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Tear my heart open

ya' know what? ignore my other blog. It's completely pointless

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Help? --> A poll

'kay, i need to take a vote.
I am in a really bad position. There is a person in my life who... we'll say he hurts me. It's not physically painful, but it's highly inappropriate and makes me feel....dirty. Not in a good way. I know i CAN get out of this situation, but to do so, I have to hurt someone else who is very important to me, and I'm afraid she won't believe me or for give me. My question is, do I tell someone who can help, or do i stay silent and protect her? I've made it 11 years through this, and i only have to go one more and 2 months before i go off to college... I feel so helpless...

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Watch As the World Falls Away

You see the truth, just to hide.
Ask me how I am - Say I'm fine.
Touches and fingers where they'll never belong,
You don't believe me, you've always been wrong.

You love him and you're blind,
And stopped the only escape I could find.
You believe he's innocent, he'd never hurt me.
Living this way, death would make me free.

But cowardice has its merits,
Fear of being caught- Can't bear it.
So I'll live on in this hell,
Putting up with the abuse I can't tell.

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Watch as the World Falls Away

You see the truth, just to hide.
Ask me how I am - Say I'm fine.
Touches and fingers where they'll never belong,
You don't believe me, you've always been wrong.

You love him and you're blind,
And stopped the only escape I could find.
You believe he's innocent, he'd never hurt me.
Living this way, death would make me free.

But cowardice has its merits,
Fear of being caught- Can't bear it.
So I'll live on in this hell,
Putting up with the abuse I can't tell.

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If yesterday you would have stood up proud...

"danger warning levels hissed out loud,
i saw the silver lining
hidden in the mushroom cloud.
Now im reeling from the
shock at ground zero.
If yesterday you would have stood up proud,
then why tongiht have you thrown
in with the stoning crowd?
I will breathe through the foetus
of a new day kicking."

"Wounds so deep they never show,
they never go away"

"I left my heart open,
But you didn't understand"

words only get you through the day.
hollow, clanging words,
saying you're okay.

as my heart finds home
somewhere near my spleen
I sit and i realize im truly alone.
What is the point of a dream?

ps where the hell is your spleen?

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WHAT THE BLOODY HELL???!!1

okay, on the nanananaana vid, why do the edit "drugs" and one "fuck" but not another?

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Poem...eh

He says that he loves her,
that he would die with out her.
Constantly, he wants her,
but she's not so sure.....

She said she loved her,
wanted her-she touched her.
"Keep it our secret" she told her,
Secrets that erode the heart.

They say that they love you,
but you never really can tell.
They'll hold you, touch you,
And rape you 'till you break.

Ghosts of previous...people
Cut like your blades,
If you dwell on them too long,
They'll kill you just as slow.....

Never could tune out the voices...
They scream that your worthless-
-but they love you.
When you learn to tell the lies from reality,
You'll see "alone" isn't so bad....

--Pixie Ellisium--

"its really quite pleasant except for the smell..."
too bad i've been here long enough not to notice even the smell anymore....

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lololol

Plural of "moose". thoughts?

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The Institution

to any i may have worried with my last blog, i guess i'll clear somethings up:
I wasn't planning anything - i had already cut myself, and my parents were threatening to send me to an asylum
I didn't get sent, and probably won't- but there is a chance. I'm sure I'll be okay.

Thanks to the people trying to help me (especially Sweet Little Bastard -- I LOVE YOU!)(I sound like a stalker. sorry)

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Trinitite and Ellisium 4eva (i love my sissy)

To all the killjoys who care enough to read -- if I'm not on for a while, if things go horribly wrong and I can't talk for a while because I dont know if there's internet access in mental institutions, I love you all!

Keep running, and look alive. Good advice that I don't think I can follow.