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A Short Poem about someone special

Just A Look
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You look at me from across the room,
In my day full of gloom

My heart starts to race
Like we’re the only two in this place.

Our eyes keep lock
As the tock goes tick tock

Around us in slow motion
Everyone continues with their commotion

You smile and I smile
Heart racing miles

With just a look today
You took all the pain away

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Lost Friend

So today I found out that one of my best friends(or who i thought was my best friend), was talking about me behind my back :/ Called me a slut, whore, faggot, skank, STD infested... Cool. Thanks... and two of my other good friends (so i thought) agreed with her. Wtf?
I dont understand half of those names. Like why im being called those names... I dont "mess around" with tons of guys. The one who called me those names does and ive NEVER said anything like that to or about her. Like, i dont understand this at all?

And Im expected to "make a choice" tomorrow morning between my best guy friend since 7th (thought it was 6th) grade, who i admit i have some, very little, but some feelings for... or this guy who Ive like... fallen in love with.
Tomorrow morning is when im expected to chose. I shouldnt have to chose anyone. this is ridiculous.

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i dont even...

i dont really know what to blog about anymore.

my life isnt THAT interesting at the moment... just guy problems of course. stuck between two.

one will actually talk to me, we had a thing before but we broke up, started talking again. last week he kissed me and today he let me know he wants to have a secret relationship type thing. secret because he has a girlfriend... now this guy i cant live without, but i cant let him cheat on this girl. so -.-

then the other guy, we would talk everyday and i got lost in him, trusted him with my LIFE. everyone said its obvious he likes me... but when i started talking to the other guy again, he stopped talking to me and we just.... we're growing apart

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Its a bad dream

I.. okay. my thoughts on the break up are all messed up...
They have their reasons.. I feel love for every band member and i hope they're alright in the end..

But me.. and other killjoys and members of MCRmy, are devastated. i know what MCR was to me. I will never be able to truly say how much i love and cherish them. I dont know what to write for you guys. i really dont. my mind is in a fog and i cant see much because tears have been in my eyes ever since i found out... im hoping this isnt really the end. im hoping its just a bad dream.. a nightmare... one of the worst. I mean... a bunch of people related to MCR said "Excited for whats next for the boys" something like that... theres gotta be something else.... doesnt there?.... My chem wouldnt just leave us with a paragraph...

yes Gerard long tweeted, but thats not enough... it cant be. it wont be.. i feel like they may have something up their sleeves...

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Do you ever feel like...

do you ever feel like you're so numb, with emotional and mental hurt that you just cant move?
do you ever feel like you're never gonna be enough?
do you ever feel like your world is crashing?
do you ever feel like everything around you is your fault?
do you ever feel like because its your fault, you may as well not be here?
do you ever feel like crying, but you've already cried too much so you cant?
do you ever feel like... you dont know anything anymore?
do you ever feel like you wish you could be alone, but you're scared of what your thoughts would do to you?

hmm...

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advice maybe?

first off I dyed my hair purple last night. joy joy. lol... umm yeah. so i guess i like it!

well, im so very confused. of course there's 2 guys involved with confusion.

one, (not saying real names) , Ive liked him for a while. i feel i mightve already discussed this but he flirts with me all the time (i obviously send it back) and he cares about me. hes always wanting me to smile, calls me pretty, tells me to stop wearing makeup, to think better of myself stuff like that. and well,,, he makes me smile.. i can have the shittiest day but if he walks into the room, i feel better and smile.. i do think about him a lot too.

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a poem

Can anyone see the story behind it?
I dont know what to title it either.. lol
and yeah the picture.. i just like it alot :)
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I like tormenting you because you've let me be,
for days you havent touched me, but now we'll see.
I'll call your name and shine,
yes, i see that twinkle and want in your eyes.

You know you can trust me,
I've always been here for when you were in need.
Im sharp and soothing,
forget this happy go lucky movie.

Girl, warm me up with your skin,
no, dont throw me in that trash bin.
I know I start to succeed when up pick me up,
now let me feel that warm lucious blood.

You shiver when i touch you,
so slide and do what you want to.
I call your name loud when you hesitate,
Shh its not to late.

I start cooling again,
sweetie, we've got to remember the plan!
What are you doing? I dont belong there,
you're just scared!

I scream out to you,
but now you dont approve.
Try to silence me bitch, and you'll see,

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a poem

Can anyone see the story behind it?
I dont know what to title it either.. lol
and yeah the picture.. i just like it alot :)
~~~~~~
I like tormenting you because you've let me be,
for days you havent touched me, but now we'll see.
I'll call your name and shine,
yes, i see that twinkle and want in your eyes.

You know you can trust me,
I've always been here for when you were in need.
Im sharp and soothing,
forget this happy go lucky movie.

Girl, warm me up with your skin,
no, dont throw me in that trash bin.
I know I start to succeed when up pick me up,
now let me feel that warm lucious blood.

You shiver when i touch you,
so slide and do what you want to.
I call your name loud when you hesitate,
Shh its not to late.

I start cooling again,
sweetie, we've got to remember the plan!
What are you doing? I dont belong there,
you're just scared!

I scream out to you,
but now you dont approve.
Try to silence me bitch, and you'll see,

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My school dance,, we raised....

$489,716.27!!!!!!!!!!! for many people who needed money for charity we raised that much.

29 hours of dancing, alot of aching and pain, and crying, we all made it for the good. im so proud of me, my friends, my whole school. we beat and rocked the clock. had a great time though. bunch of people came to support the wonderful people who have survived caner, epilepsy, tumors, and more that we were raising money for.

had a great time.me and my friends ran around pumping everyone up around 3 am because people were loosing energy. i didnt sleep during the 2 hour sleeping break (probably shouldve) but i never gave up. never gave into the pressure of trying to sleep, and had a great time. :)

Im just so happy we made that much money for those recipients.. :)

~Ritalin Lithium~

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my schools spirit week

well, as i said in my last blog, its spirit week because we have this awesome 28-36 hour dance on friday :D

tuesday was tiedye day
and yesterday was neon day...

two of the most colorful days of the year xD i have a love.hate relationship with my school. full of pride, but hate most people there..

Todays matching shirt day, I might have a picture..

but tie dye from left to right, is my friend Briannah, Meghan, Megan (lol yeah), Adrianne, Me, then in front is my little buddy, Mayo (michael)

its great :) loveeed neon day though :)

~RitalinLithium~