Becky MCR's blog

my math exam is in the bag and the bag is in the river - i actually think i did quite well :D
but if you're my mum you will say "well we know what that means..." No actually we don't - just cuz i think i did good does not mean i'll fail.

My daddy's back! He's been on a business trip for a week and my mum is meaner without him - much more shouty and insulty. Me and my sister are really hyper - we managed to impersonate an octopus cus apparently they have 6 arms and 2 legs...so she got on my back and waved her arms and leags and i waved my arms and voila! un octopus! unfortunately no picture...

Going to enter the race for life in july and as i'm running/walking/dying i will have a sign to raise awareness about suicide and depression as well as cancer. It is my first (and hopefully not my last) idea about raising awareness for the tabooed (is that even a word?) subject of depression and suicide. I will try and dress as a killjoy, just to top everything off :)

just went on the bbc news website -i like the wierd and wonderful bit - so here is a news story that caught my eye):
One of the biggest insurance companies in the world held a party for salesmen where they were rewarded with the services of prostitutes.
read more at: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-13454160
Yes you heard it correctly - they rewarded the salesmen with an orgy. I really don't know what to make of that.

I also want to raise awareness about suicide and depression but I'm not sure how at the mo. If you have any ideas please help me out.
If you want to see the video i attempted to post on my last blog - it's a really good song - it is A Skylit Drive with This isn't the end.

Math exam tomorrow - really looking forward to it -NOT! anyone want to take my place?

didn't kno what to call this blog.

oh i listened to A Skylit Drive last night and saw this song and wanted to share it with everyone. hope you like it.

I realised last night how much I hate the thought of suicide and can't believe i used to think about it. I've decided i want to raise more awareness about suicide and depression but i'm not sure how at the moment. Will do some research tonight but if anyone has any ideas, i would really like to hear them.

third weird dream remembered this week. i only remember dreams wen im ill. think im suffering from insomnia. Think i will now listen to some green day...

math exam tomorrow - woop-de-doodle.

-Raven Candy-
xo

I don't know if it should bother me or not but I'm kinda freaking out - on the brink of crying because of this. You probably think I'm stupid but this has really got to me.

My facebook status: a good therapist isn't always someone who listens...it's someone who understands and makes you feel like you belong...sometimes good therapy is going to a concert and being part of something, feeling like you belong there...and sometimes a good friend isn't someone you've known for a long time, it's someone who makes you feel like you belong

My ex best friend's comment: I couldn't agree more

I don't know. I just don't fucking know anymore. Feel like crying myself to sleep and never waking up. Everything that happened between me and her is crashing down on me now. And I'm really confused...

i've realised that my only true friend is my sister. How depressing is that? I lost my friends at 6th form when i lost my best friend. My friends at army cadets are two years younger than me and really have no clue about life (I mean they're 14 and think they're in love) and it kills me to see their bubbly happiness because that was once me and now... now i'm broken. So yeah - that is a horrible thought.

On the plus side I'm on study leave until the 13th of june (2 days before my birthday) but I might go crazy with boredom. Might walk to town or something tomorrow.
Had a great 3 hours listening to MCR (the black parade and danger days twice).

I have a gorgeous cat whose name is Houdini (after the magician Harry Houdini because when we first got him, we used to shut him in the kitchen for the night so he wouldn't go on my parents bed. So every night we shut him in the kitchen, even blocking the door with a chair, and every night he would escape and go onto my parents bed to sleep.). He's 17, 18 in July. He's an old cat but I love him. He normally hates my room but today, when everyone else is out, he decides to come into my room and onto my lap for a sleep. Now when most people say that they can't move due to their cat, it's a funny story. But not now! I cannot move - I could just move him but he's old and that's mean. So I'm stuck on my bed until someone comes home and rescues me.

Well Basically I was going to do a video blog, but I don't know how to use my laptop to do it. So instead I've taken two pics of things I would like to share with you.
The first thing is something I got taught quite recently and it's how to say 'I love you' in sign language. Very similar to 'Rock on' don't you think....
The second thing is a drawing I've done and it's the best drawing I've done of a person ever in my whole entire life. So although it's not a masterpiece, it is by my drawing standards.

I would also like to mention a new band on the upcoming scene called 'Amongst Carrion'. You can find them on myspace and facebook but not on you tube and although I've only heard two of their songs, I think they are amazing and can't wait for them to gig and release an album.

To also those who have exams (like me) GOOD LUCK!!! and try not to get distracted by the computer when doing revision (something I should really listen to...)

Well Basically I was going to do a video blog, but I don't know how to use my laptop to do it. So instead I've taken two pics of things I would like to share with you.
The first thing is something I got taught quite recently and it's how to say 'I love you' in sign language. Very similar to 'Rock on' don't you think....
The second thing is a drawing I've done and it's the best drawing I've done of a person ever in my whole entire life. So although it's not a masterpiece, it is by my drawing standards.

I would also like to mention a new band on the upcoming scene called 'Amongst Carrion'. You can find them on myspace and facebook but not on you tube and although I've only heard two of their songs, I think they are amazing and can't wait for them to gig and release an album.

To also those who have exams (like me) GOOD LUCK!!! and try not to get distracted by the computer when doing revision (something I should really listen to...)

So It's been two hours since my last blog which just goes to show how bored I am.
I am sitting here on my bed with springs digging into my bum (my sister broke them when she used to bounce on my bed) waiting for MCR to arrive on the main stage in Carlisle for Radio 1's big weekend.

Can anyone think of anything good to do?

I could try writing another chapter to the story I'm writing but I can't find my inspiration. I might start another story if I can be bothered...

I've also realised that it's unlikely anyone will read this because most people have stuff to do in the daytime...so it is evening in Thailand so:
เย็นดี! ใครทำอะไรเป็นที่น่าสนใจ?

Oh the power of google translate. It will now be awesome if a person living in Thailand read this blog and replyed. I think it might blow my mind.

Anyways I should do some revision...(Laughs head off)...oh no. I can't seem to do revision. My head has fallen off at the prospect of me actually doing some hardcore revision. Oh my.

I have such a lot of revision to do today but I thought I might pause for - I dunno - ten hours to say Morning!
I'm not going to bother with the east coast of America because if they are normal they will be fast asleep and dreaming about omelets and unicorns.
I will say morning to the crazy people up at 7/8.30 though - GOOD MORNING STARSHINES!!! I''m sure the sun is shining and you're about to do something exciting like go shopping or belt out some MCR. If you are also doing revision though, I feel your pain...

And finally HAPPY LUNCHTIME to all you British Killjoys.

Now what should i do instead of revision....