Hys so this is just a bit of update of my life nothin much for most of the time my life is dull and pretty boting and i feel a bit frozen in time but that's okay i guess after all i still have my books to keep me company after my ''incident'' you could call it i feel not really great but don't worry my misery will end somewhere in the next 4 years at the moment i'm pretty pathetic cause i've given up everything that gives me some kind of small joy(well except beating up people i'm the most feared girl in school now)I've also come to realisation that has pretty much changed my life I can no be saved no matter how hard i trie i will always end up in square one i'm one of those people who just can't be saved i'm far too deep in So i've decided to break my circle of relapses and wait what life does to me but to be honest i'm not afraid anymore well for myself at least I'm afraid about that small amount of people that i will hurt with my departure I'm just waiting for the last person to lea
