DDRgurl713's blog

I'm not equipped to be an adult yet. I'm still in college. I have no job. I have no car. And I have to come up with $500 by Dec 31st or I am FUCKED all OVER.

First, let me say, I'm sharing this because I feel this as website is a safe haven. I don't think I could tell anyone else about this.

Don't we all fuck up at one point or another? But I feel as if this the biggest fuck up of my life at this moment. I'm stronger than this. I'm smarter than this...

Last night I was feeling so hopeless and lost for some unGodly reason that I decided "man, I want to be fucked up". I haven't taken any kind of drug (even if it is legal) with intent to get high in a long time.

I drank about half a bottle of NyQuil. I don't think any of you quite understand that the last time I took some kind of drug while trying to get fucked up, well, it was probably about a year and a half ago. Just like about two weeks ago I cut for the first time in about a year as well. What is wrong with?? Why do I insist on fucking stuff up that's working out for me? I mean, college is stressful, but it is for everyone else as well.

So I am going to post my myspace

www.myspace.com/ghostinsnow713

1. First thing you wash in the shower? What do you think? My vag or something? I don't know. Usually my hair.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie? It is black.

3. Do you plan outfits? Um. No. That's weird. Not unless I have to be professional for something.

4. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Fucking fuck my life.

5. Whats the closest thing to you that's red? Mario.

6. Do you say aim or a-i-m? AIM.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I don't remember. Which is odd. I usually do.

8. Did you meet anybody new today? Quite possibly...no.

9. What are you craving right now? Nothing. Food is yucky.

10. Do you floss? Noo. I'm too poor to buy floss. Is that sad?

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? People from NJ saying Garbage. Haha.

12. When was the last time you talked on aim? A LONG ass time ago.

13. Are you emotional? I'm an emotional fuck load of fuck.

When you're too young to by alcohol and when you're too poor to buy real drugs, take NyQuil! XD

...and so it begins.

It's such a good movie. I have it on right now. I love Christmas movies. But does anyone else find this terrible weight of sadness after Christmas? I do. Real bad. Like, I'm ready for Christmas to be over when it is over, but then I feel as if there is no hope for anything ever again. And then comes mine and my boyfriend's anniversary (three years this time) and then Valentine's Day. And then St. Patrick's Day. And then Easter. Then birthday's. Then school's over. Then summer. For some reason, thing's only feel "normal" during the summer. I have no clue why. Probably because I live in a state that is pretty warm year round.

I had my guitar Music therapy implementation that I had to do today. It went well! I don't know if you guys remember, but I had to write a song on guitar for a certain population, and I chose a depressed teenager with a parent who doesn't quite understand.

I had one of my friends in the class play the teenager and another friend in the class play a parent. They were really good at playing those roles! They gave me one hell of an experience. Not to mention, everyone in the class said that my song was really good. So I'm happy. Too bad I had to re-write my song on a music noting program and it took me an hour and then the program shut down and I lost everything. I almost broke the school computer. Like physically. I'm pretty sure people at my school think I'm an angry psycho.

Anyways, my point was that my implementation went well and I'm very happy with that =)

Who is your favorite member of MCR? NO FAVORITE!

Who is your favorite Way brother? They're both special in their own way =)

What is your favorite MCR album? All of them are good.

What is your favorite song off of I Gave you my Bullet, You Gave me Your Love? ATM, Honey or Vampires. But it changes all the time.

What is your favorite song off of the Revenge album? ATM, Cemetery, I'm Not Okay. But it always changes.

What is your favorite song off of The Black Parade album? Once again, ATM, Disenchanted.

Do you like Gerard with short blonde or long black hair? Long black hair. That's I first saw him as.

How do you like Frankie's hair? However it was for Three Cheers.

Have you ever seen MCR live? I have. AMAZING!

Do you like it when Gee and Frankie have Frerard moments? lmao. Like when Frank kicks Gerard in the ballzzz?? Yes =)

She didn't even like the hamster. She was afraid of it. My parent's called it Fat Bastard. Because he was the fattest thing EVER! And he lived for like almost 3 years! Ridiculous. But right before my parents went to go see it, they were talking about how sick it had been lately. And my mom said she wanted to go in with the "Pillow fairy" to suffocate it to put it out of it's misery, but they weren't sure if it was just a virus or not. My mom was like "Look, we'll wake up in the morning and he'll be running on his wheel, loud as shit". Then my dad went to go look at it and it was dead. So they buried it in the back yard next to a squirrel that my brother buried a few years ago because it got attacked to death by birds.

Ah. My parents kind of have sick humor. I think it's great.

What's your favorite soda? Blegh. I generally hate soda. It burns my face.

What other band (besides MCR) has members that are heroes to you? Hm. I really don't have any other bands that have my heroes in them.

Favorite book trilogy or series? Oh, The Twilight series! I'm a normal teenager. Unlike Bella who reads Wuthering Heights haha

Out of any book, who's your favorite book character? I have to choose Edward, hands down. For me, he was a really likable character.

Favorite movie genre? I like comedies.

Have you seen MCR live? I have. It was so amazing.

Favorite MCR music video? Probably Helena because it was the first one I saw. But of course, I'm Not Okay and Ghost of You were amazing.

Favorite MCR song? No choice. I love all their songs.

What would your reaction be if MCR showed up at your birthday party to stay for the day? I would probably shit bricks.