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the gender machine

heres a poem i wrote hope you enjoy :)
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The washing machine goes round and round. The colors blend together. The funny thing about the washing machine, is the colors are my gender.
I wish I had sorted my colors out many years ago. Because now a days, all you can say, is it’s a phase, that I don’t know.
Maybe it’s true, that I don’t have a clue if I’m green or red or blue. But may I ask why? Do I have to try? I’m simply a beautiful freaking rainbow.
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xoxo
-Z

chpeverill-conti's picture

the gender machine

heres a poem i wrote hope you enjoy :)
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The washing machine goes round and round. The colors blend together. The funny thing about the washing machine, is the colors are my gender.
I wish I had sorted my colors out many years ago. Because now a days, all you can say, is it’s a phase, that I don’t know.
Maybe it’s true, that I don’t have a clue if I’m green or red or blue. But may I ask why? Do I have to try? I’m simply a beautiful freaking rainbow.
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xoxo
-Z

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Dying... Again

had to leave during 1st block because I was sad. I'm such a wuss. The day started off good, a little rocky but I was over all ok. Now all I can think about is the song "sarcasm" by Get Scared. I want to destroy myself. Ip myself into tiny little pieces until there's nothing less.
I want to go home.
I could go home, all I would need to do is tell Mrs. DeRocher that I feel like a slug with salt being slowly dropped on it's back. one grain at a time. I feel like today I'm just going to get worse and WORSE and WORST. And I can't stop it here.
Also, I want to use my safety box. My safety box helps me a lot and has things to distract me and help me cope. I learned most of the skills in the box at my program. I need to make a coping box for school.
I'm fading. Fuck, I'm such a melodramatic FUCK UP.
maybe some of this is because it's J's 15th birthday. And I don't like thinking about him.

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Gerard

Happy birthday Gerard!
Lots of love from the MCRmy, good luck with everything!
xoxo
-Z

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Gerard

Happy birthday Gerard!
Lots of love from the MCRmy, good luck with everything!
xoxo
-Z

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Goodbyes are hard

Hey guys,
So I go To WAGLY (Western Suburban Alliance of Gay and Lesbian youth) and have for about 3 years. WAGLY is my home.
For a while now, we've had an intern, Hayden. He's a senior in college and he also likes MCR and is not cis, like me. It's really nice to have someone I can relate to.
Last night I found out that he's leaving at the end of the month. It was really hard for me to hear. So, I talked to Marie (the adult advisor). More of cried to her, I hate crying in front of people and I hadn't cried in forever but I couldn't help it. Marie told me that we'll be able to talk on FaceBook and email, but I'm still scared. I'm really going to miss him...
xoxo
- Z

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Resurected

I would like to thank straightjacket for saving me, I was very very sad and in a matter of MINETS she cheered me up. I can't thank her enough, so everyone try to disregard that last dying post for now, and send straightjacket nice messages because she's my hero <3<3<3
xoxo
- Z

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Dying

I feel deflated. I'm dying. There's so much that I want to say, but I don't wanna make anyone hurt like this. Fuck. I'm such a melodramatic basket case. I don't want to be here in school, I can't be in school, not now. it's 1:13 still have an hour and 5 mins fuck I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be me fuck it fuck it fuck it.
xoxo
-Z

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Snapchat

Hey guys, my snapchat is chamaemae
hit me up, i love snppin people! Ask Broken Up and Killjoys Never Die, I send good snaps
xoxox
-Z

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hagrid and his dog