Hey my dudes!
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. There's been school and college apps. Thought I'd give some updates on what's going on.
I think I'm getting discharged from the eating disorder clinic today or tomorrow! it's been 10 months of treatment and I'm really proud that, even though I'm still struggling, I've made it this far.
I didn't get accepted to Mass Art :/ I applied to a lot of other schools but that was my first choice. I also applied to framingham state, curry, lesley, Massachusetts college of liberal arts, university of northern iowa, and upper iowa university.
Hey my dudes!
I HAVENT BEEN HERE IN FOREVER
a lot has been going on, Ill update you when i'm not in english class. :P
back at school - out of partial. eating lunch
i fucking hate lunch
i feel like im gonna cry i cant do it i cant i cant i cant
i have grapes and a sparkling blood orange drink and a chicken sandwich and a bananna and i dont think i can do all of it so I'll end up back in partial and wont graduate so i cant go to college
we're doing a puzzle of 60s rock and it's a really good puzzle 1000 pieces wish me luck!
Also if I'm able to eat 100% today and tomorrow, I get to go on pass tomorrow! that means I go home for about four hours, try a meal, hang out, then come back to program. I'll probably be here until some time next week. I'm supposed to be here for longer but insurance won't cover longer than next week.I love insurance for covering what they do cover but I wish they'd cover my full stay. the plan was for me to be here until I reach a pound over my healthy weight.
so on club penguin theres a group of users called the pookies. pookies are normal penguins who are yellow, hang out at the pet shop and pretend to be babies.
and they inspired me
what if everyone who comes on this site makes a Club Penguin and we make an emo group on there like the pookies, but cool!
friend me on CP, i'm emolordmcr cause we'll make this work.
I'm at resi. again. third time in resi. But whatever. I knew I'd end up here, I was doing so bad. As of today, I;ve been here for a week.
Applying to art schools now. It's the first thing that's ever gotten me excited for college, the potential of doing art for life. So I'll go with it :)
I can't blog much right now, because the program's desktop computer is broken :( but I can blog from my personal computer during the two hour school block if I finish all my work.
My parents and I have made a deal. If I eat ALL my food for a whole day, I earn prizes. These prizes include:
TW: Eating Disorder, possible hospitalizations
I've been offline for a while now! sorry about that. things have just been pretty crazy over here....
I mentioned getting a job in my last blog, at the farm. I had to quit last weekend. It was took me two hours to eat breakfast. My disorder is controlling my life...
Met with my clinician. He said I've lost weight this week and if I don't start gaining by Friday, I'm going inpatient to Alcott. That's where they tube you if you don't finish meals.
Sweet Meadow Farm hired me! I have work tomorrow and Sunday from 8:30-2. Gonna clean the coops and help with the shop. Glad to get some income and be doing something fun like a farm :)
Took some pictures for my art school portfolio. have 8 pictures that are going into the portfolio and I need 15-25. I still have until December 1st, taking more pics at school on tuesday.
getting some of my tatt colored in on monday!
It's 5:36 am. I'm supposed to be getting up at 6 or 6:20 but can't sleep cause I'm so nervous. I have to leave at 7 am, to get to school at 7:45 am to sit the test for 6 hours.
For those of you out of the USA and don't know what the SAT's are, they're a HUGE test. SAT stands for Scholastic Aptitude Test, it's basically the test colleges use to judge you on weather or not they want you in their school. I'm looking at art school, for the most part, and for my top choice (Mass Art) the SAT is optional.