blinks_execution's blog

you know the day that my chem split was also the day that i went to see jake bugg, which i think is the reason that the numbness didn't manage to settle this time.
i went with my dad which was nice because we rarely speak, though we speak more often than me and my mum who haven't really spoken since christmas.
but anyway i went with my dad who's the one who actually got me into music and we had a really nice convocation (weeeeeeeeeell i say convocation it was more that we went through our iPods sharing our favorite songs) and then we saw jake bugg and kinda stood there in awe of his guitar playing skills, we left again and dad was like, "weeeeeeeelll the next time i go to a gig like that i'll be there to watch you in your band"

i guess there's a lot that could be said today and i know for a fact that i won't say it all, and the rest of you killjoys will be able to fill in the gaps.

today for me was spent doing my art coursework, the hand in deadline is monday and i have the weekend to sort it all out and make it perfect.
my parents went to decorate my nans house for her.
my sister left soon after to sleep round her friends.
i baked cakes.
i did a lot of painting.
i microwaved left over curry for lunch and could barely stomach it because my appetite is next to nothing since i got back from new york.
i painted some more,
my ipod ran out f battery so i started listenign to 21st century breakdown on repeat because appart from frankie goes to holywood it's the only album on the computer.
i finished up with my art coursework.
tidied up.
sat down and logged onto tumblr to talk about the jake bugg gig tomorrow.

"shes bein followed by the man in her mind, she just needs to unwind, shut her eyes because shes running out of time"

i never understood why a sir name was so important, for girls anyway.

i mean for a guy, it has a air of identity about it, you keep the same one all your life (in england anyway)

but with a girl, she inherits it off her dad when shes born, shes grows up and then she gets married and takes her husbands.

so theres no sense of an identity.

but thats pretty irrelevent to this.

ive never really liked my second name, i didnt like it much when i was little. and as i grew up and found out about where my second name came from, it became a name which i hated, i hated the man who gave me that name.

cause he isnt my family. in fact im told he was a complete twat.

im told he was really violent and horrible.

soooooo its not supprising that as a girl who can lose her second name when she marries ive always liked the idea of getting married and removing the stain from my name.

(that really was not supposed to rhyme)

like terrifying...

i just had this dream about some crazy nun that killed someone with a guillotine and then she started eating her and then i woke up but it was weird cause i could still here her talking and it was just really fucking scary!
and i cant go back to sleep.
mind you i havent had one of these dreams in moths so this was gonna happen sooner or later, ill be sleeping again in a weeks time :)

nearly... i need to get up, tidy my room, do some art and go on a walk with my mum, and pack for new york...

a thing called love - johnny cash

so im doing gcse art and the theme we've been given is "force"

that could be anything, like people, the mind, science...

and ive chosen to do something to do with people.

something to do with war, peace, love, hate kinda thing but going on from that im totally stuck.

ive got some stuff on the french revolution maybe or to do with kids in war but i dont really know...

any ideas would be nice, or if youre doing the same gcse thing as me and youre stuck i'll try and help you out???????

the lone rocker

that sounds like im going to complain but im not.

recently ive been under a lot of stress, and a lot of weird numb feelings that have been quite weird and unexplanable though probably not helped by my decission to listen to "half the world away" (oasis) on repeat for the past two days.

so we can put this into perspective the top 25 on my ipod is now this:

half the world away (oasis)
i'm not okay (i promise) (my chemical romance)
saffron (jake bugg)
taste it (jake bugg)
aces (ruen brother)
walk like a man (ruen brothers)
i'm outa time (oasis)
battle born (the killers)
mr brightside (the killers)
this river is wild (the killers) <-------------------------- ahem, that used to be at the top...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway the word or two that i was going to say