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Haven't posted in a short while....

So I thought I would. Happy august everyone!!! A day late, I know, but whatever. I really have no idea what to put, I really just feel like I have to post something. Everyone on here always has something interesting to post at one time or another, but I don't. The most interesting thing I ever post is the ridiculously dark and macabre poems, and I think I've only ever posted 3. Anyone want to read one? Feel lame now.
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Does anyone else have this problem?

I enjoy writing: stories and poetry. At the minute I'm on a story kick. But I'm having trouble actually writing. I can come up with ideas really easily, I actually have 5/6 ideas right at this minute that I've kind of started - as in, I've written about 3 pages. But I can never continue writing them. I get bored with them, or more commonly, I HATE my own work, my own words. I'm always over-critical of myself, but it's worse with my writing, and I can't stand it. I want to be able to write something, and finish it, instead of leaving it, a few pages into it, or an idea. Does anyone know of anyway that I can either a) stick with what I'm writing, or b) improve my writing style? Any help would be appreciated guys!! :)
I tried to be someone else, But nothing seemed to change, I know now, this is who I really am inside.
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Beautiful song :D

This song is just really good, so I thought I'd share it with you guys!!! And I wanted to post a blog, but I have ABSOLUTELY nothing to say what-so-ever!!! Actually, I do! If anyone knows where to get a movie called Stiff Uppers Lips, with Samuel West in, on DVD available in the UK, for the UK, then I would REEEEEEEEEEEALLY appreciate it!!!!!!!!!
Keep Running, guys and girls!
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Happy Birthday Ray!!!!! Also, I'd really appreciate some feedback on this poem I wrote a while ago. Thanks!! :)

As I realise what day is soon,
I contemplate it from my tomb
A casket; rivered, solid stone,
So cold it chills me to the bone.
The memories in my mind, still sharp,
They lead me down a three year map.
The stinging of the blades’ biting,
Blood loss that my heart tried fighting,
Warm it trickled down my neck,
Fruitless attempts to mend this wreck,
For I had known the end was nigh,
But not a tear squeezed from my eye.
While I resent this event occurring,
I can’t help but start preferring,
What I’d gained, not what I lost,
The former me was a more a ghost
Than I am now, and I’ve stopped living,
Though my brain did not stop giving,
Recounts of my world before,
Ones that I choose to ignore.
I saw what life I could have had
Not just normal – good and bad;
Completely filled with pain and sorrow,
So I look forward to tomorrow,
To revel in my satisfaction,

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Question?

Does anyone think that my little picture by my name is weird? Nearly everyone on here either has a picture of themselves, or a picture related to MCR. Also, anyone going to see Magic Mike at the cinema?? :)
Am I dead, or am I dreaming instead?
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Random musings of a failure 2

Can I be interesting, if I have no interests? I need hobbies, I don't think I have any and I'm afraid it makes me boring!!! :( So do you guys have any suggestions???? But it can't be to learn an instrument, I don't have any to learn. Thanks guys!
Cast your ideals onto me, And I'll show you what you really need
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Am I boring? A nothing person?

I was at my school prom on friday, which was awesome, and I was talking to some teachers about how bored I am and will be for the next 10 weeks of my sumer holidays, and they said you need hobbies. The conversation ended there but I was going to say that I do have hobbies, then name them. But do I? I mean, I try to write stories and poems, and to draw, but it's difficult for me because if I'm not happy with what I've done, which is nearly always, I'll get angry or miserable at being useless. I play on The Sims 3, but that's not really a hobby. I do sudokus. What defines a hobby? Do I not have any hobbies? Am I boring, a nothing person? I'm just doubting now whether I'm in any way interesting, or if I'm just a really boring, lame person. Do you guys think I am? And do you have any hobbies that I could try to fight off the boredom??? Or just any way to fight the boredom??? Please help me!!!
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What on Mercury????

Did the site go down for anyone else yesterday, or was it just me who couldn't get on??
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Random musings of a failure 1

I started something a little like this before, but it failed, because I'm a failure. It's just when I have weird, random thoughts that are too special for a normal blog. So, is there a special thing to say after you hiccup?? I mean, when we sneeze, we say "Bless me" and when we burp, we say "Pardon me" or "Excuse me" but what about hiccups? I've always wondered...
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So ANNOYING!!!!!!

Does anyone else have trouble with messaging???? I'll type something, and I'll accidentally hit a button and it will disappear or something and it drives me mental!!!!!!!!!!!!
Had my prom last night. Best night of my life, ever!!!!! :D
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