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Well this is possibly the worst day of my life

I fucking hate Valentines Day. It fucking sucks, I hate it. I didn't get any valentines, but then again no one really likes me... But that wasn't the worst part... To start, my brothers are assholes. Then I get to school ana Antichrist Angel starts freaking out cause we ALL really hate this holiday. First period went okay. Second period went okay. And then I get to lunch. This is where a GIANT compilation of bad shit happens. First, I bring Top Ramen to school every day to eat. Every day I put it in a styrofoam bowl, go out to the school store, get hot water, and eat it. Well I get to the hot water thing and I burn my hand and spill my lunch. There was literally nothing that I could eat. So then I flip a shit and instead of helping me, my friends tell me to calm down. At this point, I've been having a shitty day, that's kind of hard to do. So I go outside, on the verge of bursting into tears and having a mental breakdown.

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Well son of a flying monkey

My birthday's in five days, and I was supposed to have a party in two days. Key word, supposed. On Monday, my best friend Antichrist Angel told me that she wouldn't make it because her sister's coming back from college. Which means three other people might show up, which I was okay with.
And then today, I'm told by my best friend Silver Rose that she most likely won't be able to make it either. And then I realised that Acid Shock would be going to her mom's most likely, meaning she couldn't come either, and in turn means only ONE person would make it to my party, and she isn't sure if she can go.... Which means I'll probably end up celebrating my birthday all alone. If that happens, I swear I'm going to lock myself in my room and not come out until Tuesday morning for school.

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Well son of a flying monkey

My birthday's in five days, and I was supposed to have a party in two days. Key word, supposed. On Monday, my best friend Antichrist Angel told me that she wouldn't make it because her sister's coming back from college. Which means three other people might show up, which I was okay with.
And then today, I'm told by my best friend Silver Rose that she most likely won't be able to make it either. And then I realised that Acid Shock would be going to her mom's most likely, meaning she couldn't come either, and in turn means only ONE person would make it to my party, and she isn't sure if she can go.... Which means I'll probably end up celebrating my birthday all alone. If that happens, I swear I'm going to lock myself in my room and not come out until Tuesday morning for school.

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Well son of a flying monkey

My birthday's in five days, and I was supposed to have a party in two days. Key word, supposed. On Monday, my best friend Antichrist Angel told me that she wouldn't make it because her sister's coming back from college. Which means three other people might show up, which I was okay with.
And then today, I'm told by my best friend Silver Rose that she most likely won't be able to make it either. And then I realised that Acid Shock would be going to her mom's most likely, meaning she couldn't come either, and in turn means only ONE person would make it to my party, and she isn't sure if she can go.... Which means I'll probably end up celebrating my birthday all alone. If that happens, I swear I'm going to lock myself in my room and not come out until Tuesday morning for school.

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I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love

I'm not gonna bitch about how Valentine's Day sucks, or how I hate love, or any of that shit. Enough people do that for me, best friends included. I'm kind of gonna do the opposite, minus the whole 'Oh Valentine's Day is AMAZING I love it SOO much!' bleh.
I saw someone do this in a movie called Practical Magic. I love that movie. Anyway, at the beginning, this girl writes down all the qualities that she wants in a guy. Granted she was a little girl and a witch, no less, but I figured it'd be fun to do, just for the hell of it.
So, without further ado, I'll begin.

Things I want in a guy:
-He has to be sweet.
-He has to be caring.
-He has to like tattoos (and maybe get one with me?)
-He has to not care who or what I am
-It would be nice if his hair was black (I had a dream concerning a black haired boy, don't ask)
-It would be nice if he able to speak his mind
-He should be honest
-He has to make me happy (obviously)

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Knives and Pens

Andy Biersack wrote a song about how he'd been bullied when he was younger. That song was called Knives and Pens. I have done further research on him, his band (Black Veil Brides), and the song itself, and I got a bit more of a picture on the song, as well as the band itself.
The song is basically about Knives (destruction) and Pens (creation). You can chose to destroy yourself and others (knives), or you can take all the negative emotions and make something with them (pens). I personally have never harmed myself. Not on purpose, anyway. There was one time when I cut myself with a razor on the chest but I had no clue what the hell it was at the time and I was a little girl and I was stupid. Other than that, I haven't hurt myself. There are times when I've thought about it, and I almost scratched my wrist until it bled once, but I never actually have.

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Sweet Blasphemy

Oh how I LOVE my choir class... (notice the sarcasm). Today our teacher wasn't here and neither was the pianist and there's a student-teacher at our school right now and she's okay but... So we are learning this one song, Musica Dei Donum Optimi, and it's all in latin and it's hard. I'm in the Second Soprano group and we have a First Soprano, Second Soprano, and Alto group in our choir. So the Altos and the Second Sopranos were sent to the practice rooms to learn new shit and we hardly got anything done. And the girl who is supposedly the 'section leader' of our group is a bitch. I don't like her. She doesn't help everyone out, and she only gets opinions from her friends, which are, like her, popular.

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You. Cannot. Destroy. Me!

I had a boyfriend, and we broke up a while ago. Long story short, he was a die-hard christian and I'm somewhere between athiest, agnostic, and Wiccan. He fucking HATES that. We got into a fight about fucking pentagrams. I didn't hear from him after that.
So today I'm checking my messages and I have some from him. It basically sums up to: "I can't believe you lied to me during our relationship. Had I known from the start we would've never been together. My family and I are exorcists and we've seen what you're religion has done to people. All of them had demons in them because of this. I just want you to know that all religions have a blessing and a curse."
...Yeah. That's almost exactly what he said.

1. Hate to break it to you, motherfucker, but you knew what I was from the very beginning. At first you said we wouldn't work out. And then suddenly you ask me out? What the fuck was I to think?

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My poor ferret

Looks like love isnt the only problem in my life. You see, I have a ferret, Myst, and she's fucking ancient. We don't know how old she is, but she should've died a long time ago. The problem is that she hasn't, and the poor girl is suffering. I can't fucking look at her without wanting to cry because she looks so awful... She's a sweetheart, though. She always has. But as mean as this sounds, she needs to give up and finally die. I don't like watching her suffer. And in some parts of my warped and fucked up mind, she's already dead. I just.... I wish we could put her out of her misery. She's fucking skinny, she wobbles when she walks, and I'm almost certain she's fucking blind. She... needs to die. She needs to stop suffering. Because when she finally dies she can be with Jimmy and Elena and my dead pets...
I don't like watching her suffer :'(

-Chemical_Insanity

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*sigh*

My best friend is the most amazing person ever. My best friend is someone I trust entirely.
...My best friend is also unfortunately the one I have a crush on... Which sucks because she likes this one guy. She likes him and she's having trouble with that and I hate to see her like she is (miserable).
I wish I was a guy... because then maybe she'd like me. It's so sad because I've fallen in love with her... and I can't tell her because she is head-over-heels (or in our case, combat boots) for someone else. She can't talk with me about him cause she knows that it hurts me and I feel so bad...
I've fallen in love with my best friend... and I don't know what to do because she'll never... ever like me back like that. The sad part is that I've loved her for MONTHS and I've TRIED getting over her and... I can't. I can't and I feel like a failure of a best friend because I can never tell her I love her like that, nor will I ever hear her tell me that...