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So im pretty sure im bi polar:< lately i've been under alot of stress. im trying to take care of my little brother cause my mom is like not around much and then i babysit my nephew. thing is i tell people yeah i can do this or that and then i get so overwhelmed i go into a deep depression cause i feel like a failure and then instead of the happy me im all sad. its like a rollacoaster i go up in down with my mood. i never go out much anymore or do anything for myself.

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hey killjoys,
ok so I haven't told all my family that im bi and i have a girlfriend cause I know some of them would freak out but I have a twitter account and I had posted that im bi cause none of my family has a twitter account anyways my sister decided to make one and when she saw the post she was like if people dont like u for who u are tell them to fuck off. i was in shock when i saw that cause she was one of the people i thought would freak out. i was like yayyyyyy!!!! its nice to have my sister to talk to now about my girlfriend and me.

Thank you Gerard and Mikey

Hey killjoys,
ok so I know Gerard and Mikey probably wont see this but I want to thank them for the work they do to help get the word out about young onset parkison's disease cause my grandpa was diagnosed with it at a younger age and he is older now and it has gotten worse. he cant drive me to school like he use too;< it makes me sad to see him struggle to do the things he loves to do. he shakes constantly even when he takes his medicine, He use to be a repairman but he cant do that anymore because of his parkisons.

hard times

so i haven't posted here since December cause i've been going through a lot of shit:( my gf here parents went to jail so im trying to help her through everything, im sick again:( and my best friend is cutting which is hard to see her doing this cause i use to do i all the time till I heard Gerard say nothing is worth hurting yourself over and then i realized he is right. I wish my friend would realize it too. she gets bullied a lot like me which sucks case i hate being picked on:( it hurts when no one likes you when they dont even know you.

hard times

so i haven't posted here since December cause i've been going through a lot of shit:( my gf here parents went to jail so im trying to help her through everything, im sick again:( and my best friend is cutting which is hard to see her doing this cause i use to do i all the time till I heard Gerard say nothing is worth hurting yourself over and then i realized he is right. I wish my friend would realize it too. she gets bullied a lot like me which sucks case i hate being picked on:( it hurts when no one likes you when they dont even know you.

Got the new MCR shirt for Christmas:>

So my family always opens our presents on Christmas Eve and one of the things I got was the new MVR shirt!!!!! I was super excited to say the least. I love it so much I tackle hugged my mom for getting it for me. lol. I wish my dad could of been here for Christmas bit I know he is watching over me and probably laughing cause I did my happy dance when I got my MCR shirt.

It Still Hurts That Your Gone Dad

So Chritmas is coming up and it's the 2nd Christmas without my adopted dad:< It's so hard I still miss him alot. It doesnt seem to get easier. My heart still hurts. Everyday I wake up I think dad is going to be cooking breakfast but then I get up and I remember caner took my dad and he isnt ever going to cook me breakfast again. I was listening to the song Cancer today by MCR and I broke down in tears which I hate to cry but I had to ket it go. I miss you Daddy so much. Not a day goes by that I dont wish I could see your face. I would give everything just to see you for a minute.

You Save Me

So I been going through some things and at times honestly I cant take it but then I put my earbuds in and crawl into bed and play my My Chemical Romance cd's and I forget it all. Bullying is so wrong and I dont get how people can do it or tell someone they should kill themself cause it would do the world a favor like what did I ever do to you? I mean im shy I barely talk. I dont get how people can be so mean.If it wasnt for MCR I wouldnt be here today so thank you guys for reminding me its ok to be different and that being yourself is who you should be.

Killjoy Jacket

So I really want the Kobra Kid killjoy jacket but I cant draw so I wont win the contest and I doubt my mom can afford it since were barely getting buy. Im going to try and save up for it thought it might take me a long time:< im so bummed i want it sooooo bad

Bulling Is Wrong

What is up with bulling these days? It's so wrong and peolpe don't realize their words and actions really hurt people. Jamey died because he was bullied for being gay. RIP Jamey Rodemeyer. It shouldn't matter gay or straight, black or white, emo or goth, killjoy or not we all need to realize how what we say and do can really hurt people. I know MCR would agree with this

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