BeYouBeBeautiful's blog

So it's been a while since I posted a blog.

I'm feeling really nostalgic for my vacation with my friends with the school. God it was amazing, honestly something I'll never forget, but I'm sitting here wishing I was still there with my playlist of all the songs we played there on repeat and I'm thinking I might be taking this slightly too seriously :P But honestly, you know when you're all in the same room by choice from 7am to curfew (midnight) singing songs and playing songs that you really enjoy peoples company.

So my life is going amazingly right now.
Everything is going wrong, but the consequences of things going wrong makes everything so much better!
My mum has gone to America so I'm staying at my brothers and last night we saw Rock of Ages. Best and most inappropriate movie ever! And on Monday morning I'm leaving to join my mum in America. Which I was talking about with the guy I like. He practically asked me out :)
It seems the only problem is... I'm really hungry.

I cried for the first time in ages today. Everything overwhelmed me, I've been so happy recently and it was more tears of joy than anything. But there was some sadness behind it. My mum is leaving me today for a month, and my friends will be my main source of entertainment until then. My friends that live far enough away from my grandmother who does not have an internet connection that it is impossible to talk to them without paying in one way or another, either for a bus or for the texting fees, the bus being cheaper ultimately. That's just evenings and weekends, though.. I still have school to see them. And Friday night rides come courtesy of my uncle, or so I've been told. I can go to my brothers house for internet but I feel like I'm intruding.

I cried for the first time in ages today. Everything overwhelmed me, I've been so happy recently and it was more tears of joy than anything. But there was some sadness behind it. My mum is leaving me today for a month, and my friends will be my main source of entertainment until then. My friends that live far enough away from my grandmother who does not have an internet connection that it is impossible to talk to them without paying in one way or another, either for a bus or for the texting fees, the bus being cheaper ultimately. That's just evenings and weekends, though.. I still have school to see them. And Friday night rides come courtesy of my uncle, or so I've been told. I can go to my brothers house for internet but I feel like I'm intruding.

A - AVAILABLE: Yes :P
B - BIRTHDAY: July 19th, 1996
C - CRUSHING ON: ..;)
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Teaaaa!
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Isla or Anna :)
F - FAVORITE SONG: Helena <3
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: gummy worms
H - HOMETOWN: I don't know... there are a few places I could class as my hometown.
I - IN LOVE WITH: My current situation. Life :D
J - JUGGLE: Can't :/ but my mum can!
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No, and if I had why would I admit it on the internet..?
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Texas to Florida. 17 HOURS!
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Don't like milkshake, ehh :)
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: twooooooo :D
O - ONE WISH: For things to stay like this forever :D
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Anna while on holiday with her and I lost her a few days ago :P
R - REASON TO SMILE: Everything is just perfect :)
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Many of Horror by Biffy Clyro <3
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 8:30am without an alarm. Bam.
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: Orange :D

I've been reading other people's blogs and they're all talking about how life just isn't going right. And that makes me feel really bad because, for the whole day, I've been thinking about how my life is finally just perfect. So I'd just like to take a moment to say that to everyone who doubts themselves or their lives, it really truly DOES get better. I didn't believe that when I was in that rut. In fact, I was so deep into the whole depression thing I'm surprised I had the strength to pull myself out, but I'm so proud I did. Just stick in and keep listening to My Chemical Romance, things do get better.

Been taking advantage of the good weather, because we don't get it often here. On Friday night we had a barbecue at church and then went to the beach, makes a change from sitting around listening to them preach. I'm not very religious, I go for the good times before and after the service. Then on Saturday we had a barbecue at my aunt's house, had to escape from my little cousin (12 year old) who insisted on watching Family Guy with her little brothers. That's just wrong. I'm sorry but I hate that show, its humor is barbaric. And today (Sunday) I went to the beach with three friends, got sunburned, and then we went to the park and I was spun around on a roundabout type thing but smaller with one of the three (the only guy) until we 'professed our love' for each other. All in all, it was a good weekend :) going on vacation with the school next weekend. Hopefully the good weather will continue for that!! Because it's not far away xD about a days drive.

So the exam went okay. The first half there were a few things I was unsure about but the second half was easy. Music was the best today, and English I guess... our music teacher is getting an operation at the current moment so he won't be in for a month or so. Today it was basically just me and four friends in a room by ourselves playing the guitar/piano/glockenspiel/bongos even though we can only play guitar and keyboard :P then in English we made posters for the school play. It was slightly warm outside but we live in a generally cold country so that constitutes as having all of the windows open and not doing any work xD I love my school <3

Sometimes I wonder why people always say I'm really weird. Then I realise that these are my goodbye's a lot of the time. I'm completely normal, promise ;)
Maths exam tomorrow :O I really do need to sleep.
So long and goodnight, guys. <3

This is one of my last days in this house. I hate it and I'm glad that we're moving. Awkwardly enough, the people that are moving in have a son who is in some of my classes at school and is one of my best friends best friend... anyway. We're leaving, case closed, and moving somewhere not that far away but with sooo much more space and a huge house and it's American style, so it reminds me on home. I only lived in America for five years. But it's home. Mainly because it's warmer.

So I'm supposed to be packing, obviously, but uh... procrastination. I'm also quite hungry and need to take a shower, but I've already got dressed and my parents aren't home with food yet so there's no point even looking.