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Remember Who You Are

I was just sitting here on my computer, minding my own business when I had this sort of flashback I guess? It was something I'd completely let my mind forget. But now that I remember it, I know it word-for-word. And it just shows how bad I was at one point. I mean, depressed. I am so happy right now, my life is pretty good. But it wasn't always so easy and so perfect. When I was 11 I had a lot of problems. Hard to believe that was 4 years ago.. but anyway. I was failing my math class, which I had previously been really good at.

Loneliness.

Recently I've been feeling really lonely. There's nothing wrong, really. I mean I lost my 'best friend' but that's been going on for a while, and to be honest I despised her anyway. I feel kind of free now. But I also feel so damn lonely. I mean, I'm in a country where I HAVE no friends, I have no one to talk to. All of my friends live 10 hours away, with a 6 hour time difference. All I have for company are my parents. I have 3 weeks until I can go home, and I'm sick of it all. I just want this to end. I want to wake up at 6am to my mom telling me to get ready for school.
I love school.
And I

I Hope You Had the Time of Your Life

So it's been a while since I posted a blog.

I'm feeling really nostalgic for my vacation with my friends with the school. God it was amazing, honestly something I'll never forget, but I'm sitting here wishing I was still there with my playlist of all the songs we played there on repeat and I'm thinking I might be taking this slightly too seriously :P But honestly, you know when you're all in the same room by choice from 7am to curfew (midnight) singing songs and playing songs that you really enjoy peoples company.
My school has trips all the time, ours was the closest to home.

I'm Walking on Sunshine! :D

So my life is going amazingly right now.
Everything is going wrong, but the consequences of things going wrong makes everything so much better!
My mum has gone to America so I'm staying at my brothers and last night we saw Rock of Ages. Best and most inappropriate movie ever! And on Monday morning I'm leaving to join my mum in America. Which I was talking about with the guy I like. He practically asked me out :)
It seems the only problem is... I'm really hungry.

I Remember Tears Streaming Down Your Face

I cried for the first time in ages today. Everything overwhelmed me, I've been so happy recently and it was more tears of joy than anything. But there was some sadness behind it. My mum is leaving me today for a month, and my friends will be my main source of entertainment until then. My friends that live far enough away from my grandmother who does not have an internet connection that it is impossible to talk to them without paying in one way or another, either for a bus or for the texting fees, the bus being cheaper ultimately.

I Remember Tears Streaming Down Your Face

I cried for the first time in ages today. Everything overwhelmed me, I've been so happy recently and it was more tears of joy than anything. But there was some sadness behind it. My mum is leaving me today for a month, and my friends will be my main source of entertainment until then. My friends that live far enough away from my grandmother who does not have an internet connection that it is impossible to talk to them without paying in one way or another, either for a bus or for the texting fees, the bus being cheaper ultimately.

ABC's - Really Bored :P

A - AVAILABLE: Yes :P
B - BIRTHDAY: July 19th, 1996
C - CRUSHING ON: ..;)
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Teaaaa!
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Isla or Anna :)
F - FAVORITE SONG: Helena <3
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: gummy worms
H - HOMETOWN: I don't know... there are a few places I could class as my hometown.
I - IN LOVE WITH: My current situation. Life :D
J - JUGGLE: Can't :/ but my mum can!
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No, and if I had why would I admit it on the internet..?
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Texas to Florida. 17 HOURS!
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Don't like milkshake, ehh :)
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS:

I Am Not Afraid To Keep On Living

I've been reading other people's blogs and they're all talking about how life just isn't going right. And that makes me feel really bad because, for the whole day, I've been thinking about how my life is finally just perfect. So I'd just like to take a moment to say that to everyone who doubts themselves or their lives, it really truly DOES get better. I didn't believe that when I was in that rut. In fact, I was so deep into the whole depression thing I'm surprised I had the strength to pull myself out, but I'm so proud I did.

You Can Run Away With Me

Been taking advantage of the good weather, because we don't get it often here. On Friday night we had a barbecue at church and then went to the beach, makes a change from sitting around listening to them preach. I'm not very religious, I go for the good times before and after the service. Then on Saturday we had a barbecue at my aunt's house, had to escape from my little cousin (12 year old) who insisted on watching Family Guy with her little brothers. That's just wrong. I'm sorry but I hate that show, its humor is barbaric.

Maths Exam is OVER :D

So the exam went okay. The first half there were a few things I was unsure about but the second half was easy. Music was the best today, and English I guess... our music teacher is getting an operation at the current moment so he won't be in for a month or so. Today it was basically just me and four friends in a room by ourselves playing the guitar/piano/glockenspiel/bongos even though we can only play guitar and keyboard :P then in English we made posters for the school play.

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