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old friends, driving, maybe concerts and tattoos

just found a kid from here's (toeveryenemy) youtube. we used to talk every day. We were such close friends. I was attracted to her, but more than anything I just loved being her friend. haven't talked for a very long time. she's so talented and beautiful and i know she has having a hard time when we were talking but she looks like she's doing a lot better, which makes me feel good for her :)
in other news, I'm going on pass to see the used tomorrow, except only if my mom can get tickets, which doesn't seem likely but i'll still get to leave the program for a few hours anyways :) gonna

fanfic recs?

do you guys know of any good fanfics that ARE NOT INAPPROPRIATE AT ALL and preferbly shorter (one shot/up to three chapters) and mcr/fob/p!atd/the used based. i want to read fanfic at my program but need it to be clean
also, as blue burns black pointed out, in my last blog when I said ED I meant eating disorder, not erectile disfuntion :p I'm not sure if any of you were thinking that but thought i should clarify
thanks guys!

I'm Still ALive!!!

hey killjoys,
just got up. had a pass yesterday. went to mall and hung out at home, but now i'm back at the program.
miss you guys. miss my group chats on kik I can't open. and the ones I can only go on sometimes on gmail.
I feel like I'm making progress with my ED. its getting easier but its still hard.
they don't know how long till i get out but if i stay the average time, I still have a week or two in here.
Gotta get a blood test tomorrow :/ my 4th in a week and a half...
I wanna know how you guys are doing. Comment how your day is, I need updates and Y'ALL NEED TO BLOG MORE
Love you guys

Bye For A While

Hey chums!
So in 2ish hours I'm going into my program. There is internet connection but I'm sure it's monitored. I found the daily schedule for the program:

6:00 am - Wake up and shower time; weights/vitals, Monday, Wednesday, Friday
7:30 - Medication
8:00 - Breakfast
8:45 - Goals group/Mindfulness activity; community meeting, Wednesday & Friday
9:15 - Fresh air break
9:30 - Dialectical Behavioral Therapy: distress tolerance
10:15 - Snack
10:30 - Individual assignments/meetings, chores, leisure time
11:00 - Fresh air break
11:15 - Motivation group
12:00 - Medication
12:15 - Lunch
1:00 -

Going To Program


Hey guys
Sorry I haven't been on in a WHILE, but don't worry, I still love you all <3
So I went to my doctor and she referred me to an eating disorder doctor, since I've had rapid weight loss and I've been restricting my eating a lot.
When I got to the eating disorder doctor, she talked to me for a really long time. I told her everything. She said my calorie limit I made for myself was way too low, and my test showed I was really dehydrated, had low blood pressure and low blood sugar, and my losing nearly 10 pounds in 2.5 weeks wasn't healthy.

very exciting news!

hey guys, I have great news!!
my name change has finished processing! I just got the certification in the mail today. I am now legally Z Charlotte-Mae Peverill-Conti! I cried a lot when I opened the letter, I was so happy :) I'm finally Z in EVERY way. Just thinking of it, I'm so happy :) I posted it on facebook and I got a lot of support on there, since everyone knew how important this is to me. At the WAGLY trivia night, a lot of my friends congratulated me, which was especially nice since a lot of WAGLY kids use names that aren't their legal names, so they understand how special this is.

Lunch Blog

At lunch. I don't like lunch. There's food that makes me nervous (I tend to get anxious around food). My friend offered me to sit with gamer's club, and since I didn't really have anywhere to go I agreed. They're playing Super Smash Bros but they're yelling a lot and I don't like loud noises.
Been feeling lonely today. Actually, I've been feeling lonely in general. Been shutting people out a little and IDK why. A little bit depressed, but only a little. I'm still ok.
Sorry I haven't been online much, guys. I miss you guys <3
I don't want to be in school. I want to sleep or something.


The band that saved and gave me my life
A teenage boy climbing out of an old Mercedes
Walking through the town at night, cold hands tucked into your closest friend’s pockets
The warm hum of a four stringed heart beat
A welcoming group of 50 queer teens
A home built not only of pixels, but of a community of pure hope
The feeling of looking in the mirror, and knowing you look exactly how you feel.

Lemme Tell You About My Crush

Ok so here’s what’s happening
I have the BIGGEST crush on this kid. Their name is going to be listed as E. They’re also 17. We met at WAGLY. They really love MCR, like as much as I do, like they freaked out over my bat belt buckle and drew Mikey on a little slip of paper. Their makeup looks like Frank’s in revenge era, minus the X’s. They’re also really outgoing and smile a lot. They read my fanfic before we even met.


IT'S MY MCR BIRTHDAY1!!!!1 this day in 2013, when I was a wimpy little 8th grader, I made my account here! that was probably the best decission I ever made <3 now It's been 3 years and I still post every day, just like I did during my first and seccond year on this site. I've made so many friends here and have even met one of them irl!! this website is my home and is such a gift to be a part of. thank you all so much for making this website my home, cause without you, there would be literally nothing.
So I'm in new jersey. Car ride was fine.