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School starts tomorrow and I'm not done with homework or even have all my school supplies! I still need to get the new vans I want for school... Sigh...

None of my friends have my lunch period... No one. Just like last year. I don't know if I can do this again. Last year was awful. I sat alone for the whole first semester and got bullied until I almost couldn't take it anymore. How's that for a trigger? I don't wanna do this again. Last time, it was so bad... Lets just say it was bad.

It makes me so nervous, I can't even eat, let alone do the schoolwork I need to do. Sigh, I'm gonna go attempt to finish reading Young Goodman Brown... D':

School starts tomorrow and I'm not done with homework or even have all my school supplies! I still need to get the new vans I want for school... Sigh...

None of my friends have my lunch period... No one. Just like last year. I don't know if I can do this again. Last year was awful. I sat alone for the whole first semester and got bullied until I almost couldn't take it anymore. How's that for a trigger? I don't wanna do this again. Last time, it was so bad... Lets just say it was bad.

It makes me so nervous, I can't even eat, let alone do the schoolwork I need to do. Sigh, I'm gonna go attempt to finish reading Young Goodman Brown... D':

Just because I feel like it.

1. St. Jimmy by The American Idiot Cast (Does this mean I'm St Jimmy...? I'm a girl...)

2. Redundant by Green Day (Killing Zombies is quite redundant...)

3. Falling Inside the Black by Skillet (Not exactly running music, but what ever...)

4. Your Revolution Is a Joke by Funeral For A Friend (It's really accurate! especially the band)

5. Wake Up by Three Days Grace (This not relevant at all.)

6. (If You Want It) by Resilient K (I love this song)

7. The Ghost Of You bu MCR (I guess the person I killed earlier came back.)

8. 100 Suns by 30 Seconds To Mars

9. Famous Last Words by MCR (How sad... ): )

10. Macy's Day Parade (It's an odd credits song...)

Whoo! My list is bad ass!!

My gosh. This sucks. I finally have a reasonably good day, then all of a sudden, boom, bad day. Can't my family stay off each other's case for once?! I just really want my family to be happy. I don't care what happens to me, but I just can't deal with this drama!

I feel really bad because when my best friend called me today, I burst into spontaneous tears. Somethings wrong with that picture. I feel so bad, she was so confused. She had no clue what to do.
To make matters worse, I can't even help my friend, who is all the way down in Mexico. All I can do is try to help her with word, and it hurts to see her suffer so...

I'm sorry, I've been overloaded lately, and just need somewhere to rant...

OH MY GOD!! I just had the worlds weirdest, most amazing idea I've had for days!!! It's really strange, but I couldn't help it... Ready? Drum roll please....

A DANGER DAYS MUSICAL!!!!

Before you rip my eyes out just listen:
Green Day did it, and it was like the most amazing thing ever. So it could totally work! Tell me I'm not crazy. I have the story line figured out and everything! I have no idea who I'd want to cast, but I'd really really want to be in it.

I would change up the roles and names a bit, and rearrange some of the songs, but It still would be about the same thing, kinda... It could totally work!!

Someone tell me I'm not crazy....

NONE of my friends have the same lunch as me. Damn it.

This whole depression thing is getting old. I help out all my friends with their problems. Hell, I saved my friend's life like 3 times, or at least that's what she told me plus 10 other people... But I try my hardest to help everyone else out, because they mean so much to me. But when it comes to me, I have next to no one to talk to. Even I don't know what to do anymore. So I guess I'll just sit in my room and write as much poetry as I possibly can in half an hour. Today, I got up to three normal poems, and one really long ranting one about how I was feeling at the current time, which was not so good... Reading it now kinda scares me a bit...

The moral of this story is talk to someone when you think you're depressed. It will help. Now I just need to pluck up the courage... Maybe.

Whoo! I don't even know why I'm here exactly...
No matter, I'm sure I'll find out soon...

Since I really don't know how this works, I'll tell you what me and my friend did yesterday.
We made Team Ferard shirts. Yep, And they're absolutely wonderful.
Aren't they lovely??

Other than that, We had birthday cupcakes because they just had to celebrate my birthday...
Sigh, I have no idea what I'm doing...

Anyways, Thanks for reading!

Don't let them take you alive!!
XOXO