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Hey guys it's me and I'm Not Insane may or may not be reaching it's end. I have had to keep writing it in secret because of some issues at home and it is not getting any easier to find time. If you have any ideas for me to build on or suggestions for plot please comment. If you want me to keep writing this particular story then I will but if you don't then I don't really see the point of going on with this story line. If you have suggestions for excuses to get away from my parents even though they are trying to get me to be more social I would be very appreciative.
Thanks
-screaming angel-

Some people are leaving the MCRmy because they aren't the same anymore. I am not saying that they are the same but I think that they are still the same beautiful people who brought me out of my corner of the world. MCR has surely evolved their sound and their lyrical content but we all change and I love this side of them. The message is still the same one that has saved so many lives and caused so much love to happen in this world. Of course there are people who hate them because of their music, their look, or their audience but who cares? Whenever there is something that someone loves and they want to share it with others there will always be someone who hates what they love. It's sad but there it is. So keep on hating for all I care. I love MCR with all my heart and I love everything about them. They brought me here and I will support them to the end.

"It’s them isn’t it?” Mikey looked around confusedly. “God damn it! Why does he get to see shit!? Normally that’s me! What is happening Gee?” Bob put his hands on Mikey’s shoulders. “Calm, Mikes.” Ray just shook his head. Savanna’s parents were once more before her but it was not at them that she stared. “Y…You see them too?” Gerard tore his eyes away from the two figures and looked straight at her. Damn that was weird. “I guess when I walked through you it let me…that or I’m even more insane than my doc realizes. “ Frankie snickered a little but Bob cuffed his ear. Ray laughed at Frankie’s hurt expression and Frankie just stuck out his tongue at him. Mikey’s voice cut through the banter. “Why don’t we all walk through you?” Sav’s eyes were once again on her parents but her voice quavered as she said, “It…it hurts you…you remember what happened to your brother." Mikey looked seriously at the spot where he perceived her voice coming from. “I just need to see you face.

They were obviously both guys and they were not cooperating at all. Frankie giggled. They all turned to look at him. “Remind you of someone?” Savanna’s white cheeks would have flushed if they could have. They filed into the room and peeked out the window as the security tried to get the two stubborn bodies to move. One was blonde and his set mouth was edged in the slightest bit of stubble. The other had brown hair and was grimacing. Savanna saw him and understood exactly what was going on inside him. She understood the struggle to convince yourself that it was all a mistake. That you were sane no matter what anyone told you. Soon enough the struggle would climax to self-doubt and then your mind would become convinced that everyone was using you for some kind of sick game where you were but a game piece. The tall blonde disappeared into the examination room but the other stayed outside it with the staff.

Ok so I know that a lot of people have never read "I'm Not Insane" which is a fan story I have written but I would love to invite anyone out there that feels inclined to be creative to read it and pick your favorite scene. After you have your scene draw what that scene looks like to you and post it. Send me a message that says you have drawn one, what you have titled it, and that it's on your blog and I will go see it or possibly steal it. (teehee, if this is the case I will credit you on my blog) You do not have to be an extremely good artist to do this at all! If enough people respond to this I will pick the one that I like most (which will be hard) and then save that as my profile pic. If there happens to be a tie then I will alternate. Thanks for your support!

p.s. For those of you that have already read
some of it there will be more up incredibly
soon. Sorry for the delay.
-screaming angel-

Hey guys! I know these past chapters I've posted may seem totally weird to you if you haven't read the others so please do. They are all on my blog from chapter 1 to chapter 23 and there should be more coming soon. AND I REALLY MEAN IT THIS TIME! I promise I won't let it be months before the next chapter is up. (hopefully). If I am going to disappear I promise that I will let you know. Get reading!
-screaming angel

He walked towards her and stopped in front of her. Frankie started forward but Gerard stretched out a hand to stop him one he had reached Gee’s side. “Don’t take another step.” He warned. Bob was confused. “Man what the fuck is going on here?” Sav was suddenly bold she walked carefully past Gerard and Frank. She passed Ray and Mikey and stood before Bob. Gerard’s gleaming eyes followed her. “Don’t move Bob…don’t move. “ Bob looked at him with a slightly scared air but he didn’t move. “Can’t you see me?” The voice echoed in the long passageway and everyone but Gee started and looked around. A single tear fell to the ground from his eye. “Can’t you feel me?” Savanna’s right hand cupped Bob’s face and he gasped. Tears pooled in his eyes and a smile spanned his face. His hand carefully touched the cold place on his face where Sav’s hand just was. The feeling was remarkable and he laughed as two sets of tears fell. The cold on his skin was icy yet it buzzed with energy and static.

They were carrying a bed and they set it where Mikey’s used to be, right by the window. They went back out the door and when they entered again they brought another bed and put it where Savanna used to sleep. “They are going to let patients be in here again …” Sav quickly moved toward the door and stuck her hand out into the hall. It didn’t burn as it used to. She inched every part of her body out of the door before she finally relaxed. “I’M OUT!” She yelled. The nurse down the hall jumped and turned toward her. Savanna froze. Had the nurse been able to hear her?” Her hopes were confirmed when the nurse began moving in her direction. “Hello?” Sav smiled so wide she thought it would fall off her face. Her ghostly cheeks were flushed by the discovery of communication. She turned to follow the nurse but her cheeks turned back to white and her “body” began to shiver. There they were. Right before her. Savanna’s mother stood behind her father.

He had drawn in Sav’s lip ring and written her name on the edge of the page. The smiles only grew as they went on through those bloody, bloody, pages. Frankie fucking beamed when they came to his shadowed picture. They lingered on this particular detail looking from the page to the real thing and back again just as they had when they had first seen it. Gerard hadn’t dared look past his own eye when he opened the notebook before. Now Bob grasped his shoulder as if her knew what Gee was feeling and he suddenly felt empowered. The next page was of Mikey’s glasses and her own face reflected in them. Gee looked into his brother’s face and saw his own in his shiny glasses the same way Savanna had. He saw why she had wanted to draw it. They looked at the page and specifically at Sav’s face but Mikey looked past the glasses and saw his own eyes just as Gerard had seen his. The pages following were all of them. Some were of just one of them.

His once invisible fingers were drenched with her blood and he shoved them into her open mouth. That is why she had tasted blood as she slowly drifted away just as before… And then she was back to now. With the hole in her chest and the pressure still on her throat. It felt as if her father’s fingers were still grasping the pale neck that used to belong to her. The only difference from her now and the way she was when she died was that in death she couldn’t stop moving, writhing, struggling to get free in spite of herself. Now she was weak and limp and couldn’t move anything except her eyes. She found she didn’t need to blink or breath. She looked as much as she could while still being unable to move but couldn’t see anyone … except herself. Ray, Bob, Frank, Mikey, and Gerard sat in silence in the common room. No one sat in “Sav’s corner” as it had been dubbed. Gerard still carried the bloody notebook with him after being assured by his doctor and the staff that it was ok.