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I mean no blame, but...

Here's the deal. For a year before MCR broke up, I chatted with this wonderful, beautiful girl on here. Now, she and I never exchanged any more info on how to contact each other during that time.. And when MCR split, she sent me a final message and left. Again, I'm still hurt about MCR and in no way can put any harm on them, but... I think I loved her. I'd been gathering my courage to tell her that before everything went to hell.. And now I'll never talk to her again.

That's all:/ signing off, Michael.

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Umbrellas!

So I've had a recent (small) obsession with umbrellas, lately. Their usage, what they symbolize, their usage as symbols; gah, they're awesome!

I'm going to be making (cough cough, forcing*, cough) my girlfriend to make me an Umbrella Academy (Dallas!) jacket, so that'll be cool. Also, I'm gonna find a light beam and attempt to break down an average umbrella, combine them, and form... the badass Blade Runner umbrella! Ha ha!

So that's basically my day. -_-

(*no abuse included, obviously. Simply a show of my determinedness, ha*)

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Lots of Depressing Blogs Today

I just thought I'd put it out there that life goes on, even gets better, if you let it. Don't let a bad day, bad week, or bad year pry into your happiness. Things only get worse if you let them. Think happy thoughts and the negativity means less.

I'm saying this for two reasons. One:

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3. No self harm posts
If you are feeling like you may harm yourself please contact someone who can help.
Call 1-800-273-8255 or visit suicidepreventionlifeline.org or twloha.com/find-help. You can also contact The Trevor Project at thetrevorproject.org or by calling their Lifeline at 866-488-7386.

Two: it's seriously affecting my mental state right now reading about all of you that want to kill yourselves. I went through that, but got over it, and now it's coming back. Reading that someone's going to die (before it happens) and knowing you only can do limited somethings to stop it is an awful feeling. Please don't put that weight on my shoulders.

xoxo, btBatt

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She is Alone

Rolling black skies devour this poor girl.
She is alone, and cold.

Rain pelts her skin like the stony souls of her family.
She is alone, and cold.

Harsh wind steals her breath and any remaining sense of direction.
She is alone, and cold.

Her black hair whips across her flattened wrists.
She is depressed, and dying.

(poem I wrote for creative writing class, depressing I know)

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Okay, Fangirl Moment.

I realize I am a boy and I should not Fangirl, and I realize I have a girlfriend and have even less of a right to Fangirl, but Ohmygeee. Look at his face-_- It's like "Funny!" and then in the second one, "Wait, not funny." <3

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Telepathic Teatime!??

Chillin out, watching The AquaBats! Super Show! with my lil cousin, pretending that the only reason I'm watching is because she wants to, but... I effing love this show. Anyone else the same?