so I had a pretty bad night on thursday when I tried talking to my dad one on one about being trans, and hee wouldn't look at me. it hurt, but I'm not caring about it anymore. Today's monday, and I have to go see my therpist, hopefully for the last time today. She's great, but I don't think we connect to well, she's better than the ones I've met in the past, but when it comes to my issues, she just tells me I'm wrong and switches to another subject, I started dreading when I had to go see her, and today I really don't want to go. especiall since it'll be like "I'm breaking up with you" kind of thing, but hopefully I'll find someone else I fit with better, and can make me feel better when I leave sessions. well, yeah.... In other news, I'm headed down to Florida on Friday for winter break! I'm so excited to see my grandma and my old friends. I'm even taking my guitar with me! so I'll get some serious practicing when I'm in (even though I already practice for more than 8 hours at a time). I really hope I can pursue music, it's begun to become like a serious passion for me, that and Video production, but I don't even care if I dont get paid for it, it would be pretty cool if I could make a living doing what I love, either music or anything Japanese, heck mabe I could teach about Anime (because I could lecture about it for hours, I am such an otaku). As I'm aproaching the end of my school years I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life...
