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Can you guys give me some high school advice please?

My son is going to high school next year(def making me feel old), and I' m getting really worried about him. He' s so funny, he' s empathetic, cute, he' s a great kid. And I don't ignore his flaws and think he' s perfect b/c he's my kid, he definitely has some flaws, but really he' s a cool kid. Very witty/sarcastic and always makes people laugh. Sometimes he' s super outgoing, other times he's VERY quiet. So what i' m worried about is he' s in 8th grade,and most boys his age average 5'6", some are a few inches shorter, but he' s almost a foot shorter then a bunch of kids his age.

Anyone want a free Green Day album download?

I got a free download when I bought tickets to a Green Day concert, it says I get 3 downloads with the 3 tickets, but I may only be able to share 2, I actually don't know anyone who would want it. I have their CD already, It's for their album Uno, so I have 2 to share for free, if anyone wants one, you can give me your email and I'll send you the album....there's 2 just though. Ok, thats it :)

Have to tell someone

Hey guys! I haven't been on here in a while, the holidays were fucking nutty and then my best friend since we were 10 or 11 lost her mom and that was really hard. She's only 35 and both her parents passed away now. It seems so wrong and unfair. I hope everyone is doing good. Aside from horrible things, I am really really excited...I got tickets to see Green Day April 1st and I cannot wait!!!! I totally screwed up and thought Rochester NY was about an hour away, then after I bought the tickets, I looked up the map thing and its 5 hours away.

I want answers Killjoys!

1. What's your favorite movie? (me LOTR Return of the King)
2. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? (me I think The Lorax)
3'. Whats your favorite show if you have one? (me Dexter!!!!)
4. What's the last tv show you watched? (me Breaking Bad finale saved on my dvr)
5. What' s the big major thing you want for Christmas the most? (me..a nap, no really just to see my kids faces when they get there 3ds' s, and my oldest his xbox)
6. What's your favorite holiday song? (me I think O Holy Night...the Josh Groban version. So beautiful)

see ya! Oh yeah, we almost made it through doomsday.

My next tattoo, can you help with this?

I'm not getting it any time really soon, probably in the spring/summer, but I knew as soon as I heard Ambulance, that I wanted the lyrics 'You don't know a thing about this life' as a tattoo. Those words really get to me, it's more like a saying to myself. That I don't know a thing about this life. I've realized, even when you grow up some, you seem to know less. You've heard that right? The older you get, the less you know? It's true. And I' not even that old yet. God help me when I reach 40s. So I'm gonna get this tattoo, and I'm trying to think of 2 things.

1. Where do I put it?

This hole you put me in, wasn' t deep enough...and I'm climbing out right now.

Hi you lovely awesome people:) So, it's officially "doomsday"', and I think its all total Buuuuulllllsssshhhhiiit. And guess what? If I'm wrong, and we're all doomed, then no one can say hey Allie, you were wrong, I told you so. Because, you know, we' ll all be goners anyway, lol.

So things are the same, still dealing with my difficult husband who doesn' t probably ever want to stop drinking, tonight was shitty earlier. Whenever he drinks a lot, and I mean a lot b/c when you do every day, it takes a crazy amount to get really drunk, he gets really obnoxious.

Do you ever..........

just want to comment on like, every single blog on here b/c your bored/feeling talkative? That's how I feel right now. So don't be surprised if you see me commenting on everything today. Like, every damn thing. No, I do not think I'm Ann Landers or Dr. Phil. Just in the mood to socialize without stepping out of my house. I'm happy my husband is at work today. Half the time he works from home and its frustrating. He's literally on the phone ALL day, and expects 4 kid to be quiet the whole time. Impossible.

I can't believe i'm sharing this Plz read

Ok, I hope someone or someones will actually read this and give me honest honest opinions. I know it's a bit long, so thanks if you take the time to read it. It's the prologue to the book i'm writing. I want to know if it actually grabs you from the get-go and makes you want to read more. Be honest...I can take it :)

I am absolutely alone. Literally, physically, and mentally, however and whichever way I perceive this fact. This is what I prefer. And yet, in a morbid way, I know I’m not as alone inside as I feel. My despair is my bitter companion.

These computers confound me

I couldn't do the profile picture I wanted, it was too big or some such nonsense BS. I have like no pictures alone really, their all family shots. I generally try not to jump in front of a camera. So oh freaking well. For now I have a picture I don't like of myself, but it beats that other generic picture so it'll do for now. I just finished my work on quickbooks. I work from home right now doing bookkeeping type stuff. And the hours suck obviously. It contributes to my insomnia a lot of times, but i'm a night owl anyway. So anyway, I really have next to nothing to talk about.

In a perfect world...

I could wear flannel PJ's every day out in public, I would have like 86 MCR albums or more, Be able to have the coffee pot make its own coffee without me even having to push a button, I would just need to wish for it and it was there, to never have started smoking so I didn't have to deal with quitting, be able to pay a baby sitter in trident gum like the commercials say you can do, let me just say, that is NOT true, have poker night once a week with Gerard Way, Billie Joe Armstrong and Tom Delonge (my list of coolest dudes ever), play charades with them and watch old horror movies and kick

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Wednesday January 16, 2013 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

My son is going to high school next year(def making me feel old), and I' m getting really worried about him. He' s so funny, he' s empathetic, cute, he' s a great kid. And I don't ignore his flaws and think he' s perfect b/c he's my kid, he definitely has some flaws, but really he' s a cool kid. Very witty/sarcastic and always makes people laugh. Sometimes he' s super outgoing, other times he's VERY quiet. So what i' m worried about is he' s in 8th grade,and most boys his age average 5'6", some are a few inches shorter, but he' s almost a foot shorter then a bunch of kids his age. He' s 4'7", and hasn't had any major growth spurts yet. He said he' s about 4-5 inches shorter then the short kids. He struggled with it when he was like 10, getting picked on and whatnot. So I took him to a specialist, he has no growth disorders or health problems, but he' s still so small they put him on hormone shots. After 6 months, he told me he didn't want to do the shots, he was ok with his height. So I let him decide. I just want him to be happy with himself. Now he' s at a tough age and we had to go to the high school for orientation, and it' s massive, cold and intimidating. Reality is setting in for him that he' ll soon be with teens who can grow beards and drive, and sometime he gets shit from some kids in his grade now about looking 8. He' s freaking out and scared shitless about going to school with kids that can look 21 or older, some kids look way older then they are. I' m worried he' s going to be less outgoing, talk less b/c he feels so uncomfortable, etc. And in some classes they mix freshman with sophomores, juniors and seniors so he' s upset about that.I feel bad that he doesn't have a childhood like I did, neighbor friends who he' s known for years and at least one best friend he can tell anything to an hangs out with all the time. His closest friend like that is a kid a year older and going to a different high school. There' s NO kids by our house except 2 jock/sport loving kids who he' s not friends with. My son i into snowboarding, punk rock and doesn't want to play sports. He has friends,but no really really close ones he spends a lot of time with.

I hate just being able to do nothing.I can' t magically make him grow. I try to reassure him,tell him high school sucks for most kids,especially freshman year, and he' ll find his place and make friends, and then it' ll get easier, and that in some ways high school is meant to be endured,not enjoyed. But I wanted to know if anyone can give me perspective on this...I' m sure some of you are in high school,do you think some kids are going to give him a really tough time'? In other words, do you see really short boys getting picked on a lot? And he doesn't know if he wants to continue with band, but I really want him to and maybe he' ll make friends in band. I don' t want to watch him isolate himself b/c he feels self- conscious. Do you think it would be wrong of me to almost force him to do it? I don' t want gim to resentme, but I also want to see him get involved with something so he has the opportunity to make friends. It' s tough sometimes making new friends if people already have their group of friends at school. I don' t want to see him get picked on, lose friends and become more unhappy. If you read this whole thing thank you I love you :) xo

Monday January 07, 2013 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

I got a free download when I bought tickets to a Green Day concert, it says I get 3 downloads with the 3 tickets, but I may only be able to share 2, I actually don't know anyone who would want it. I have their CD already, It's for their album Uno, so I have 2 to share for free, if anyone wants one, you can give me your email and I'll send you the album....there's 2 just though. Ok, thats it :)

Monday January 07, 2013 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

Hey guys! I haven't been on here in a while, the holidays were fucking nutty and then my best friend since we were 10 or 11 lost her mom and that was really hard. She's only 35 and both her parents passed away now. It seems so wrong and unfair. I hope everyone is doing good. Aside from horrible things, I am really really excited...I got tickets to see Green Day April 1st and I cannot wait!!!! I totally screwed up and thought Rochester NY was about an hour away, then after I bought the tickets, I looked up the map thing and its 5 hours away. Oops :) I didn't want to go to the Brooklyn show, the standing room seats were sold out already. So I really don't care, their worth it and now I get to make a trip out of it, b/c there's no way I'm driving back 5 hours after the show, I'll be too tired and just stay in a hotel. Now if MCR would tour or come to the east coast for some festival or whatever, 2013 would be complete. So, does anyone have tips on what time I should get there if I want to get right up in front? It starts at 7:30, so I was thinking of getting there at 1 or 2. But I have no idea if that' s too early, or not early enough. And also, what's up with CW #4 being sold out? I pre- ordered number 2 &3, then I went on to buy #4 the other day and it looked like it was sold out on the day #3 came out, 12/18. I never saw the fourth one even go up for pre- order. I found it on ebay and bought it, but it just seemed weird it sold out that way. Anyway...have a great day all/smiley face

Friday December 21, 2012 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

1. What's your favorite movie? (me LOTR Return of the King)
2. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? (me I think The Lorax)
3'. Whats your favorite show if you have one? (me Dexter!!!!)
4. What's the last tv show you watched? (me Breaking Bad finale saved on my dvr)
5. What' s the big major thing you want for Christmas the most? (me..a nap, no really just to see my kids faces when they get there 3ds' s, and my oldest his xbox)
6. What's your favorite holiday song? (me I think O Holy Night...the Josh Groban version. So beautiful)

see ya! Oh yeah, we almost made it through doomsday. Hip Hip Hooray for me...and all of you. Bye.

Friday December 21, 2012 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

I'm not getting it any time really soon, probably in the spring/summer, but I knew as soon as I heard Ambulance, that I wanted the lyrics 'You don't know a thing about this life' as a tattoo. Those words really get to me, it's more like a saying to myself. That I don't know a thing about this life. I've realized, even when you grow up some, you seem to know less. You've heard that right? The older you get, the less you know? It's true. And I' not even that old yet. God help me when I reach 40s. So I'm gonna get this tattoo, and I'm trying to think of 2 things.

1. Where do I put it? (I want to see it...at first I thought right under my neck, but I can't see it then).

2. One idea I had, I"ve wanted one on the inside of my upper arm for a while. So I thought maybe I put half on one inner upper arm, half the lyrics on the other. Then I can stand with my arms extended, and you can read the whole sentence. So question is, if I do it this way, how do I split the lyrics? There's 8 words, but on one arm having 'You don't know A' seems weird.

Does thins sound like a good idea? Thanks guys!/smiley face

Friday December 21, 2012 
| Posted by: allilove4mcr

Hi you lovely awesome people:) So, it's officially "doomsday"', and I think its all total Buuuuulllllsssshhhhiiit. And guess what? If I'm wrong, and we're all doomed, then no one can say hey Allie, you were wrong, I told you so. Because, you know, we' ll all be goners anyway, lol.

So things are the same, still dealing with my difficult husband who doesn' t probably ever want to stop drinking, tonight was shitty earlier. Whenever he drinks a lot, and I mean a lot b/c when you do every day, it takes a crazy amount to get really drunk, he gets really obnoxious. I feel guilty b/c I did yell back at him after being criticized, judged n ridiculed for a few minutes..within earshot of my kids. I don't want them to have to listen to this He said something, how sad is it that I don't exactly remember? I don't even drink. All the fights meld together But he said something about me having an attitude with him, basically if I don't just listen to him rant and I find my own voice and disagree, then I'm a bitch and I get told over an over how I don' t get it. Whenever he's mad, he always calls me by my full name, Allison, blah blah. So I shot back way too loud, , maybe your just a douchebag. But I yelled and I feel really bad. I talked to my kids after, only one of them heard me and I apoligized to him and talked to him for a while about it.

I need to make a change in my life already. I feel really helpless. I cant get a regular job now, b/c my front tooth broke and I have no money to get it fixed. So of course he talked me into working from home for him, which I swore I wouldn't do again, but now I am b/c he doesn' t give me money for gas, the kids anything. He cut me off financially in the spring and got his own account so I'm 35 with no account, no debit or credit card, literally nothing. Then he tells me I'm an idiot if I don't jump on the opportunity to work for him, b/c I can save all this money and make my life better, and I'm the only one standing in my way. I've worked for him before and it was really hard to live up to his expectations.

So I work for him b/c I need something, but he's paying me just enough to have money for every day stuff, and with Christmas, I cant save any money for dental work, of which I need a lot. And I think he likes forcing m to depend on him. Sorry for ranting. I just needed to get some feelings out.

But yesterday afternoon was great. I went to my daughter's Christmas party at school, another girl followed me around and kept telling me she likes my purple hair in the back. She was so cute. I even sat in the rocking chair and read all the kids a book. Which seems lame, but for me, it's a big deal. I'm insanely shy and blush if more then 2 people are looking at me while I talk. Hope everyone is good, if not, at least doing ok and staying strong. :) xoxo