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Discharge + Goodbye Letter

Today at my program I found out I'm discharging to Intense Out Patient (three evenings a week, 3 hour group therapy) on Tuesday!
In group today we wrote letters saying goodbye to our eating disorders.I actually like mine and feel like it helped, so thought I'd share it with you guys.

Eating Disorder,
I've been with you since 7th grade. I knew what was happening, but was much too in love with the ways you made me feel to care that you were hurting me.You started making me feel fat and told me I couldn't eat at school. That was just the beginning.

Breakfast Ramble

Hey guys,
how are you? I haven't been online in a while. But here I am now!
At Spencer's it was buy 3 get 4 free for gauged earrings, so I took that deal! one of them are plugs with the bisexual symbol on them. Wearing that one now.
Eating breakfast. Maybe I'll start blogging while I do meals, it's a good distraction.
Have any of you heard The Curse Of Curves by Cute Is What We Aim For? I love it!!1 very pop punk
xoxoZ

In partial/BF help?

Hey guys
I havent been online in FOREVER!!!!!!!!! its 87 F which is SUPER hot. I stepped down to my partial program and its going well. There's four of us at partial and three of us were at resi together.
Having some BF problems. I've been with my boyfriend for 11 months. I really like being near him and talking with him. But he's not over his ex and that's really bad for our relationship and for him. Also, he's very depressed a lot. I thought I could help him. I know I have a little (he told me that) but it's getting too much for me to belive I can change him.

treatment plan and the used

Hey killjoys,
how are you guys! missed you this week, i haven't been online much.
I have 2 passes this week. That means I get to leave the program for a little while. They're on Friday (tomorrow) and Sunday. Then I'm stepping down on Tuesday and starting the partial day program on Wednesday.

old friends, driving, maybe concerts and tattoos

just found a kid from here's (toeveryenemy) youtube. we used to talk every day. We were such close friends. I was attracted to her, but more than anything I just loved being her friend. haven't talked for a very long time. she's so talented and beautiful and i know she has having a hard time when we were talking but she looks like she's doing a lot better, which makes me feel good for her :)
in other news, I'm going on pass to see the used tomorrow, except only if my mom can get tickets, which doesn't seem likely but i'll still get to leave the program for a few hours anyways :) gonna

fanfic recs?

do you guys know of any good fanfics that ARE NOT INAPPROPRIATE AT ALL and preferbly shorter (one shot/up to three chapters) and mcr/fob/p!atd/the used based. i want to read fanfic at my program but need it to be clean
also, as blue burns black pointed out, in my last blog when I said ED I meant eating disorder, not erectile disfuntion :p I'm not sure if any of you were thinking that but thought i should clarify
thanks guys!
xoxoZ

I'm Still ALive!!!

hey killjoys,
just got up. had a pass yesterday. went to mall and hung out at home, but now i'm back at the program.
miss you guys. miss my group chats on kik I can't open. and the ones I can only go on sometimes on gmail.
I feel like I'm making progress with my ED. its getting easier but its still hard.
they don't know how long till i get out but if i stay the average time, I still have a week or two in here.
Gotta get a blood test tomorrow :/ my 4th in a week and a half...
I wanna know how you guys are doing. Comment how your day is, I need updates and Y'ALL NEED TO BLOG MORE
Love you guys

Bye For A While

Hey chums!
So in 2ish hours I'm going into my program. There is internet connection but I'm sure it's monitored. I found the daily schedule for the program:

6:00 am - Wake up and shower time; weights/vitals, Monday, Wednesday, Friday
7:30 - Medication
8:00 - Breakfast
8:45 - Goals group/Mindfulness activity; community meeting, Wednesday & Friday
9:15 - Fresh air break
9:30 - Dialectical Behavioral Therapy: distress tolerance
10:15 - Snack
10:30 - Individual assignments/meetings, chores, leisure time
11:00 - Fresh air break
11:15 - Motivation group
12:00 - Medication
12:15 - Lunch
1:00 -

Going To Program

TW: EATING DISSORDER

Hey guys
Sorry I haven't been on in a WHILE, but don't worry, I still love you all <3
So I went to my doctor and she referred me to an eating disorder doctor, since I've had rapid weight loss and I've been restricting my eating a lot.
When I got to the eating disorder doctor, she talked to me for a really long time. I told her everything. She said my calorie limit I made for myself was way too low, and my test showed I was really dehydrated, had low blood pressure and low blood sugar, and my losing nearly 10 pounds in 2.5 weeks wasn't healthy.

very exciting news!

hey guys, I have great news!!
my name change has finished processing! I just got the certification in the mail today. I am now legally Z Charlotte-Mae Peverill-Conti! I cried a lot when I opened the letter, I was so happy :) I'm finally Z in EVERY way. Just thinking of it, I'm so happy :) I posted it on facebook and I got a lot of support on there, since everyone knew how important this is to me. At the WAGLY trivia night, a lot of my friends congratulated me, which was especially nice since a lot of WAGLY kids use names that aren't their legal names, so they understand how special this is.

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