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Almost Easy

Today went... badly to say the least. I'm tired and sore and next week the schedule's all fucked up at school and... ugh. I'm tired. Tired of school. Tired of the kids who think they're better than me. Tired of pretending that they're stares don't burn, that they're words don't make me want to crawl into a hole and die. But I'm going to continue to bottle it all up and pretend everything's fucking okay. That I'm o-fucking-kay. That as I'm writing this, I don't want to jump into the river, I don't want to cry my eyes out, because what else can I do? I can't tell my mother. I tried once. She got really pissed, and didn't believe me. I never tried again after that, because the same thing's going to happen. I can't tell my teachers, because in Choir, we're all girls. Rivalry is expected. Being picked on doesn't mean a goddamn thing to them. And in Marine Biology, my teacher doesn't see it happen. I have no evidence. Besides, I only just turned 14 last month.

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Welcome to the Black Parade

Today was okay... then terrible... then okay again... and now it's back to terrible, mixed with a little bit of I'm-so-fucking-tired-that-I-don't-really-care-anymore. First period was okay. In choir, some bitch kept trying to mess with me. In third period, I might have made a friend, not sure. In fourth, we had team projects and I was left out.. as usual.
So yeah. In other news, though I'm making my own poetry book, called The Black Parade Marches On...
So... I was wondering if you guys would like if I posted them, a poem each day... Would you like that? Let me know.

-Chemical_Insanity

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Welcome to the Black Parade

Today was okay... then terrible... then okay again... and now it's back to terrible, mixed with a little bit of I'm-so-fucking-tired-that-I-don't-really-care-anymore. First period was okay. In choir, some bitch kept trying to mess with me. In third period, I might have made a friend, not sure. In fourth, we had team projects and I was left out.. as usual.
So yeah. In other news, though I'm making my own poetry book, called The Black Parade Marches On...
So... I was wondering if you guys would like if I posted them, a poem each day... Would you like that? Let me know.

-Chemical_Insanity

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1985

I've become obsessed with Bowling For Soup. Their music's really fucking cool. I'm currently listening to 1985 while I type this up haha. I love High School Never Ends. And Punk Rock 101. It's the first song I ever heard by them.
Rock on, Killjoys and Black Paraders.

-Chemical_Insanity

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MCRmy, this one's for you

"MCRmy"

This one goes out to all you dejects
All you forgotten souls
All you lost toys on your isle
The misfits that don't belong
Or so it seems
Seeing life through greying eyes.

This one's for the ones that feel alone
Rejected by society
I know how you feel,
Unwanted by the masses
Misery making your
Platinum boots heavy
Hoping to see a light

You are not alone
I can't say this enough,
So I say it a lot,
Wishing you'd realize it

You wish the world would disappear
But my dear,
It's what's keeping you alive
Now take my hand and breathe, my sweet
Everything's going to be alright.

This on's for the ones who feel alone
Because trust me, you aren't

Now raise your fists and repeat after me:
"I am strong!
I am beautiful!
And no matter what anybody tells me,
I'm nobody's fool!
I won't stand for anyone's bullshit,
It's bullshit, after all"
And as I stand in line with you,
I promise,
I won't let you fall.

-Chemical_Insanity

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Random title here

I have a present for all of you
You'll have to wait until it's done
But until I can get it up on here,
Here's poem number 1

Haha see what I did there? Anyway, in all seriousness, I'm making a present for all of you. I should have it up tonight. But until then, enjoy the poem I left and the one I'm about to leave.

"K.I.L.L.J.O.Y.S"

K is for Krazy
I for Intuitive
La la
La la
Joyful fun
Only the best,
You better run
Swiftly we come.

-Chemical Insanity

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Random title here

I have a present for all of you
You'll have to wait until it's done
But until I can get it up on here,
Here's poem number 1

Haha see what I did there? Anyway, in all seriousness, I'm making a present for all of you. I should have it up tonight. But until then, enjoy the poem I left and the one I'm about to leave.

"K.I.L.L.J.O.Y.S"

K is for Krazy
I for Intuitive
La la
La la
Joyful fun
Only the best,
You better run
Swiftly we come.

-Chemical Insanity

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Wow I'm so stupid

I can't believe that I didn't know that my school allows this site. I thought they didn't, cause they block a lot of stuff. Who knew? Haha. Anyway, hello from school. I'll tell you about my day later.
Rock on, MCRmy
-Chemical_Insanity

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Beast and the Harlot

Today is going to suck. I already know it is. In yoga, we'll end up twisting so much that it hurts instead of helps. In choir, I'll nave to stand right next to Antichrist Angel, which is going to be really awkward because we're still not talking. At lunch I'll end up sitting alone. In Marine Biology, everybody's going to keep messing with me and making me want to cry.
On the bright side, Digi-com is a fun class, so at least that'll be good. That, and I think Acid Shock and I are on good terms again... not sure yet. I'll find out today.
Well, have a good day, Killjoys. Keep running.

-Chemical_Insanity

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Helena (So Long and Good Night)

Today turned out alright, I guess. I cooled down and read a lot. I need to keep writing my story, though... Played some more on my guitar, Shadow. Figured out how to convert Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge from m4a to mp3. Unfortunately, there's something wrong with the Hang Em High file. I'll probably have to buy that one. But other than that, been listening to TCfSR and Black Veil Brides's latest album, Wretched and Divine: The Story of the Wild Ones. Two of my most favorite albums. I love Andy's deep voice, and I miss Gerard's voice he had in Three Cheers. I still love it, I just think I liked it the best in Three Cheers.