means the world to me and the other girl.
He loves me, I know this much. But I think he loves her too, maybe more than me.
What KILLS ME, is that I have been steering clear of guys for this boy. I have been told by three or four different guys online, and in person, that they have a crush on me, and I told them I wasn't looking for anyone. Which, at the time of my first conversation with this boy, I wasn't. I was helping him with his broken heart, because he had broken up with his girlfriend and he wasn't doing well. I helped him as a friend, but then he said he loved me.
He's now afraid of losing me... I'm afraid of losing him too.
I feel like the enemy in this situation.
I wish I could fall from the earth.

~Sorrow Killer

I wrote this song for the now TWO situations I've been in.
It's called Choke.

"I was so happy and content....
I had dreams.
It's over now, I guess.
I shouldn't have been so extreme.
I shouldn't have let him get in my head
And plant those things...

[Chorus]
I hope,
He chokes,
On his cold... dead heart.
I hope,
He knows,
I'm torn apart.

I was happy and okay
Another month had passed away
I was fine enough to say
"I really am okay"
But then he crushed my hopes and dreams
He shredded my whole being

[Chorus]
I hope,
He chokes,
On his cold... dead heart.
I hope,
He knows,
I'm torn apart.

It's your fault!
Go to hell!
Thanks to you
If you can't tell
I'm screwed up as hell!"

~Sorrow Killer

I'm done, guys. I am really done.
People are saying and doing things behind my back again. Someone loves me, someone doesn't. It's total bullsh*t. So guess what? I'm going to just say this now, if anyone dare screws with me, you're going to wish you never had.
No catfights, I swear. But if anyone says a word to me, or even mentions something to me, they're dead. I just GOT OUT of this kind of situation, I don't want back in. I'm on the edge of losing it. I want to cut so bad right now...

~Sorrow Killer

Happy birthday Gerard! You look amazing!
I want to thank Gerard for all of the good things he has done, and for all of the mistakes he has made. He wouldn't be the man I admire today if it weren't for his mistakes.
August 19th 2011 was the day I saw Gerard and the band live, and I have been forever changed. His words have stuck with me and repeat in my mind every day I look in the mirror. "It doesn't matter if you think you are young, old, fat or skinny, just remember... You are beautiful."
Thank you, Gee. You keep me from falling off the deep end.

Love, Mikaela (Sorrow Killer)