Ok, read the below link before going on. Very short read.
Ok, now that this has been read, I would love to know why the hell the thought of something that seemed like it was so much to him is now sounding like enhh. He makes it sound like it was just something to kill the time, not something that was what made me flush pills, throw away knifes, and keep my belt around my waist and not my neck!!! TO SAY THEY SAVED MY LIFE IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT DAM IT!