Becky MCR's blog

I used to write song lyrics but they failed, and I sometimes make songs up in my head when I don't have my mp3 player on my walks to and from school and they sound all right but I always forget them.
I was going to try and record my voice and get it on here, but I'm crap at singing and I have a sore throat so I won't torture you guys. So instead, here are the lyrics :) If you want a kind of idea of what it sounds like in my mind then I had a You Me At Six song stuck in my head so it's kind of based on that and the the first, second, forth and fifth line in the chorus are screamo and the words are spaced out, if that makes sense...probably not...but feel free to make up your own tune to it...I'm pretty sure I make up a new rhythm every time I sing it :)

Failure

There’s nothing you can do
You can’t motivate me
You can drag me around, turn me upside down
But I don’t have the energy

You can force my gaze
But my eyes glaze over
Threaten me all you want

STOP BEING GOOD AT DRAWING!!! it's killing me X)
I have improved though, if I do say so myself - I can kind of draw people but sometimes I do the face really fat or the feet really big and sometimes the guys look like girls...but apart from that they're looking ok...but they really don't compare to your drawings, I mean seriously! give a girl a chance! So I'ma stick to poetry, unless I feel like drawing...because if I force myself to draw I would soon be surrounded by broken pens, ripped paper and angry/failure tears...
BUT ANYWAYS!!! stop being good at art!
I wrote some good poems at school the other day which I hope to get up soon, so for those who lie poetry...go to a poetry website! Just kidding, please check my poems out if you can...in fact, I'll post one now!
But first: Best song title: We're Going to Hell...So Bring the Sunblock (by The Blackout): I LOVE IT!!!
This is one of my better poems, I don't know why, I was tired at the point of writing, but I like it a lot :)

I can see you
I wish I couldn’t
You’re smiling
I’m crying
Why?

You’re so cold
You froze me out
You’re laughing
I’m dying
Why?

You have them
All of our friends
You’re happy
I’m sad
Why?

Everyone loves you
No-one knows me
You’re popular
I’m alone
Why?

Because I deserve this
Not you
Not friends
But the bitterness of eternity alone

Wait! Where are you going!
Anyway, Some of my thoughts. I used to think I couldn't sleep because I was so hyped up but no. It was because I had become depressed during the day and if my brain stayed alert and active it wouldn't subconsciously process the day and make me feel like shit when I woke up. So a few weird dreams later, I could not stop waking up and going back to sleep, I woke up and ignored feelings. Easier than you think when you bury yourself in a book. Also mulling over how depressing comments on a depressed blog can help more than supportive comments. I guess it's more because you know you're not alone more and know that other people feel like shit but still drag through every day.
Second - THERE'S NO COFFEE IN THIS HOUSE! and I ate all the skittles from halloween but I did just have chocolate spread on toast but now a parent is home...
ANYWAY - the poem I promised you...

See you haven't noticed me until now :) It's been a while since I posted a blog because my life as been rather uneventful...i think it's always been uneventful but I always found shit to talk about...
So I've been stalking the airwaves for a while.
SO as you may know, Andy (BVB) broke his nose and had to cancel the tour...including Bristol, where I was looking forward to seeing them but it all worked out for the best because I was ill on the 1st of Nov, when they were meant to come and I would have made myself much more ill because apparently, if I scream songs out at the top of my lungs I get tonsillitis...not exactly sure how it works, but it's what happens...
I'm also really bored right now so I'm going through all my old Kerrang! magazines and cutting out new pics for my bedroom wall :) I'm also on facebook at twitter continuously at the moment
Feel free to add Becky Jones (オタクロック) or follow @rockmetalnerd (I'll follow back - promise)

What do you guys think of them? I've even included a video of my fave song by them :D (but i also like ima monster, and another song i can't remember the name of...) Because they split opinions more than BVB. Personally I really like them but my sister doesn't.
And also she's just like 'oh I don't like them' and gets on with her life rather than posting hate comments everywhere and being a little shit...sorry had to get that idea out because haters really don't need to hate, they can just ignore rather than shitting everywhere...
So anyway, if you don't like, well, anyone, just be nice about it and ignore them and get on with your life.
(btw sorry if I sound harsh, I know that most/all of you are nice people who don't feel the need to shit on everyone else)

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Is anyone else spending the day being ill? Stupid colds and tonsilitus - I'll kill them one day...
My eye looks worse now than it did Tuesday (the day after I almost got stampeded in a wall of death) The bruising around my cut seems a darker purple and the green bruising isn't going, also the lump on my eyebrow hasn't gone down...-_- I'm not exactly impressed...continue reading to find out about my awesome saturday night :D... ... ...

Is anyone else going to be spending the day being ill? Stupid colds and tonsilitus - I'll kill them one day...
My eye looks worse now than it did Tuesday (the day after I almost got stampeded in a wall of death) The bruising around my cut seems a darker purple and the green bruising isn't going, also the lump on my eyebrow hasn't gone down...-_- I'm not exactly impressed.

First I shall moan: My neck hurts, I can barely hold it up and everytime I blink, I hurt because of some cut+bruise from a wall of death

Second I shall complain: I am bored, so very very bored, I shall probably do some random quizzes and find some games like happywheelz.com - best game i've seen in a while in my opinion :D

Third I shall say hi: HI!!! hope you are all well lovely Killjoys of the world and getting ready for halloween :D

much love xoxoxoxo

I went to the most amazing zombie party last night in BRISTOL!!!! hosted by Pulp (which I think is like Hot Topic). So I went with my sister and friend and we went as zombie secretaries (there were like a bajillion schoolgirls) and it was totally AWESOME!!! I saw 2 girls dressed as Frank and Gerard and they looked really cool and one guy was wearing a Kobra Kid Tee...I need to wear my mcr top more...
So my friend won a headbanging contest and another friend won a signed Enter Shakari tee because she was dressed as a zombie smurf!!! We moshed and rocked out so much and just when I thought my head would fall off they'd play another awesome track and my head would feel better again!!!
There was also a wall of death and I thought that it would be fun so I was at the front (by accident, not design) and then we ran and crashed and moshed and it was fun as hell!!!!