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New Day.

i want to try doing one blog a day, even though half the time, i never have the ambition since i keep feeling like shit each day. im trying my hardest to pick myself up all the time and since going clean... its been kinda hard..
got my 30STM pendant a couple of weeks ago, havent stopped wearing it, makes me feel better.
Also got a new Green Day shirt, which was money well spent.
the weirdest thing so far, is that ive become an addict to pepsi :L im gong through 2 litres a day and apparently its unhealthy, but its keeping me sane :P
thinking of plucking up the courage to go round her house tomorrow..
wish me luck.
probably wont do one tomorrow, but I'll let you guys know how it went. well on thursday... seems so far away..
Avenged Sevefolds aalbum is coming out next week! really excited for it :D
brynly out for today..

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weird...

been thinking about the girl i met the other week..
its stupid, i really shouldnt.
im pretty sure she's taken :/
but to find someone decent, its a big step..
that had to be one of the best days in a long time since ive hit depression again, she made me smile so much (god this is disgustingly soppy)
part of me wants to see her agan, just one more time to say 'hi' at least..
should i? would that be weird if i did that? seems stalkerish..
on another note, ive startd a new course, and its going good, the people here are really friendly, i hope it goes quick though, dont like things that take forever...
brynly out...

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Becoming Lost.

i cant concentrate anymore.
im taking 3 courses at once, and im having trouble with them all.
maths is the top one that i cant seem to remember any of, none of it sinks in, and im being given continuous assignments and such short time to do them.
someoen asked me what it would be like if Green day were split up, it didnt go down well since theyre the ones keeping me going right now.
I've been re-listening to 30STM as well recently and have begun to notice how good they really are, and their latest album really isnt that bad... lot of feeling in it.
oh and the Do or Die video is my favourite band video now, its beautiful.
next to ADTR's All I Want, so many cameos :3
i met someone recently too. dont know if i'll see her again, but it turned out, her favourite band is MCR too, so we ended up never leaving each others side for the day. she was perfect.
cut a lot of contact with people, havent felt like being in society.

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Back Again.

not that anyone notices on here.
felt like crying last night.
tried to hold it all in, it hurt. my phone didnt help me, it seems to know how i feel all the time and it chose to play sad songs.
i texted a couple of people i know who i wanted to talk to about it, didnt hear back.
ive started a new course, but ive now ended up enrolling myself in 3 courses at once, and its kinda overwhelming me.
my sleeping problems arent helping me with having to get up in the morning.
feel alone.
the worst thing is, i have a friend whos pretty close to me, whos dying, and he knows he probably wont make the rest of next year.. i cant face it. cant deal with it.
not with everything else on my list.
cant do this anymore...

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I DID IT!

finally :L
im kinda cheerful today :3
i passed my final exam for IT Level 2, 100%..
swear this brain in capable of anything, well, more than i thought :P
its over now though. course done! woohoo.
its also my sisters birthday today as well, shes 18 and shes way too excited xD
think thats about it for today, havent got much else..
but i did it :L
brynly out.
xx

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'Friend'...Fucking Define It.

only a couple of people seem to do this every week or so, find it fucking annoying.
they call up and act liek they havent heard from me in ages, or as others say it: i havent seen you in time. but theyre not actually there to check up on you, they follow it up with 'do you mind if i ask a favour?' yeah... i knew you werent really calling to see how i was, kinda just thinking of erasing my number from existance. do any of you guys get this crap as well?

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'Friend'...Fucking Define It.

only a couple of people seem to do this every week or so, find it fucking annoying.
they call up and act liek they havent heard from me in ages, or as others say it: i havent seen you in time. but theyre not actually there to check up on you, they follow it up with 'do you mind if i ask a favour?' yeah... i knew you werent really calling to see how i was, kinda just thinking of erasing my number from existance. do any of you guys get this crap as well?

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'Friend'...Fucking Define It.

only a couple of people seem to do this every week or so, find it fucking annoying.
they call up and act liek they havent heard from me in ages, or as others say it: i havent seen you in time. but theyre not actually there to check up on you, they follow it up with 'do you mind if i ask a favour?' yeah... i knew you werent really calling to see how i was, kinda just thinking of erasing my number from existance. do any of you guys get this crap as well?

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mistake or the right thing?

my friend came down to bournemouth a month ago, i hadnt seen her in like 4 months, and she is a really good friend to me. originally she had planned to stay for two weeks, but its good that she's been here longer :3 im gunna get to the point, she stayed over a couple of nights ago, and needless to say, something just hit us both and, yeah, im sure you can all tell what happened next, but i didnt really realise about what it was until later on the next day.. was it just an accident? a mistake? was it soemthing else? we made a pact to keep it between us both and never tell anyone, luckily she doesnt come on here, but i need advice. she's aslo moved in for the week as shes going home next tuesday, but it feels weird to me, im not used to having company as my room is my own space and sanctuary where i like to be left alone, and now shes in my room, its like an invasion, yet kinda nice to have a friend whos willing to stay over..

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GIRLS HELP!

at college atm, and i made a friend called tom, and his girlfriends birthday is coming up at the end of august and he has no idea what to get her, apparently jewellery and clothes are a no because us men cant do anything right, so what kind of things are girls into?