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may death never stop you

that's some pain right there

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Woah

Welp its been a while. I haven't been on here in about 3 months. Damn I miss it. It's like one of those things that's always in the back of your mind and it just pops in at the most bizarre and unexpected times. The people I have spoken to and become friends with. One of the greatest most lovable people I have ever had the pleasure of speaking too.
So not much has happened to me. Being a freshman is cool and stuff, I guess. High School hasn't bugged me too much and I've made some new friends so that's always fun.

I don't know the point of this... I guess just dropping in and staying I'm still alive...

--December Lithium--

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I created something

I drew a picture of Billy Corgan from the Smashing Pumpkins

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High School

I honestly don't think I am ready for high school.
I've never had a locker before
Getting to class on time has never really mattered
I didn't have to pick out what I wanted to wear
Going to a small, private school has not prepared me for high school at all. I could always do any homework right before or during class and I could show up 10 minutes late and nobody would really care.
I'm just stressed. I'm stressed all over the place. EVERYTHING has been making me anxious. Parents. School. Life. People. Blah.

--December Lithium--

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well then

FINALLY MY COMPUTER IS FIXED!
Some sick shit hacked my computer and gave it a virus and so I couldn't use it and I'm happy it's working again
I missed being able to come on here :*
Love you!
--December Lithium

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Hi

Some incredibly stressful events have gone on in my life
-I told my dad how I am unhappy all the time
-My mom and I are pretending like everything is okay between us
-I told my dad about how I imagine people and talk with them
-I can't sleep or eat

I'm just really tired and really stressed out so I just need to say that because I need some advice so I don't have a major melt down in a few days. Thanks.

--December Lithium--

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hey

and like whats up

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the good kind of tears

Most people make me angry as all bloody hell
Some people make me happy and laugh
But there are a few people that make me cry and not bad tears but the ones that make you feel loved, you know?
When someone tells me they love me or call me beautiful and I know they really mean it I burst out in tears. I hardly feel loved. I don't have many friends and I don't have a good relationship with any family.
It takes a lot to make me cry either kind of tears simply because I can block out emotion so if you have ever managed to get me to cry those good tears you are very special to me and I care about you a lot. And thanks

--December Lithium--

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Smashing Pumpkins - Galapogos

If you could please read and listen all the way to the end that would be great, thanks :)

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under our blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabies
And tell me I am still
The man I'm supposed to be
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?

Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound
And I'm changing, changing
And if we died right now, this fool you loved somehow
Is here with you
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?

This is basically how I feel right now.

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Home!

After being on vacation for a week I'm home \(O.O)/
I hate being with family...
So I'm back
yeah...

--December Lithium