I woke up the next morning to the roar of thunder outside. Gerard was still sleeping, so I didn't move. I snuggled closer to him. I felt his chest move up and down with every breath he took. He was at peace. I smiled every time he took an even breath and released it. I could feel the cold air leave his lips and blow through my messy hair. I tried to remember the first day I saw him. I denied liking him, even though he swarmed my thoughts. Every second of every day I would tell myself 'I don't love you. I can't love you', but here I am. Gerard by my side.