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cubicle,,dear cubicle,,

i wish i had one,,
where it goes cubicle?
my sanctuary from the whole monster that tryin to eats you,,
left nothing but the story of bitter chivalry,,
*sigh
i have no guts,,
i hope i could just runaway,,

XOXO

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taking a whole gulp of bitterness

so,,im here,,(if anyone did notice and miss me)
it's been a freakin lifetime while i was away,,
and yeah,,battered, exhausted,defeated, but yet still im survive and fuckin alive..
i guess i was really in a very good mood of writing down lines of gibberish or just rant about my life,,
anyways,, the same song,,
i just want to let out my feeling, and this one is not easy,,
i mean,, i dont even know whether i could find the right exact word or words to define those whole bunch of crappyness..
okay,,
lemme try,,
first of all, i was or i am so mad, fuckin pissed off of all things happen around me but instead of like let it all out or doing something stupid towards myself. i was like or i am like "okay whatever!" and i mean it, like i have no energy left to even feels the rage where dancing ready to explode.
*sigh
i really cant understand myself.
and yes, of course im so freaking alone, i was literary have no friends,,
like my co-workers were definitely not friends,,like NOT!

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it's been 7 years since the last time I've been seeing your face,,

it just in a couple days,,
my dad 7 years memorial day,,
weird, hurt and somehow sorrowful i have no idea how to tell you guys,,

XOXO

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run to me,,run to me now *goo goo dolls

there's always a time when those missing feeling
consume you and kill you slowly,,
leave you suffocate and hyperventilate,,
and you just want to quit,,to stop the time,,
and perhaps rewind and saw those scene of your life and wonder,,
what did i do wrong?
you stare at the corner of this pathetic life and start to sobs,,
you just dont understand what the heck wrong with you,,
or your choices..
and no one notice,
of course no one notice,,even when you sing your heart out..
out loud,,
no one care,,
and you stand there, possibly alone,,
am i still be able to keep moving?
and never looking back?

and i miss Hark.

XOXO

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those weird feeling that actually called broken heart

i should've not feel such things..
i mean, im not (logically) in a state of being broke up or anything..
or did life broke me up,i have no clue.
i feel like..like a goddamn pathetic broken hearted girl..
that just rant and fuckin bawling her eyes out..
i have no idea what happen with me..

anyways, stay safe!
XOXOXOXOXOXO

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i can't understand myself

the title pretty explain all the shity situations,,
buuuuut yeeaaaa,,,
i do understand what i feel right know, but i was also aware that my feeling didn't define who i am,,
so,, i just cant comprehend myself,,
ugh,,im dead!
my head messing me up,,
or probably it's all because of my med..

stay safe guys,
i love ya..
XOXOXO

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when I thought it couldnt get any worse,,

sooo,,
i have this reddish blister on my thigh,,
i had this things before but it just not on my thigh,,
it feels burned and hurt ..
and every time i walk it's worsen the pain,,
and guess what?
the medication i get i should take it every 3 hours andddddd,,,
i cant drink coffee or tea,,because it will ruin my med,,
yeaaa,,
my life is total doom!

meanwhile,
stay safe guys, love ya
XOXO

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happy sunday everybody and check out this!

have a sunny,lazy and awesome sunday,,
and this K-pop girl band say Gee,,
*i know random

XOXO

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hello again,,

it's me and my best friend,,playing pre-wed wanna be picture,,
just to have fun and do weird things..
and if his girlfriend know or my boyfriend find out this pic..
we're totally gonna die!

XOXO
stay safe and stay weird!

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heyho! hello,,

so,,
me and my boyfriend talk about married,,
(this one for real becoz it's also include parents in-law tobe- thingy)
I was like,
is this real?
*hyperventilates

and i spam you all with my total random and weird pics
stay safe guys

XOXO