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Fuck me this is gonna be sweet xD

The shadows dividing yesterdays fell down upon today,
from happiness to sadness, against each they do betray.
Borrowed free will, low on spirit isn’t enough to take me through,
careless past was dancing in freedom if only today was too.
Ever reaching for a childhood I hold on so damn tight
to the hopes that wrapped up those fears and got me through the night.
But there’s nothing left to reach for just a stilted grown up reaction,
where multiple masks conceal the facts so I lose myself in that distraction.
Too many rhymes to purge the pain and maybe set disenchantment free,
to arrive today, sight still blurred but not buried by debris.
Remembering simple illusions bonded with post traumatic stress,
provoked contradictory reactions when untangling the mess.
To rewind the clock and polish the dust wont take me to contentment,
just cut me open and deepen the wounds then bring me more resentment!
Decaying memories, twisted by time still pray on any random second,

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've never known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known

Today - Smashing Pumpkins

The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But at every gust more dead leaves fall,.
And the day is dark and dreary.

My life is cold and dark and dreary.
It rains and the wind is never weary.
My thoughts still cling to the mouldering past.
And youth's fond hopes fall thick in the blast.
And my life is dark and dreary.

Be still, sad heart and cease repining
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining
Thy fate is the common fate of all
Into each life some rain must fall
Some days must be dark and dreary.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

I knew a simple soldier boy
Who grinned at life in empty joy,
Slept soundly through the lonesome dark,
And whistled early with the lark.

In winter trenches, cowed and glum,
With crumps and lice and lack of rum,
He put a bullet through his brain.
No one spoke of him again.

You smug-faced crowds with kindling eye
Who cheer when soldier lads march by
Sneak home and pray you'll never know
The hell where youth and laughter go.

Siegfried Sassoon

1917

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You say you don't like my kind
A better picture in your mind
No, it don't matter what I say
I hear you bitchin' when I walk away
I'll never be what you want me to be
You tell me I'm wrong but I disagree
I aint got no apology
Just because I don't look like you
Talk like you, think like you
Judge and jury, a hangman's noose
I see them in your eyes

Good guys don't always wear white
Good guys don't always wear white

You judge a man who don't stand in line
Just because he aint on your side
You know the man who wear those shoes?
If you cut me don't I bleed like you? You know I do

I don't know what you've been told
Cant buy guts with a pot o' gold
A rich mans poor if he got no soul
Rich man, poor man, beggar man king
All that shit don't mean a thing
Do you know which one's behind those eyes?
It's all a disguise just go away

Good guys don't always wear white
Good guys don't always wear white
Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah

Hey baby, whose side you on?

Yes...I am now three decades old...

Its Chrismas time, there’s no need to be afraid
Your days will be merry and rounded off by slade
You’ll be sober under the mistletoe when a beauty comes to life
Or your back will be full of holes created by my knife
I trust your heart completely, I doubt you’ll do me wrong
Cause I’d hold you down on the floor and choke you with my thong
I know you love me dearly and that I do return
If not I’ll set fire to your house and watch you slowly burn
Yes, Santa brought you pressies he brightened up your day
If you dump me I’ll spread it round that you my dear are gay
You know I’m only joking cause you’re my dearest love
Your heart is kind your soul warm, you did fall from above
I hope you have a brilliant day and your beer is nice and cold
Your turkey is fresh, potatoes hot, Brussels don’t taste too old
So have a happy Chrismas may the memories never fade
So what its only Chrismas, there’s no need to be afraid…

My perception’s honest,
As instantly you appear,
In this forgotten memory,
Time’s not wasted on fear,
Embrace is still too early,
Yet to hug is far too late,
For if time has taught me wisely,
I know it will never wait,
Regrets seem obsolete,
When I see your face,
So many wasted hours,
Just to find this place,
Your eyes are tired of worry,
And your face lets wrinkles leave,
There’s no meaning to this chance,
Even now nothing to achieve,
Acceptance is too gentle,
Relief is far too strong,
Just somewhere in the middle,
Is right where we belong,
Its a welcome palpitation,
That’s gone before you know,
Seconds stand like hours,
With not a thing to show,
A touch could spark a heartbeat,
Bring life back to this soul,
If I had one to begin with,
You could definitely fill this hole,
But unconditional became conditional,
Too many echoes to excuse,
Yet to judge you on that is past love,
So old friend I must refuse,
The odds of meeting you here,

It doesn't matter if you support the war, a war, the wars, it doesn't matter if you don't, what matters is that you remember the men and women out there that have lost their lives fighting to defend the rights and freedoms that most take so blatantly for granted. Remember those who are risking their lives daily to keep the world 'free' for the millions in it. We all have opinions about the choices made by our governments but don't blame the men and women who were/are out there on the front line doing a job, they are people at the end of the day just like you and me. If it hadn't been for the world wars that we have seen come and go, the world would not be as it is now no matter what you think about it love it or loathe it, the world would be a completely different place to what you see now. All I ask is that you remember the people...the fallen, the wounded, the retired, the active...your cousin, your brother, your grandfather, your great grandfather, your sister...those that fight to live another day.

Remember where you came from and who got you there!

M.I.A Avenged Sevenfold

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight, on tonight.

Stand up and fight

The fighting rages on and on, to challenge me you must be strong.
I walk your land but don't belong, two million soldiers can't be wrong

It's no fun but I've been here before
I'm far from home and I'm fighting your war.
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared others killing for fun, I shot a mother right in front of her son.
(Take this from my consciousness, and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to God that our side is right.
Even though we won, I still may lose
Until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears,
grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories won't let you cry,