Becky MCR's blog

My sister is so fucking annoying. She chucks a pillow at me whilst I'm holding my laptop. She chucks a ball at my head but when I chuck it back I get old off. She tries to drag me off my bed to play a board game downstairs then just as I get up says 'fine we don't want you anyway' so instead of going downstairs I shut the door in her face and my dad has to get me downstairs. Oh and she ripped the duvet off me this morning. Her hyperactivity has put me in a bad mood.

Luckily I have facebook and you guys so XD. I'm also trying to finish my story which has altered from my plan but I'm just going with the flow. I should do some revision tomorrow...or my homework...OR I could do my story...I wonder which one will win...?

I got a BMTH song stuck in my head but all the words I know are 'Blessed with a curse' - it's rather annoying and I got Vampires Will Never Hurt You floating around my brain as well...

Best quote of the day: "The only thing that stops God from sending another flood is that the first one was useless." NICHOLAS CHAMFORT (a french writer I believe)
Isn't it epic?

When ever I come on here it makes me feel better so thank you to every Killjoy out there who reads all my shit (especially naMCRnaMALna and Sweet little bastard). Thankyou for noticing me and caring and thank you for putting up with my blogs about how shit my life is when I know most of you have problems as well.
I wish I had you in real life because when I'm on here it's when I don't feel lonely.
Always grateful for you and MCR...I'm not sure I'd be here without either of you.
Lots of Love
Raven Candy
xoxo

hmph. Bunking physics cus I hate it and I'm dropping next year for sure. God I hate manipulative people. Next time I'm listening to my gut.

So does anyone notice me? I think not. I think I can actually turn invisible.
So does anyone care? I think not. Apparently no-one notices an obvious red line on your wrist. Or when you just stare at the wall looking depressed.

Back getting headaches again - wonderful.

I really have no news at all. Just feeling sorry for myself.

Fuck This Whole Wide World.
Let this world explode.

Raven Candy
...being driven into the pit of non-existence

Yep I'm doing homework right now. Whilst typing this blog...That is how much homework I'm doing right now :)
So my day started off crap but I dropped a few 'You are beautiful' notes and read some of the blogs on here and its really cheered me up.
Unfortunately I did something that I really wish I didn't but in a way that was when my day improved. This is also why I avoid the toilets in school. It gives me privacy that I really shouldn't be allowed seeing as that is the only place where I get my scissors out.
So this is my first day at school where I'm spending my lunchbreak alone (if your wondering why its because my ex-best friend doesn't want me hanging out around her and therefore all our friends). The library is nearly empty but I have my mp3 on shuffle so that's alright. Technically I'm in Year 13 and we've already started learning A2 stuff. Only one more lesson and then I go home. yay.

Yep I'm doing homework right now. Whilst typing this blog...That is how much homework I'm doing right now :)
So my day started off crap but I dropped a few 'You are beautiful' notes and read some of the blogs on here and its really cheered me up.
Unfortunately I did something that I really wish I didn't but in a way that was when my day improved. This is also why I avoid the toilets in school. It gives me privacy that I really shouldn't be allowed seeing as that is the only place where I get my scissors out.
So this is my first day at school where I'm spending my lunchbreak alone (if your wondering why its because my ex-best friend doesn't want me hanging out around her and therefore all our friends). The library is nearly empty but I have my mp3 on shuffle so that's alright. Technically I'm in Year 13 and we've already started learning A2 stuff. Only one more lesson and then I go home. yay.

This is my first day back when I actually have to spend the whole day here and every lesson has my ex-best friend in.
Also had a bit of an arguement with my mum this morning and this is how it went:
-I come out the bathroom wearing a poncho-
mum: did you where that to bed?
me: no.
mum: it was just a question I seem to be annoying everyone today i better just shut up and not say anything to anyone (more muttering as she walks downstairs)
I was thinking what the fuck? So I'm so frustrated I slam my bedroom door then she walks to her bedroom and slams her bedroom door.
I can only assume that my tone of voice set her off and my shocked face when she said something to me (nobody normally talks to me until I'm dressed because then they know I'm awake)
So my journey to school was just me thinking about how evrything is my fault and it was 45 minute walk. I have not talked to anyone - I'm just silent and thats how I plan to stay all day.

This is my first day back when I actually have to spend the whole day here and every lesson has my ex-best friend in.
Also had a bit of an arguement with my mum this morning and this is how it went:
-I come out the bathroom wearing a poncho-
mum: did you where that to bed?
me: no.
mum: it was just a question I seem to be annoying everyone today i better just shut up and not say anything to anyone (more muttering as she walks downstairs)
I was thinking what the fuck? So I'm so frustrated I slam my bedroom door then she walks to her bedroom and slams her bedroom door.
I can only assume that my tone of voice set her off and my shocked face when she said something to me (nobody normally talks to me until I'm dressed because then they know I'm awake)
So my journey to school was just me thinking about how evrything is my fault and it was 45 minute walk. I have not talked to anyone - I'm just silent and thats how I plan to stay all day.

I got 5 hours sleep last nyte...
I managed to make myself tired by making 70 'You are beautiful' notes and have been distributing them today. I saw someone showing their friends one of the notes and she was really happy about it which made me feel good and made me smile :)
I know I posted this earlier, but I'm making sure everyone reads it because by doing it, it makes you feel good as well as others.

Oh yeah - garlic bread
I cooked a garlic bread baguette and mum got pissy about it because it was for her dinner tomorrow. It's not like she passes any stores on the way home from work or anything...

3 Cheers for 3 Cheers for sweet revenge XD I will now stuff -virtual- cake into my gob on your behalf!!!

Raven Candy
xoxoxoxoxo

my mood is way too good...

You might of heard of it already but today I started placing the notes in random spots. Unfortunately on my way into school it started pouring down and when I say pouring I mean it was wetter than if someone had throw a bucket of water over you...I did put some over the school though and I know 2 people got the notes. On my way home the sun started shining, luckily, and I put some notes outside. I also went to Tesco (because I was picking up Kerrang!) and put some notes all over the store and in people's trolleys. It made me feel good because I know that at least one person will pick up that note and feel better about themselves.

On another note I'm off to watch Sleepy Hollow now :) and I'm recommending Dawn of the Dead to those who have not watched it (though I don't like how it ends because it seems so abrupt)

So long and Goodbye!
Raven Candy
xoxoxoxo