Oh dear god what did I just do?!

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Oh dear god what did I just do?!

I was talking to my friend who I previously mentioned in my last blog and...oh I don't know what happened. She starts saying how depressed she feels and how unloved and stuff and I feel a little hurt by that because she says that she has no one who cares and when I try to tell her she still has friends and family she says that they all eventually stop caring and that doesn't really make me feel great and I guess I lost it and started being selfish by saying that I'm aging before my time and all because I feel so stretched out what with my siblings unknowingly ruining my confidence in myself by teasing every little thing and trying to be there for her but feeling like I can't because no matter what I say she keeps saying how no one cares and how she just wants to sulk and cry and I start crying then too because I feel worthless because I can't make this one person happy. Then she starts yelling at me saying that I don't have to listen to her and how she'll gladly delete my number. I realize I had a total jerk moment then telling her that when I should've just been a good friend and kept trying to comfort her...but of course my stupid temper came out for once because I was just so frustrated and stressed from my own petty issues and now I think I've lost a good friend.
I just feel so terrible and pathetic now after doing that to her...and I fear she won't ever talk to me again.