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User name change/what's up

Hey guys,
Is there any way I can change my username on this site? I want it to be my killjoy name (Cosmic Constellation) But If you can change the user name, can someone please tell me how? Thanks :)
My friend set me up on a blind double date (herself, Her boyfriend/my best friend, and one of her friends she thinks I'd be good with) for friday. I'm talking to the girl now. Her name is Monica, and she's actually really cool. She likes Aerosmith and the Ramones, crafty like me, and also pretty nerdy with love of HP and musicals. We have a lot in common, and I like her.

In honor of Mikey's birthday

Since it is Mikey's birthday, here I am in school dressed like him, glasses and all. Even though I don't usually wear them. Happy birthday!
- Z

My crush likes me!!!

Around last May, I was in a band with my friend. Apparently I was really obvious about liking her (like, kids were betting on it obvious) and long story short, we kissed. Now, I still like her and I just found out that she STILL likes me!
I was texting her friend, and she said "Are you ___'s girlfriend?" "I think she likes you." and "you should ask her out." I've been trying to ask her out for a while now but she's always SUPER busy. She lives 30-45 mins away from me and is always at school or work.

Mission Achived.

Guess what's stuck in my mom's head? I don't love you. Guess what was stuck in her head yesterday? To the end. I have accomplished something. Yay :)

Internet friends are real friends too

Hey guys,
I've been thinking recently, no one believes me when I tell them who my best friend has come to be, just because I met her on this site. It's really rough, when I feel so connected to someone who lives 1171 miles away. You know who you are, and I'm sorry if I sound creepy. My friends at home aren't the same. I love them, but there's only so much I can tell them. It's really special to find someone with so much in common who accepts me for me. Whenever I need someone, I know she's there and I really hope she know I'm always there for her.

what's the point

What's the point of life? It's boring, lonely, sad, depressing, and old. I'm not sure what to do with myself, every day is the same thing. Every day. What am I supposed to do?
- Z


I just posted here a few hours ago, but here I am at 1:53 AM, feeling like shit. Why? Cause I'm worthless. I'm hideous. I'm revolting. I'm disgusting. I'm just a fucking demented, distorted emo kid who locks herself in her room all day every day. I'm a freak. The other kids are right, I am a fucking weirdo. One day I feel fine, the next I'm like this. I hate myself. I'm so negative, but there's not much I can do about that now, because I hate myself. I hate myself. I HATE MYSELF. Why do I have to be like this? Why is there a swarm of hate in me every damn day? Why does it have to be me?


I think I'm just having a bad day. I really miss MCR. I'm listening to disenchanted (live version) and GERARD WAY YOU ARE NOT HELPING IN THE SLIGHTEST! They made me who I am today and I never got the chance to thank them. One of my best friends, I met her here on this site. And she's done so much for me. I don't know. I'm in that mood again. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, but it feels like the list goes on and on and on. I feel so hideously disgusting again. I though I wasn't going to have to feel like this again, but here we go. What the fuck am I going to do?

There's a girl...

Hey guys. So, I already posted today, but oh well.
As I said before, I just entered high school. And I already met a girl I'm beginning to like "in that way." she has red hair and glasses, and when I first met her she was wearing a Green Day shirt (Metallica today). I don't know what it is, but I feel this pull towards her. I'm not sure if I should act on it or not. For now, I'm planning on just being friends for a while, so I can get a better feel for weather she's lesbian or some variation or straight. Any advice on how to find out if she's gay? Ask her out yay or nay and when?
- Z

Long Time No Post... What's Up?

Hey there, MCRmy. This is Z :3 I haven't really been on all summer. Ops. But now I'm back in school, my freshman year at the public high school. So I'll be on here a ton now. Any recs for good MCR fics?
I'm actually doing okay for once. I get these periods of times, where (this is a secret of mine, but since I know none of you in person I'll say it) I feel REALLY masculine. To the point where I question my gender and wonder why I'm in a girl body instead of a male one. And then there are days like today when I'm a slightly masculine female. This is what feels normal.