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breaking news for anyone that care,,

Nat my cousin gonna have her heart surgery on my birthday,,
i repeat!!!on my birthday!!!!!

and it's 2 days after Christmas!!!!!
what the fuck was that?????

and i can't be with her,,i repeat i can not be with her!!
what the fuuuuucccckkk was that??????

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dear Buddy,,

i'm not good enough for you right?
i just know it,,,
im just piece of debris everyone left behind,,
when all you can say was just,,
"i know you can do it,why don't you just try your best?"
i know i'm losing hope of friendship,,,
you know i can't compete him,,
i born pathetic depressed fuck like that..
sorry maybe that one gonna be the last hug i give u sincerely,,,
thanks for all of these years!
tell Cecil i say hi,,

xo

ps : this is for my buddy in the real life..not you all guys!

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did ppl really want to make friends with me?

i mean for past three days i got at least 1 pending friend request,,
is that real or the blog just messed up,,
i mean,,

okay, whatever!

xo

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I read this,,,

http://kidshealth.org/teen/school_jobs/good_friends/friend_cuts.html?tra...

and it's pretty much good,,,
i mean,,,if it not because of you all,,
i give up easily on self harm...

thanks guys,,
xo

btw, i never know that scratching with pins is considered like cutting,,
i shocked myself.

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ugh,,this is just fuckin insane!

dear Mr.Mind,
please be kindly not to play tricks to me?
i hate being in roller coaster,,
in between hyper and depressed,,,
please,please,please,,
make my life liveable,,,

sincerely yours,
the peculiar girl

xo

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My Chemical Imbalance

i just need to say that i dont know what happen to me,,
but it's pretty much like,, feels worthless, hate myself, alone and scared,,
i just feel afraid it might my depression come over and say hi,,

*sigh

btw, my best friend just told me that he had a weird dream about me crying and shaking and asking help,,"help me from myself"

and i was just O.o *blink blink

how could that happen?

anyway,,
i was crying so hard day n night it make me dizzy,,,

xo

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listen to sing it for japan,,,

and cry,,
because i feel so alone and scared,,
i dunno why,,
was that because Nat?
or things just messed up these days?
why am i had to born with this depressed tendency?

why am i even ask about it?

*sigh

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while im having a cup of coffee,,

first of all,, i've just notice that so many ppl talk about their parents here,,
right from mom or dad keep yelling or mom or dad being nice,,
and i need you all to know that it's all only what i think,,
you may disagree,,
but i need to say that,,
it's all okay to rant about parents, i rants alot sometimes when my mom act like .....
i dont really want to say bitch, coz really she is nice..
okay,, whatever,,

but the point is,, when your parents is yell or saying something rude i just wanna say that
you can always rant about it here but don't harm yourself!!!!!!!!

or (this is what i did couple years ago) :
1. hug your parents,
2. tell sorry
3. say that "they dont need to yell or scream to tell you about something because you growing up and understand"

i just found that sometimes parents as same as stressed out or depressed (sometimes) as us,,
they also need to yell, scream and rant about everything..but they just made an awful decision by yell or scream at us..

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random part 4 posted!

hey,,,
anybody knows Bloo?

btw i should've read my lesson about neo transpersonal psychology,,
but yeaaaah,,
ans i should've make a report about something.,

instead i wanna read a series of unfortunate events,,,

that's all

xo

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this is good,,,

found it in the middle of stressful working time,,
when i was working on presentation about 'stressed out working man or woman'
*widely grin....

xo