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so heres some stuff

Yeah i dyed my hair again! :D im also getting approval on gauges (not huge ones) :)
well i was messin around outside lol, if u look at the second picture.
but yeah, sooo this is my hair, im doing my whole head this color next time! CANT WAIT!

umm sorry i havent been on in a while if you follow my blogs and storys and all that. ive been busy with school and all that crap. depression almost got to me and i had to make sure i got a hold of that, but im okay :)

This friday is something huge in my school and im so excited!!!!!! its called SHMD or South High Marathon Dance. SHMD is this event held every March in my town. Students, grades 9-12, gather to raise money and dance for an amazing 28 hours straight, all in the name of local people and charities who need help.

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New Story: Where There's No Saints, Chapter 1

Feedback would be nice :) i dont mind if its "mean" I need the criticism to get better! :) so id greatly appreciate it if you could read, killjoys :)
Love, Ritalin Lithium
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Death Angel's P.O.V
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My eyes fly open to the sound of a big BOOM!

I groan and flip onto my back, staring at the ceiling, and push the blankets down to my knees. Time to wake up apparently.

I've been on the run ever since Bl/ind took over with my friends, well family, Madd Hatter, Stitched Heart, and Striped Bandit. When we were looking for a hide out, or home all we could find was a place next to a Killjoy Base that tests their artillery every single morning at 5:56 am. So that's when my day begins. Everyone else can usually sleep through it.

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I've got my fucking Ambulance :)

My Chemical Romance means so much to me... i dont know where I'd be without them.
Gerards fucking voice, Ray and Franks guitar, and Mikey's bass all together keeps me alive. They're beautiful to me, they're beyond inspirational and beyond moving or whatever.
I'm sure im not the only one who would not be here if it weren't for them.
I may have never seen a concert (sadly, but if theres a CW tour i probably am) and i may not have met them, but their stories and their music, just.. speaks to me i guess.
When I'm depressed, I listen to them, and i live and i become happy.
When I'm happy, I listen to them and become even happier.
When I'm mad, I listen to them.
Its nearly impossible to describe how much they mean to me, and how they've helped me.

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I think im getting sick

I totally jinxed myself, so this is all my fault xD My throat hurts, im shaking, my head hurts. Its great. It really is -_-
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Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay

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Ah, just a lil confused

So im gonna say i like this guy Alex. People tell me he likes me but im not sure. i dont know if he has feelings for his ex, or me, or both i dont know.

Tell me what you think?

Every day he pokes my sides and tickles me and i do it back to him, im always catching him watching me, he laughs at me when i mess something up, all the time he jokes saying im mean, he makes me late for classes making me walk him to his locker, he messes up my hair, hes taken stuff from me and i have to like fight him in the hall for it, each time we touch that movie thing does happen xD we both look at each other for like 3 minutes.

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Im not the only one right?

Im not the only one who thinks Ellen is beautiful and amazing right? xD

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quite confused

So im gonna say i like this guy Alex. People tell me he likes me but im not sure. i dont know if he has feelings for his ex, or me, or both i dont know.

Tell me what you think?

Every day he pokes my sides and tickles me and i do it back to him, im always catching him watching me, he laughs at me when i mess something up, all the time he jokes saying im mean, he makes me late for classes making me walk him to his locker, he messes up my hair, hes taken stuff from me and i have to like fight him in the hall for it, each time we touch that movie thing does happen xD we both look at each other for like 3 minutes.

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quite confused

So im gonna say i like this guy Alex. People tell me he likes me but im not sure. i dont know if he has feelings for his ex, or me, or both i dont know.

Tell me what you think?

Every day he pokes my sides and tickles me and i do it back to him, im always catching him watching me, he laughs at me when i mess something up, all the time he jokes saying im mean, he makes me late for classes making me walk him to his locker, he messes up my hair, hes taken stuff from me and i have to like fight him in the hall for it, each time we touch that movie thing does happen xD we both look at each other for like 3 minutes.

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*doesnt know what to title this*

So im really happy right now :)
Theres this guy (Alex) that i kinda pushed away a while back and I started talking to him again like 2 weeks ago.
Me and him have a history and stuff but, hey. Anyways im starting to like him again, and alot of people are saying he likes me. and we flirt ALOT too. like, so much the teachers are calling us out on it xD
Either way it makes me really happy that alex is looking past what Ive done to myself in the past, and that he just wants me to be myself and everything. he's said he's happy im getting help with the stuff.
But I need to be happy and im gonna let it happen.
its been a month or so since the fallout with the other guy(Mike), and i kinda feel bad. but mike really hurt me so i dont think i should feel bad. like i said, i deserve happiness.

just wanted to share :) I hope everyones days are good and if not, Im here, you can talk to me :)

~RitalinLithium~xx

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So this is happening

I am NOT doing this anymore. I stop today.
I threw out all my blades, and have no intention of buying new ones.
Ive been reading quotes, listening to music, and I finally reached out to a teacher and im realizing Im so much fucking better than this.
I dont think im going to write a long blog about this, but i just wanted to write a little.
Ive talked to some of you, about my depression and i thank you guys SOOO much for being there for me. Im not sure if i told u in depth of the self harm stuff but im not doing it anymore.
Ive found that strength that ive been needing, and im okay now. I can now say im Recovering, Im going to grow old and find love, im going to be clean. im not doing this anymore.

Nothing is worth hurting yourself over, like Gee says. No matter how shitty it is, you'll get through it.